A/n: I posted a phantom of the opera story but after some reviews I realized it wasn't good enough so I changed it a bit. Same characters, same plot just a new beginning )

Hope you enjoy and review.

Disclaimer: takes deep breath I do not own Phantom of the opera…HAPPY?

I could feel the soft morning breeze coming through my window, I smiled as it caressed my hair, how long as it been since I don't smile? Weeks? Months maybe?

I was always considered the most cheerful girl amongst my friends, always smiling of laughing; boys always like me for being so easy going and girls as well, I was the kind of person who could cheer anyone up no matter what.

That was a different me, that girl had a loving family, this, doesn't. It's been two months since I lost my family, all of them, at the same time…the day of the say of the premiere.

I remember being cross with you father, I was so enraged. This was the fourth time I asked you to let me join the Opera Populaire and your answer, as always, was a no. I ran into my room and closed the door so hard I am surprised how it didn't break into pieces. You yelled at me to come back down and listen to you, but I wouldn't. Why couldn't you understand you were tearing my dreams apart? Why? I can still feel the anger choking me, the tears falling into that new ruby dress you bought me. Is it to late to tell you that I am sorry? Can you still hear me?

I remember you mom, my beautiful mother, my inspiration. I remember how you tried hard for me to go out of my room, you knocked at my door probably as strongly as you could, and you spoke softly trying to calm me down. Oh how stubborn I was! I should have listened to you; I should have died with you. I should have dies with the two of you.

Salty tears escaped my eyes as I made memory of that argument, my last argument with my parents. I sat on my bed and buried my face in my hand trying to erase those horrid memories.

"Mademoiselle!" Called Rosanne, my maid, with that chirpy voice of hers "Breakfast is ready, would you like me to it to you or will you come down?"

I really wanted to stay in bed all day, but I knew my tears wouldn't make my miserable existence any better.

"I am coming down Rossie" I answered as I dragged myself out of bed and went into the bathroom.

I splashed water to my face trying to clean up dark marks left by the tears then; I looked up at myself in the mirror, I could barely recognize myself. My big brown eyes were red and swollen for the crying, my small nose red and, the same as my eyes and mouth, swollen, my wavy and bushy hair fell tangled down to my waist. It was true, there was nothing left of that girl who had a family.

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I barely sleep now, after she abandoned me, couldn't she see I truly love her? Heart, body and even soul? I am nothing more than a mere shadow without her.

I shouldn't have ran that day, I should have remained here and face the mob that tried desperately to find me, I should have let them kill me and end with my miserable existence for now I seem not to have the courage of doing so myself.

It's been months since I don't write any music, since I don't have inspiration. She was my muse, my music, my love…but she is gone now. Oh! I bet she is as happy as she can be with her little Viconde, I can fell how rage takes control of me when I mention him, she must be singing to him when she it to ME she should be singing to. I regret not killing him when I had the chance, just a little pull and he was done, but I was stupid enough to believe my little angel would choose a demon such as myself. I WAS A FOOL.

I pulled out my mask harshly and threw it to the floor where it broke into pieces only to find myself staring at my reflection on one of my now broken mirrors, the same deformed face, the same ugly beast I avoid seeing everyday.

At least with her, I felt like I human, now…there's nothing left of that human.

A/n: Hello ) Just making sure you were not too horrified with my grammar mistakes. I appreciate constructive criticism and PLEASE! Point out my grammar mistakes so I can correct them Ok?