Love Without Sex
It
makes her feel like a child all over again.
If
it wasn't the worldly ways that used to
escape her or for the worldly people who used to
laugh at her, Gabrielle might have thought she just wasn't enough of
an adult these days
But
adults suffer. And she has suffered too much, had the gaiety of life
ripped away. The sorrow of growing up found her and made her the
woman she is today.
Now,
I want some of the good aspects. Is that so wrong?
It
has been a decent day. It is a decent night. And she holds this hand,
so strong and so soft, and she wants more. Gabrielle wants it all and
she wants Xena to give it all.
'I
love you' comes with every death and with every near-demise... And
that is sweet. It is endearing to be so loved that another human
being cannot bear the thought of losing you.
But
we've been here already. I've walked this path. I'm ready for the
next step.
Gabrielle
runs her fingers slowly down Xena's still open palm, waiting for the
calm to break and to find those eyes upon her, asking questions that
the warrior is afraid to answer.
She
halts at Xena's elbow, not bothering to turn away from the shadows of
the forest around them.
Those
eyes, those heartbreaking blue eyes, will be frozen in fear... Is
it that bad? Is it that bad to want? To need?
"Do
you love me?" Gabrielle asks.
"You
know I do." Xena replies.
"I
love you... but I want more... Because love without sex just isn't
fun anymore." Gabrielle states.
And,
taking that hand back within her own warm grip, Gabrielle faces that
which she cannot live without.
Not
anymore.
END