Summary:The first kiss on the breathe of her lips, why'd did the last one tear us a apart? Destiel AU! Castiel is 16 and Dean 18. Based of the song Kids in Love.

Warning: Smut, Hits of Sexual child abuse, but please don't be alarmed i will not go into that, just hints. But mostly all later on.

Plot: Castiel's a cross-dresser and has been since ten, his reason being because his father made him. Dean is just looking for a nice girl, someone he can have for a summer love. The two meet one day because of a friend, well a cousin to Cas. It was love at first sight to Dean, not so much for Cas. And the trouble being that Cas can't seem to get Dean to listen to him so he can tell Dean he's a boy. But it seemed Dean was going to have to learn that one the hard way. After events happen Dean and Cas quickly start to date, though Cas feels guilty for still not tell the man he was a boy. Mistakes and fights were always destined for this relationship but which ever way they stayed together. Until the time comes when the Cas finally has to tell Dean, telling the truth and one last kiss and he ran...But what was going to happen after? what did Cas expect?

Summer. Season for relaxing. Going to the beach, water fights, or some might rather to just stay inside. But overall just having, well, fun. But what was on the
top of Dean Winchesters Summer list was to find a 'summer love', easy right? No. Dean did have girls practically begging for him as they thought he was
'hot'. But really it wasn't as easy as taking a pick. Yeah there were girls and Yes he tried them out , but so far all of them are whiny bitches who are only good
for sex. Well, He did like sex. Of course he did. Just once though he would like a girl he could be with and not want to punch in the face, to get them to stop
bitching. Yeah. That would be nice.

Dean let out a loud sigh as he walked down the beach, hands in pockets. He had been with his friends but he need a break for a while. Dean looked over to
the group and saw one of his friends with a young girl no younger than 16. She seemed... pleasant, also very pretty, beautiful perhaps. Long brown, messy
hair that seemed to go down to her chest. Her eyes...her eyes, they were gorgeous, large and blue. So innocent. She wore what looked to be a poofy dress or
skirt under a trench coat, making the coat itself poof out, like a trench coat dress as Dean called it. She wore very minimal make-up, a natural look. She
was...Cute.

Dean was in a daze and hadn't realised that the pair had already noticed Dean and made their way over. Dean was startled by the pair of gorgeous blue eyes that met his. He jumped slightly when his friend hit is hand on his shoulder.

"Hey Winchester." His friend smiled. "Do you mind taking care of my cousin, Castiel, he seems to like to wonder around, and..." He leaned in closer to Dean's
ear. "I'm a little busy." he pointed over to a girl standing not to far away.

"U-um...yeah, I'll take care of her." Dean seemed to be a little dazed still and didn't seem to notice his friend had called the girl a 'he'. His friend chuckled
slightly and gave a goofy smile.

"Thanks. Bye Castiel." Castiel nodded at the goodbye and waved shyly as his cousin left him with a stranger, or well a stranger to him.

It was silent for a while as Dean had forgotten his new responsibility of taking care of his junior by two years.

"U-uh..." Cas stopped for a moment as he tried to think of the name his cousin called the stranger. "..Winchester?"

Dean went from a love-struck, blank expression to immediately laughing. "My name's not Winchester." Dean smiled sweetly at the girl.

Cas looked at the ground in embarrassment, being laughed at wasn't exactly something he enjoyed, not that he really got the reason he was being laughed at.
"I-I'm sorry but he jus-"

"Oh, that because he just called me by my surname. I'm Dean."

"I'm Castiel, and wel-"

"introductions over, how 'bout I take this beautiful angel to lunch?"

"I'm sorry, I don't understand. There are no angel's around." Cas tilted his head to the side.

"You're a weird girl. I meant you." At the remark Cas become more confused. "Oh don't worry about it. Just let's go for burgers."

"O-okay?"

The pair had made their way to a nearby burger place and found a seat. Not many people seemed to come there and the place was practically empty. Dean had ordered a beef and bacon burger and had already devoured it and now had his eyes set on an apple pie sitting on the counter.

Castiel was sitting quite awkwardly across from Dean. He hadn't ordered anything, and neither had decided to start up a conversation.

"Hey, Cas? you don't mind if i call you Cas, right? Well Castiel would be more girly..." Dean had lost what he was talking about as we wasn't sure his nickname for the 'girl' was girly enough.

"You can call me Cas or Castiel, i don't particularly mind." Cas answered. "I'm not re-"

"Okay cool. So Cas, Would you like some pie? I'm going to go up and get a slice." Dean cut the other off.

