Arizona's POV
I pulled out my phone and the date hit me way down deep. October 23 is what the screen read and I thought i was going to punch something or throw the phone through the room, but I didn't. I maintained my anger. How could two years pass by so quickly? I don't get it. Two years and a day ago we were so happy. We were taking a break, but we had that night. That magical freaking night and then she left.
Today is going to suck. I couldn't stop thinking about sitting in that Therapist office, hopeful that my relationship was going to work out, but it never did. I walked into that office happy and married to the love of my life and I walked out… I walked out getting a divorce and broken.
When I walked through the doors I headed toward the coffee cart. I clearly forgot to grab some coffee with my five second break down this morning. I saw Callie standing there with her. Why today of all days? I heard myself sigh. I was halfway there when Penny walked away. Yes.
"Coffee. Black." I said as I approached the cart.
I heard Callie laugh and it caused an eruption of butterflies.
"What's so funny?" I questioned her as I dumped sugar in my cup.
"I have just never understood why you get coffee when you hate the taste and add that much sugar in it. Why don't you just get a latte?" She smiled.
"Well, one, I need this for energy. Two, if I got a latte I wouldn't look like such a bad-ass, Dr. Torres." I winked. I felt brave for some reason.
"Well, you have a bear on your scrubs, I think that already takes the bad-ass away, Dr. Robbins." She added emphasis on the doctor part because she knows I hate when she calls me that. I roll my eyes with a smile and she walks away.
For some reason I could never take my eyes off of her when she left a room. I mean, I know why. She is sexy, but I needed to learn to control myself around her.
Callie's POV
Did she just wink at me? Was she flirting with me? Crap, what is today? I looked at my phone and I saw the date. I love that her and I have maintained a friendship through the break up and the divorce, but she needs to control her flirting. Three times a year she gets on this thing about flirting with me. The three most traumatic situations for her that I was around for is when she chooses to flirt with me. Before I walked away I asked Arizona to have lunch with me. We haven't had lunch together since before she met Penny. Most people think that the divorce didn't hurt me because I never let my pain show, but whenever I wasn't on call and didn't have Sofia I was hovered over a trash can, drunk off my ass, crying for Arizona.
"Callie." I heard a voice behind me say and I knew it was Penny. I for some reason wasn't in the mood to talk to her now. Probably because I realized what today was and I felt myself get a little upset. Don't get me wrong, Penny is an amazing girlfriend and person, but right now I just wasn't in the mood. We have been fighting all the time and it was getting exhausting, so sometimes I attempted to avoid approached me and hugged me. It was a long drawn out hug and I didn't seem to mind because I saw Arizona standing there and that means I could watch her. She was their with April and I saw her every time she would look up and over at me. She looked sad every time she looked over, but she smiled at me and I smiled right back. I've always noticed how stunning Arizona was, but some days more than others. Penny released me from the hug, but I still couldn't take my eyes off of Arizona. For the last time she looked up at me, her eyes locked with mine, and I thought I could feel every emotion she had ever felt. I couldn't stop looking at her, in this moment. She looked so vulnerable to me.
"Callie?" Penny said to get my attention. I broke the gaze, but only for a second.
She stood there and talked to me about some surgery she was going to scrub in on later. I tried to be interested or at least seem like I was. It sounded cool, but I just couldn't focus.
Arizona's POV
When I saw Penny hugging Callie I didn't know if I wanted to rip her head off or cry. Probably cry, I have never been a violent person, but I felt like I could be for Callie.
"Arizona?" I heard April say, but I couldn't stop looking at Callie. She is so beautiful. "Arizona?" "Hello, Arizona?" She sighed and tried again. "Arizona Robbins!" Finally I averted my attention back to April. "What?" "What were you looking-" She turned around to look. "Ooooooooh. Don't worry about them, Arizona."
I shook my head. "No… Uhm, no, I'm not worried about them. I'm worried about her. Callie has been acting different toward me today."
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"Like, she asked me to have lunch with her. We have not had lunch together in years. I barely even see her anymore. Then when she was standing over there with Penny she wouldn't stop looking at me.I know that I am overthinking everything, but…" I looked to where they had been standing and no one was there anymore.
