INQUITY
Why is it like that? Why do I still long for you when I'd have already faded my old feelings for you? This is unfair for me. When I see you, I can't explain what I feel inside.
Why is it?
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There, I see you, though not clearly cause I wasn't actually looking, but you're within my borderline peek, sitting on that chair doing nothing. Just looking around. I don't know if you noticed me, but I bet you did, from where you are sitting. Although it isn't obvious from my face, because they say I'm an A plus good pretender, there's still this something inside me that gradually crawled up to where I stood.
Longing...
It was almost painful.
It felt so unfair.
It felt guilty.
I knew that this is wrong, that I'm just hurting myself. And I thought I had successfully lost these stupid feelings I had, but it was a failure. Surprisingly, a failure. Because I can still feel the moment when it was a total zero. When I see you, it was just as if nothing. Like you don't exist. But then, I don't know what happened. Everything turned into black, streams of colorful bright lights started to fly around, then in an instant, you appeared in front of me. And I know you're back again.
To destroy me. The only left of me.
It was a crime. Almost a sin.