"I want to die," Leah whispered softly as she held the gun limply. "Shifting was never something that should've happened to me. I was supposed to leave with Sam and start a life far away from this hell hole. But that idea gets taken away when he shifted and leaves me for, what I now know is a fucking imprint. But you know at the time I just wanted to get as far away from here as possible. I didn't need Sam to fulfill my dreams. Especially, if he wanted my cousin over me. Fuck him, you know?"

Jacob could feel his wolf whine at his pack-mate's pain. How didn't he see how much she was suffering before today. Guilt flowed through him as each time Paul or Jared, honestly any of the pack (including himself), made her feel unwelcome flooded his mind. This was the Pack's fault. Her pain was all thanks to them. His eyes found Paul's and knew the moment their eyes met that he knew he wasn't the only one drowning in guilt.

Leah began to shake as she continued. "I would come back during breaks where the only worry I had was how I could eat all of my mom's cooking without getting a stomach ache. Probably even took my dad up on a fishing trip once or twice...I nearly killed him when I shifted...The man that has been there for me my whole life, always supporting me no matter what...almost died because I was filled with so much rage. Do...do you know he barely says anything to me now? He's scared of me." Pausing she clenches her eyes shut. "I can smell it on him...another wonderful gifts from the spirits," she spat. "Who could blame him. I'm a fucking freak."

"He isn't scared of you," Jacob whispered trying not to provoke her. "He's scared for you. All the elders reek of fear because they are afraid that we won't come back from a patrol."

Leah snorted clenching the gun tightly. "Whatever you say. I didn't want this! I had plans for the future and now what do I have?! A Pack that reminds me every fucking chance they can that I don't belong and how much of a freak I am. Like I don't already know that!" She took a few deep breaths feeling her wolf clawing at her, begging to sink her teeth into one of their throats. It wouldn't be like they didn't deserve it. "I've accepted that I would never belong and that's why I jumped on any chance to fight leeches. It's their fault that I'm trapped here in a body that isn't mine and if I died ripping one apart so fucking be it."

Sam cringed as he listened to the love of his life admit that she didn't care whether she lived or died. Why didn't he see this sooner. As Alpha it was his job to make sure the pack was well. That if they needed help, whether it was emotional, financial, or mental, he would be there. He was a failure. Whining he took a step closer to her window. It didn't take a rocket scientist to know he was the last person she would want to see or speak to but he would at the very least be near to jump in. He owed it to her to be there for her. He's been doing such a awful job as Alpha... After today he silently promised that she would never feel alone again. The pack would do better. They just had to pull her out of this first. No one had to die.

"I can't do this," she whispered shaking her head. Tears were starting to come as everything she said hit them. "I don't want this life...I tried not shifting...I tired ignoring the wolf...BUT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY...I can't...I just can't...The only way to get away from this is-" Before she could lift the gun the scent of burning garbage assaulted her. "Vampire." dropping the gun Leah felt her body move before she could blink. Maybe I won't have to do it myself. It would be more fitting for a leech to kill me anyway.

Jacob quickly picked the gun up crushing the barrel and handing it to Paul. "Get rid of this, Sam is probably already following her, I'm going to catch up with them. Once you get rid of that get the rest of the pack we have a leech on our land," Jacob growled silently glad the leech appeared. If anything that would give them a chance to help Leah through all of this pain.

Sam was running next to her but didn't dare say a word. She was already on the edge and didn't need advice or to be told not to do something. For as long as he known and loved her he knew silence was what she needed at the moment. He still sent her waves of support and empathy. He was going to make this right, even if it meant letting her claw, bite, and rip all of her pain into his body. For her there was nothing he couldn't endure to help get her through this.

Soon the scent got stronger as they reached the cliff his pack...family would dive from during the humid summer.

It was as Leah said moments earlier leeches were the reason that they shifted and he hated them for it. They were the reason so many in his pack were stuck on the Res and lives were so fucked up now but just this once he was grateful to the one that decided to step on their land. Who knew what could of happened as Leah was reaching her breaking point. Would Jake have been able to stop her in time or would he been able to leap through the window in hopes to reach her before she pulled the trigger?

If he would loose the first person to ever take time to get to know the real him, the only person who helped him heal after his mother's death, and the only person that would never turn her back on him he would follow her to the afterlife, no questions asked. His wolf whined and images of Emily flashed in his mind but he pushed them back. Emily already knew how Sam, the man, felt. He loved her but not as mush as Leah. Never as much as Leah. Maybe one day but Leah and him were together for years and six months with a *forced gift* from the Gods wasn't going to erase what they have-had.

The cliff was in view and his heart hit the ground at the sight before him. "Leah stop," his Alpha voice boomed. "The leech has a human."

