And I don't want the world to see me
'Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
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Please see me for who I am. Don't see the monster me, see the loving me; the me so hidden that even I have trouble finding it sometimes. I don't know why I'm like this, but I swear to treat you right. Please see me for who I am. Take my heart and keep it forever.
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I roll over in bed and am greeted with the ungodly sight of the sun. Ugh, is it really morning already? I just closed my eyes for God's sake! This has been happening more and more frequently; thoughts overtake me at night and when my eyes finally close to find peace in dreams, my alarm is already going off. It's all because of that damn sweetheart, Cat. She must've slipped something in my food when I wasn't looking, because she's all I can think about, day and night. Those big, expressive brown eyes, her blood red hair, that dimple and those soft, tan legs... Stop it, Jade. I sigh and reluctantly get up to shower.
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I sit on an uncomfortable plastic seat in Sikowitz's class and wait for him to show up, late as usual. Cat is sitting across the room next to Tori, and I sneak a look at her. She's wearing a red t-shirt with a low neckline, and a dangerously short pair of shorts; I don't even think she knows how seductive she looks wearing that number. This girl is going to be the death of me. My eyes linger a bit too long and she catches me staring. Damn.
"Hi, Jadey!" she yells enthusiastically, using the nickname she chose for me years ago.
I try to hide my blush and say "Hey, yourself, Cat" before quickly turning my attention back to the front of the class, where Sikowitz has just walked in from the back door.
"Hello, everyone. Sorry I'm late, I just couldn't find a juicy coconut at the store."
"Oh, yeah, why teach a class when you can buy a hairy fruit?" I quip.
"Aw, Jade, don't be a gank so early in the morning," he retorts. Well then.
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1st period finally ends after countless crappy improv scenes that were half-assed by half-WITS. I swear most of these kids paid to get in here. I head to the bathroom before class and open it to find none other than Cat, touching up her lipgloss. I wouldn't mind kissing those soft lips. Stop it, Jade!
"Hey, Jade! Heehee, that almost rhymed!" she giggles excitedly.
I walk over to the mirror next to her and reach for my eyeliner. "H-hey, Cat." Dammit, brain, why can't you speak right when I need you to? I clear my throat and try to pull my exploring eyes from her body. "What's up?"
"Well, last night my brother were watching Mulan, and he wanted to be like her, so he grabbed all my mom's makeup-" the half bell cuts her off and I'm silently thankful for it.
"Sorry Kitten, I have to go." the words tumble out of my mouth before I realize what I just called her. She smiles at me and opens her mouth to speak, but I'm out of the door before she can, hiding my read face. Fuck you, brain. Just, fuck you.