confused. . I am not. But inside yourself, you are, and worse is that you know the concept took a vast amount of time but you kept contradicting yourself until you gave up. Why give up? when you are right and everyone else doesn't many people kept judging you till there is no point believing your own thoughts on it. Why do you keep asking for attention? everyone else gets it, or at least the popular kids do, i deserve the same rights. But your shy and socialness is lacking. Thats what you get for being different and its not bad after all.