Yuri's Confessions
Chapter 1
The Saddness
Yuri's POV
"What is this feeling that I have? I can't explain it, but I feel a saddness for Otonashi. Like I didn't tell him something I've been meaning to say when I met him. Is this normal? Someone...ANSWER MEEEEEEEEEEE!" I yelled
This all started a few days ago in the Principals office. I was looking out the window just staring when Hinata came in.
A FEW DAYS AGO, PRINCIPALS OFFICE
*My Soul Your Beats plays here, continue reading when the song ends.*
"Hi Yurippie." Hinata told me
I got out of my daze "Hi." I said a little lousy
"Whats wrong?" Hinata asked
"I...I don't know how to say it." I told Hinata
"You can tell me Yuri." Hinata said comforting me
"I wanted to tell Otonashi that I...I LOVED HIM! WHY DIDN'T I SAY SOMETHING!? HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO DISTANT?" I said while crying.
"I'm sure Otonashi felt the same way about you to. You two were good friends, but you can't change the fact that-" Hinata almost finished his sentence, but I interupted him
"GET OUT!" I yelled
Hinata then left. He didn't say anything in reply. As soon as Hinata left, I ran to the gymnasieum.
GYMNASIEUM
"What is this feeling that I have? I can't explain it, but I feel a saddness for Otonashi. Like I didn't tell him something I've been meaning to say when I met him. Is this normal? Someone...ANSWER MEEEEEEEEEEE!" I yelled.
I took a seat on the bleechers, then started to sing.
(Before you read this next part, look up the song Into the Blue by Sara Jackson-Holman. Its the lyrics that I pasted. Listen to this song while you're reading this next part. It seems to fit to me at least.)
If only if only I coulda been yours
Been your rapport and yours to adore
If only if only I would've said yes
Forgotten the rest oh I could've said yes
If only if only you'd ask me again
I'd give you my hand
Let you take me
across the sand
Into the blue
And faded world of my daydreams
I feel I'm falling deeper everyday
Melting away down a dark and endless abyss
I'm grasping at straws and I'm chasing the wind
As I fall on my face over and over again
If only if only I had the luxury of retrospect
Sounds like you're speaking some sort of foreign dialect
If only something precious as time had a price
Instead of endlessly taking its toll on my soul
Oh so many if onlys running through my mind
What ifs and storybook endings time after time
If only if only you coulda been mine
I'd take you
Into the blue
And faded world of my daydreams
I feel I'm falling deeper everyday
Melting away down a dark and endless abyss
I'm grasping at straws and I'm chasing the wind
As I fall on my face over and over
Into the blue
And faded world of my daydreams
I feel I'm falling deeper everyday
Melting away down a dark and endless abyss
I'm grasping at straws and I'm chasing the wind
As I fall on my face over and over again
I then started to cry again.
"Oh...whats the use?" I said to myself
Just then Matsushita showed up
"There you are Yurippie...I heard you singing. Something wrong?" Matsushita aksed me
"I wanted to tell Otonashi that I loved him, but I didn't. I feel so guilty and alone now. Like I will never get to tell him how I really felt about him." I said
"You know that I'm sure he felt the same way about you right? He was very nice to all of us, you especially." Matsushita said trying to comfort me
"I know. I need some rest. Maybe tomorrow I can pull myself together." I said
"Alright. Go get some sleep." MMatsushita told me
I left the Gymnasiaum, went to my dorm, and got some sleep. I didn't know however, that I would be in a dream I would never forget.