Dear Doctor,
I can't recall how long it's been. A month maybe? It feels like years. A lot has changed for you and me… our whole inner workings and dynamics. Well, yours a bit more literal than mine… but we've still changed. It used to be as if…we were the best of friends, Doctor….we were inseparable. Nothing could stop us. We saved each other from the terrors of life itself. That oh so scary universe? It never seemed as scary as long as I had you with me.
Did I fancy you? I won't lie. I did, in fact, fancy you. However, I see now that you're my best friend. You showed me just how beautiful the world is! Much less the universe through all of time and space. How many people get to see that? I bet the smiles are always worth it.
Looking back… I remember our smiles. The adventure in our eyes… Oh Doctor! I miss it. I was stupid not to cherish all of our moments while we were still making them. My feeling got in the way… you never do see what you have till it's gone. Maybe one day…we can once more make those crazy and extraordinary memories. That's a soufflé I'd love to bake.
I keep waiting to hear the TARDIS outside. Not a day goes by where I don't think about it…when I don't think about you. I wonder what you do while I'm here. Do you simply forget about me, or do you remember too? Sometimes I worry you don't become attached to us because you're so used to losing us. You've told me before, about your past friends, family…lovers. I've even see your past selves over all those years. Doctor… could we really be so…disposable?
I won't stand for it Doctor. As long as I can still fight, I will never stop being your companion. I don't care about the hurt, pain, and betrayal Doctor… we both do it to each other…but do we really care so little? That something as simple as a fight can make us forget it all? I don't forget it. Not one second. How could I forget? Shouldn't the smiles overpower the frowns at the end of the day? I can't understand.
It's like… couples in school. I see them all the time in the hallways. They're as close as can be one week…and the next? It's like they're strangers. I won't let that happen to us. We all change, I know, but a friend accepts that change. I know, at first, I didn't accept you… and we fought. For a while, we hit a dim spot. But I never stopped trusting you Doctor.
Doctor, I'm sorry for betraying you… I don't know if you can ever forgive me… I've lied before… and I have caused you a great deal of trouble. I hope you can come to forgive me and give us another go… because I know we're not done. Our story will continue. I can't finish this novel alone. I want to be your friend. You'll always be mine. Together, we could find out how much we've both changed. I think we might see the beauty in it, if we give it a chance.
How would we ever know, if we didn't give it one last go? You know where to find me.
-Clara
A/N: I wrote this in a fit of... sadness. Little out of character thanks to my own personal things. But, nonetheless, it helped me alot.