"A-ah, yes. Thank you. But De-" Dean had already walked off to go buy two slices of pie by time Cas said yes. "I just want to explain to you that I'm not actually a girl." Cas said to himself as he sighed.

The day seemed to go on like this. Cas feeling awkward and random conversation popping up here and there, as Dean tried to keep the beauty interested. Of course Cas tried multiply times to explain to Dean he was a boy, but failed each time as Dean cut him off. Cas soon gave up on the idea. It wasn't like he needed to tell Dean, because when was he going to see him again. He wasn't his friend, He was his cousins friend.

It soon got late and Cas wanted to go home, Dean offered to take Him home. After Multiply times of trying to deny it was yet another thing Cas gave up on.

"So this is your house?" Dean questioned looking at the building.

"Well one is. I live in a small apartment."

"And your parents?"

"gone."

"gone?"

"Not here. I live by myself."

"But you're sixteen aren't you?"

"Yeah. My Aunty offered me to stay at her place but I didn't believe I needed to trouble them." Cas gave Dean a small smile.

"Are you sure you'll be alright by yourself? You can stay at mine." It was a silly offer, Dean knew that. He just met the girl.

"I just met you today..."

"Yeah, I guess you did." Dean ran his fingers through his hair.

"I better get up stairs now."

"Yeah." Dean offered a smile to Cas and gave him a quick good-night kiss. Cas blushed a slight pick.

"I-I...I have to go now. Good night."

Dean laughed a bit before shoving his hands in his pockets and walking towards his car, he also needed to get home his brother and Father would be wondering where he was.

Castiel had run up the stairs and slammed his front door close. He slid down the door until he was sitting on his butt. He ran his fingers over his lips. There was a burning sensation. His first kiss. From someone he just met. And what was worse the person, a man mind you, had believed he was a girl. Well of course he did, Cas was a cross dresser, and he was still in the mist of puberty, meaning his voice wasn't deep. Actually he pulled off this cross dressing thing quite well. Enough of that! Cas was flustered, this was one of those moments he was glad he lived alone.

Castiel stood up and made his way to the bathroom. Picking up a make-up wipe and washed his face. He then took off his wig and finally put on a pair of track suit pants and a white singlet, his pyjamas He looked like a boy now. I normal sixteen year-old boy. Why was he still doing this thing. He had only dressed up like a girl because of his father.

When his mother had died from illness it hit Cas' father hard. She was the love of his life, his one and only. Now she was gone. The one thing left was Castiel, and he looked so much like his mother. All he needed to do was put him in a dress and make him wear a wig, a bit of make up and perfect. One problem was Cas was 10, short. But his Father made the acceptance.

Castiel crawled up in his bed hugging his knees in. He didn't like to remember the past. All he could ever do was hide, hide in his mothers closet. He would hug his mothers coat (the one he wears now) and cry, that would be until his Father found him. It was the things that happened then Cas didn't like to remember.

Dean had gotten home at twelve am and of course his father was still awake, waiting for him to return home.

"Out late again?"John, his father asked. Dean sighed, he was hoping to get past him.

"Sorry. I had to take care of a girl for my friend. It was his cousin, and she's sixteen. I couldn't of left her alone. And she lived on the other side of town."

"I'm not sure if that's true or if it's just you telling me you went and slept with another girl." John sighed. "Dean you're eighteen, you don't need to go out sleeping with women every night."

Dean felt awkward. Talking about this type of thing with his father was, well, weird. "I wasn't though. I was telling the truth." John again sighed as he gave up. "I'm gonna go to bed." Dean announced and walked up stairs to the bedroom he shared with his brother, Sam.

Once Dean walked through he discovered his brother had not yet gone to sleep. "What can't sleep? Afraid a monster's going to eat you if you big bro's not here to save you?" Dean teased his brother.

"No." Sam bluntly answered. "I'm reading." Reading was something Sam did enjoy, and it would be something he would do all night if he was allowed. Dean knew that. But it was still fun to tease his little brother.

"So I met this girl. She's about a two years older than you." Sam just nodded at this, he didn't particularly care. "She was cute. But she's two years younger than me, it'd be a bit risky dating her." Dean was practically talking to himself now.

"Dean can you shut up. I want to read."

"Bitch."

"Jerk."

and at that Dean rolled over and went to sleep.

hello this is my Destiel Au! It just something that came to me one day and I thought I'd try it out. I know they're probably not really in character, or the story might sound weird, but I swear I'll get better. (probably not) Anyway enjoy, this will also be my first smut so bear with me and I hope you enjoyed. Review, Favourite and Follow PLEASE!