Penny's POV
I saw the way she was looking at Arizona. She does it often, but I never say anything. I try to ignore it, but I'm over it. No one wants her girlfriend to be looking at their ex like that, it hurts. She's never looked at me with such love and commitment. I understand that she loves Arizona and always will, but I wish she wouldn't eye-fuck her around me. Callie loves me, but I don't believe that she is in love with me nor will she ever be. Her relationship with Arizona took a toll on her and I don't see her ever letting that go. I was deep in thought when I ran into someone.
"Ouch." I said as I looked up. I saw the perky blonde standing in front of me, her smile was gone. We haven't talked since that night at Meredith's house.
"Oh, God… Arizona… I mean, uh, Dr. Robbins, are you alright?"
She looked at me, so disgusted. "Yeah, Blake, I am fine, but next time watch where you're going." She demanded.
"Uh.. Yeah, of course. I am so sorry." Holy shit, why am I so nervous around her? She walked away, but something inside me snapped. Oh, no. "Robbins!" I called out to her and she turned around on her heel.
"What do you want, Blake?"
I moved forward slowly. What have I done? Shut up, Penny. Turn around and walk away. I repeated in my head.
"I see the way that you look at Callie. I don't appreciate it, at all. So, I will say this once, stay away from her."
She got right in my face. What did I just do?
"Excuse me? I don't care who or what you are to her, it doesn't compare to who or what I am to her. I am here and I will always be here. I will continue to look at her, talk to her, and be in her life. Got that? You do not get to make that decision. I built a life with Callie, we have a daughter together. You do not get to come in and think you're in charge of it all now."
I walked away. She was right. It was not my decision, but I wish it was. She was also right that I am nothing to Callie compared to what she is, has been, and always will be. No matter what, Callie will always love her more.
. Arizona's POV
"Karev!" I screamed as I stormed down the hallway.
"What's up, Robbins?"
"You will never guess what just happened to me!"
"I bet you're going to tell me." He smiled. I'm sure he could tell how angry I was.
"Penny,"I paused, trying to control my anger before I punched something. "She had the nerve to tell me that I need to stay away from Callie."
"Are you freaking kidding me? Who the hell does she think she is?" He interrupted.
"One, we have a child together. Two, we have been in each others lives for years. Together or not. Penny has barely been here! She knows nothing about Calliope and I!" Oh man, I was livid.
"Robbins, don't let her get to you. I think you need to talk to Torres."
His words hit me like a ton of bricks, but I don't know why. It's not that big of a deal, but what if Callie sides with Penny?
"What? W...Why?" My heart sank. "It's not that big of a deal, honestly. I can't talk to her."
"You can and you will. You need to and you know that. What's the problem?"
"Alex, what if she takes Penny's side?"
His look was genuine, but kind of confused. "After everything you two have been through, do you think she would do that? Plus, she has more than just herself to think about in this situation, she has Sof too."
I had nothing left to say. I didn't think she would take Penny's side, but I don't know Callie much these days. I need to talk to her, now. I walked away from Alex, without saying another work and texted Callie.
Callie's POV
"Ugggh! I'm trying to sleep!" I growled as my phone started going off.
I hit the unlock button and saw Arizona's name before I ever opened the homescreen. I jumped out of the bed and walked out of the on-call room.
Calliope, meet me, now Please? I'll be in our on-call room. The text read.
I quickly responded. On my way.
I haven't been in our on-call room since that night.
[Flashback]
Arizona, our on-call room, now.
A few minutes pass by and Arizona finally arrived.
As soon as she shut the door, Callie attacked her. She pushed her against the door, locking it.
Arizona let out a loud gasp. "Callie."
"Hm." She responded not stopping her work on Arizona's neck.
"What's got you all like this?" She smiled.
Callie stopped and looked at her. "Surgery. Long, tiring, major, hot. I thought about you the entire time. I thought about how proud you would have been, how bad it would have got to you seeing me killing the surgery and it got me like this." She smiled and kissed her again.
Arizona loved watching Callie do surgeries. It did something to her.
Deep in her thoughts of her wife doing surgery, she feels herself being tossed onto a bed, knocking her out of her wonderful daydream.
She looked down at her wife, who was kissing down her stomach.
Woah, when did my clothes come off? She thought to herself.
She felt the pleasure course over her body as her wife worked her magic.