No matter how much she wanted to die there was no way in hell she was going to be the cause of an innocent's death. Her paws came to a stop as she eyed the leech who had such a small girl by the throat. The smell of strawberries found their way through the overwhelming scent of leech. Thinking clearly for a brief second there was something familiar about this girls scent.

"Bella," Jacob shouted in their mind link. Flashes of a pale shy clumsy girl flooded all of their minds. "That's Chief Swan's girl, Sam. We can't just stand back and let that blood sucker kill her!"

Charlie was a good man and always helped around the Rez since Leah could remember. Before she could think of a plan Leah was running towards the leech. Charlie saved her dad's life the first heart attack he ever had. So maybe she could make this meaningless miserable life of her's mean something by saving his baby girl.

"Leah stand down," Sam barked.

But the order fell on deaf ears. Before anyone could move she was knocking into the vampire who was so focused on the girl it didn't see a bear sized wolf running towards them at full speed. In a flash the vampire kicked her away but not before releasing Bella off of the cliff.

The girl screamed as she fell, eyes clenched waiting for the certain end. Thoughts of things that she never got to experience flashed before her; going to every state, completing college, becoming a doctor, loosing her virginity-as the list went on and on she sent out an apology to Charlie for each summer she didn't spend with him. She was selfish and a terrible-

"I got you," a soft voice whispered into her ear as hot arms wrapped around her waist pulling her close to an even hotter body. "You're going to be alright Swan! I just need you to keep your eyes closed and take a deep breath for me."

Leah didn't care who tore into the bloodsucker she had to save the girl no matter what. Pushing pass the leech quicker than she knew possible she leaped off the cliff diving towards the girl and raging waves. It wasn't long until the girl was in her reach and in mere seconds she shifted back to her human form reaching out to the screaming girl. Her arms were wrapping around the tiny human as a sigh of relief left her lips. I saved her... "I got you," she whispered into the girls ear hoping that it would quell her screams. Pulling the girl into her body she prepared for their rough landing. "You're going to be alright Swan! I just need you to keep your eyes closed and take a deep breath for me."

Bella didn't argue but clung tighter to the she-wolf. Closing her eye and taking a deep breath of her own Leah pulled the girl as close as humanly possible before they hit the water hard. Cringing she hoped that the girl wasn't in too much pain from the impact. Unlike her Swan didn't have an inhuman healing ability on her side.

Shaking the thought out of her head Leah focused on the task at hand. She had to pull them through the raging tide to the shore where she could already hear the pack screams. There was no doubt in her mind that once she made it to them Swan would have every available blanket and towel waiting for her. So she pedaled as fast as she could, all while never once loosing grip on Swan.

Muscles screamed as they fought the harsh current and for the first time since she shifted Leah was glad that she was a wolf. It was the only thing keeping them from being swept away at the moment. All she had to do was push just a little longer and her useless life would actually mean something.

After what felt like hours passed Leah was able to stand cradling the tiny human close to her burning body. "I told you everything would be okay," Leah whispered softly as she march towards the pack.

Bella opened her eyes and looked into her savior's eyes.

It felt like the air was knock out of Leah as she found herself falling into an endless pool of chocolate. Tears began to fall as the imprint began to swim in her veins filling her with a purpose. Before the strange and frightening thing could consume her Jacob snatched the tiny swan out of her arms and into his.

Blinking she watches the way he interacted with her light in the darkness. His eyes stared at the girl as if she was his home. "Bells, I got you," he cried as he wrapped as many blankets as he could around her. "You're safe."

How dare he look at my Swan like that when the fucking spirits deemed me worthy of her love. Claws pushed out her finger tips as her wolf watched. This boy has no right to touch her!

Bella blinked at Jacob as he continued to tell her how scared he was. She wanted to comfort him but her body and mind was more concern about her savior. Weakly lifting her head over the massive shoulders in front of her she found the pained filled yellow? eyes that just moments ago she found herself lost in.

That was all it took for Leah to snatch Sam's oversized shirt and move towards her tiny human. Sliding the shirt on she reached Jacob and Swan in three large steps. Leah grabbed Swan gently out of Jacob's arms and walked towards her home not giving a fuck what anyone (mostly Jacob) had to say.

"What are you doing Leah," Jacob growled lowly.

Swan had fallen asleep as soon as Leah held her right against her chest. "Taking her somewhere where she can warm up baby alpha," Leah answered never taking her eyes off of Bella.

"Take her to my home," Sam commanded gently. "Emily has clothes for the both you already prepared. Leah you did great." Nodding her head she changed her path. Sam scratched his stubble as he tried to figure out how to go about introducing the pack to the newest imprint.

A/N: I've been going through some really tough things but everything seems to be calming down (even only for a short time). So i wanted to get back to writing. I'm hoping to update my other stories soon. So until next time thank you for reading.