Disclaimer: I, in no way, own any part of Twilight or its sequels. That's Stephenie Meyer's department.
I never wanted it to end like this. It was all my fault, why couldn't I have just left when I had the chance? I wanted to die, I deserved as much after what I had done to the most perfect being to ever walk the earth.
Bella Swan was dead.
I had killed her.
Indirectly of course but it was still my fault. If I had had the strength to leave her when I had the chance, she would never have been exposed to James.
I killed him of course, and Victoria too when she tried to stop me. I wasted no time on them, they didn't deserve my time. They took my love from me.
Now I was empty, I had nothing left. As I held her lifeless body, I wished I could cry for her, but there was one thing I could do for her. I decided I should join my love.
NO! I was suddenly bombarded by my sister's horrified and silent outburst, having seen the outcome of my decision. Edward, you can't! I won't let you! "Edward, please don't!Please!" she pleaded.
"What's he planning?" Jasper asked anxiously, reading his wife's horror and my own resignation.
"He wants to die!" she cried. "He plans to go to the Volturi to get them to do it!"
"NO!" Emmett shouted. He leaped at me with hardly a though, so that I had barely a millisecond to react. I leaped away, still holding my lifeless Bella in my arms.
"You can't stop me, Emmett, none of you can!" I growled, glaring at my siblings and father.
Son, I know you're hurting right now, and I know there's nothing anybody can say to console you, but know that I respect your decision. There is nothing on this earth that could stop me if Esme died. But know that we'll miss you more than anything. Carlisle's thoughts surprised and touched me. He could never know how grateful I was to hear that. Then he surprised me more with what he said rather than what he thought: "Edward, Aro will never agree. Your ability would be too precious to waste."
Alice saw my resolve waiver. Yes! she exclaimed silently. She couldn't think of any other way to kill a vampire.
Frankly neither could I. Not that I tried to think too hard on it, if Alice saw me figure something out, she would be on it to try and dissuade me. I didn't want that.
The best course of action right now would be to leave, take myself far from Forks and anything else that would remind me of my pain.
Alice saw me wandering the Sahara Desert, then it changed to the Outback, Australia, then the Amazon Rainforest, Antarctica, The Himalayas, Siberia, barren islands in the middle of the Pacific...
"No, no, no! Edward, you can't leave us!" she cried.
"I have to," I nearly wailed. "I can't stand it here without her! When she came into my life, she was everything. She made everything brighter, and now that she's gone, I drown in darkness, and nothing matters anymore..." How I wished I could cry, to let it all out.
Edward, I can see how you're feeling, thought Jasper. And I can understand your pain, I also understand that there is nothing anybody can do for you at this point. I would be lost without Alice. I'll make sure you can leave without hassle if necessary.
The thing about Jasper is you don't have to actually tell him when you're grateful, he can feel it. I decided that now was the time to leave.
"No!" Alice shrieked and leaped to grab me, but I was too quick. As I left at top speed, carrying my Bella, I could hear the sounds of Alice and Emmett, blocked by Carlisle and Jasper, trying to go to me.
I buried my love in the meadow where I first showed her the real me. Where I first proclaimed aloud my love for her. Why did it feel like so long ago? Was it really only four days? Impossible.
I stayed for a short time, knowing that Alice would see and come and find me, Esme and Emmett too.
I wandered to all of the places Alice had seen me go, staying for only a few months at a time, very nearly starving myself most of the time, having forgotten to hunt.
It was when I decided to go back to Forks that I heard it; the sweet sound of laughter, not just any laughter, my favorite sound second only to the sound of my Bella's beating heart: My Bella's beautiful laughter. It seemed to echo all around me, to sing to me as I once sang to her. Then, amazingly it changed to words, and with those words came the most lovely scent in the entire universe. Freesias and strawberry.
Edward, my Bella called.
"Bella?" I asked, unsure. Could vampires go insane?
Edward, I'm here.
"Where? I can't see you."
More laughter. Time to visit the optometrist.
And then, amazingly, she was before me, semitransparent, and dressed the way she was on the day she died. She smiled at me in that adoring way. Thankfully, her cause of death was not apparent in this apparition. I wasn't sure I could have handled myself if I had seen the tear in her throat that James had made.
"I'm so glad you're still alive," she told me, her voice more clear now.
"Bella...I...I don't know what to say...I...how...?" I was at a loss for words.
"How am I here?" she prompted with a smile. I nodded. "I'm a ghost, Edward. Bound to the Earth because of my love for you."
"But...how?"
She chuckled. "Good people go where they most want to go when they die." I flinched at the word. "I wanted to go wherever you go, so here I am, in my own version of heaven, forever."
I was in shock. Then my phone buzzed, it had been doing that constantly since I left.
"That's Alice," Bella said. "You should probably answer it."
I nodded numbly and answered the phone. "Alice?"
"Edward! Is she...?"
"Yeah, I'm standing right in front of her. Alice it's a miracle."
"You're coming home," she said with the authority that told me she'd seen it. "We'll talk then." Click.
"Come on, Edward," said Bella, holding her hand out to me. "Let's go see your family again."
I hesitantly took her hand. It was as soft and warm as always. But wait, if she was a ghost...
"How am I able to touch you?" I asked.
"Best not to question it, my love. We have all of eternity to ask such questions, let's just enjoy the moment of being together again."
I agreed. Let's not spoil the moment with silly questions. We would have later to discuss such things. The important thing was that she was here with me, she would never again be harmed, and we would always be together. Forever.
A/N: Yeah it's kinda mushy, but hey I wrote it in like ten minutes. Bring on the flame! Unless you liked it... either way comment please!
Let me know if you want a sequel or something. If I get five people to tell me they want one, I will add a chapter to this one and make it a proper story, instead of the one-shot that it is.