"Oh, Calliope." She moaned, softly
She loved when Callie was rough, but she loved times like this when Callie was gentle and made love to her.
Callie kissed her way back up Arizona's stomach and chest. She kissed around her neck, her jaw line, her cheeks, and back to her mouth.
"I love you, Arizona."
Arizona smiled and placed one hand on Callie's cheek while the other lingered on her bare back. "I love you, too."
She flipped Callie over under her and slowly took her pants off. Which revealed Callie's purple panties. Arizona gasped. These are the ones she wore the first night they met.
Love, desire, lust, want, and need coursed through Arizona's body. She slid the panties off next and tossed them to the floor. She began kissing her wife's thighs. Callie hadn't thought about anything today other than this moment. This was pure bliss to her.
Callie's POV
I feel so nervous and I don't know why. It's not like it's one of our steamy moments. My thoughts of that last night vanish when I found myself grabbed the handle to open the door.
I open the door and I instantly notice Arizona has been crying.
"Arizona, what's wrong?" I shut the door behind me and rushed over to her, sitting next to her on the bed. She looked at me and sighed.
"I don't know who's side you're going to take and if you take hers, I don't blame you, but I thought I needed to tell you." She paused.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, completely confused.
"You need to either get your girlfriend under control or tell me what you want."
"W-what?"
She let out another sigh. "She ran into me today and when I tried to walk away she said my name, so I turned around to see what she wanted. She told me that I need to stay away from you because she knows that I still love you."
"She what?" I felt the rage course through my entire body. "Arizona, you do not listen to her. I don't know who she thinks she is speaking to you like that, but I will not accept it. She crossed a line and there is no coming back from this. I don't care. You are the mother of my child and she has no business interfering with us." I couldn't help it, but I wrapped her in a hug. I felt every need for this. It wasn't only to console her, but myself too. I felt tears start to form, but I refused to let them fall. I was too angry to be upset.
"I'm sorry, Callie."
"Why are you sorry? You have done nothing wrong. This is not your fault."
I stood up and began pacing, trying to calm myself down.
Arizona stood up and stood in front of me to stop my movement. She wrapped her arms around me. Looked up at me, into my eyes. Her eyes looked so sad. "I love you, Callie." She kissed my cheek and walked out of the on-call room.
Now, it is my turn to confront Penny. This has to be done now. Arizona is my friend and Sof's mother, Penny has no right to come between that. She should have trusted me. I barely talk to Arizona anymore.
After a few minutes I found Penny at the coffee cart with some other interns.
"Penny!" I yelled from across the room. "We need to talk now!" I grabbed her wrist and pulled her away. We went to the nearest on-call room.
"Who the hell do you think you are to tell Arizona to stay away from me? That is not only you affecting me, but my daughter too!"
Her eyes widen and her smile slowly faded. "I...I don't know what I was thinking. I saw the way she was looking at you this morning and I overreacted. I'm so sorry, Callie."
"Penny…" I sighed. "I'm done. You have no say in that part of my life. Arizona has been a big part of my life. She is my friend. We have to be there for each other for our daughter and if you can't understand that, you're not who I thought you were."
"I do under-" I shut the door to the on-call room and walked away. I didn't need to hear anything more.
Arizona's POV
I need to talk to Callie again. I don't know why, but I feel like I really need to. So, I decide to text her.
Lunch? I sent and she almost instantly responded. Sure. (: Give me five and I'll meet you down there? I shoved my phone back in my pocket with a smile.
When she reached my table I could tell that she had been crying.
"Calliope, what's wrong?"
She smiled and wiped away a tear. "Nothing, I'll be okay."
"You can talk to me if and when you want to, I am here." I grabbed her hand and she didn't pull away, she didn't flinch, she didn't move.
"Thank you, Arizona." She smiled and looked down at our hands. "So, why did you want to have lunch with me after so long?"
I felt my body freeze. Why did she make me so nervous? "I just wanted to talk." I smiled at her and she returned the smile.
"I realized what today was. How are you?" Her question hurt and I don't know why, but it did. Maybe it hurt because I wanted to tell her that I wasn't okay or that I needed her. That I loved her, but instead I choose to stick with the 'I'm okay' bit.
"I'm alright. Thank you. How are you?" I smiled and I really wanted to know. "That was a stupid question, you were crying when you came up here." I frowned. I hated to see her so sad.
"I'm okay. It's just that I left Penny and it sucks, but she obviously wasn't right for me."
I suddenly felt so guilty. Maybe I shouldn't have told Callie. "Callie, I am so sorry. This is my fault for telling you. I hope you're going to be okay."
"Arizona Robbins!" She gasped, shocked. "This is far from your fault. I'm glad that you told me. I always want to know when someone upsets you, especially if it has to do with me. You're more important to me than anyone. You and Sof are what matters to me. We may not be together, but you will always be apart of my life and I need someone who can understand that." She tightened her grip on my hand.
You need me, Callie. I couldn't help but think to myself. Why did I have to mess up so bad? I love her, so much.
"Callie, you'll find someone who is right for you. Someone that will understand everything. Someone who understands our life, your job, everything. You'll get that."
Callie's POV
It's so good to have Arizona to confide in. I don't know what I'd do without her.
"Thank you for inviting me to lunch with you." I smiled as I reached for my pager that wouldn't stop going off. I couldn't let go of her hand for some reason. It was just nice to have a hand that fit in mine so perfectly. Someone's hand who felt like it was made for mine.
"I enjoyed it, Calliope. We should do it more often."
"We will. I'd like this to be a part of my everyday." She said with a smile. "I have to go though. This pager won't shut up." I release her hand and it felt so empty now.
My page wasn't 911, so I figured it wasn't too important. Like I said it wasn't too important. It was Penny using someone else's pager.
"Seriously?" I scoffed.
"Callie, will you please just let me talk to you?" She pleaded.
"Whatever." I followed her into an on-call room. When I shut the door behind me she turned around and looked deep into my eyes.
"Callie, I'm sorry for what I did. I was out of line. I understand that. I have to think of you and Sofia and the things that are best for the two of you. I got upset and I tried to stop myself, but I couldn't stop. Please, I'm sorry. I love you."
I felt tears trying to fall, but I couldn't let them. I love her, but what she did was completely wrong.
"Penny… I… I can't just forgive you. The way you spoke to Arizona was completely wrong. That's not just something that I can move on from. I'm sorry."
I wanted to wrap her in my arms and kiss her, but instead I stood my ground. I turned on my heel and walked out of that room. I felt myself crying, but it wouldn't stop.
My mind went straight to Arizona. She was always my go to when I was upset, so I texted her.
I'm sad and I need you. Can you come to the Ortho ward?
Minutes later Arizona showed up in my office.
"Thank you for coming." I managed to say through sniffles.
"I told you I would always be here, Callie." She smiled and reached out for my hand and i accepted her requested. She pulled up a chair and sat in front of me. She placed her free hand on my cheek and I couldn't help myself and I melted into her. She wiped my tears away and kissed my cheek, softly.
"So, what happened, beautiful?" She questioned. Her compliment and question made my heart sing. I don't get it, it's not like I want her in that way anymore.
"Penny tried to apologize for talking to you the way she did, but I just can't. She put her own needs in front of my daughters and I can't be with someone like that." I buried my head in her neck.
Arizona's POV
I was taking a long shot here, but I felt like it was now or never. "Callie, do you want to go grab a drink or some food?"
She lifted her head off of me and looked up into my eyes. "Are you sure you want to be seen in public with me? I am a mess."
"You're always so beautiful, Calliope." I smiled. I truly meant that. I have seen this woman happy, sad, mad, absolutely destroyed, vulnerable, strong, weak, I have seen her in every way and I never stopped thinking she was beautiful. "I mean that. You really, really are." I smiled and ran my hands through her beautiful, black hair.
She smiled and this smile connected with her eyes. "I would love to go get a drink or food or something with you."
"What sounds the best to you? I'm guessing Joe's after your day?"
To my surprise she shook her head, no. "How about we grab a bottle and some pizza and we go back to your place? I'd say mine, but my parents are there with Sofia." She smiled.
"I like that sound of that, Calliope. I'll drive us to the liquor store, you order the pizza."
I walked into the liquor store and I know what Callie's favorite is, but I don't know if she would want to get that drunk. So, I settle on getting her favorite Tequila and a bottle of wine, so I was prepared for whatever mood she was going to have tonight.