What Hurts the Most Darkshipping
Yami Rasui: You want a summery? Well to bad the only summary you get is the one under the story title. You want to know about what's going on in this chapter then read the chapter. *glares* And if you've got problems with Yaoi or you just so happen to be a homophobe then go read some het story and make yourself happy because you're not finding any het here. As far as I'm concerned Teá can go jump of a bridge or a cliff and die because she's a slut and I don't give a rat's ass about her. Oh and if you flame my story then I will take that flame and give it to my muse Rasui to do with as he sees fit and I don't want to really know what he ends up doing with those things. I think he ends up shoving them down the flamers throat but I can't be sure, he might be shoving it down their muses throat. *shrugs* Oh well I've had my rant now so either read the story or press the back button. Disclaimer: I don't own any character or anything that pertains to Yu-Gi-Oh! Although I do own a couple of mangas and a whole crap load of cards but that's besides the point. I MAKE NO MONEY FROM THIS FIC I'M JUST DOING THIS BECAUSE IT HAPPENS TO BE THE NEW YEAR AND I'M CURRENTLY BORED OUT OF MY MIND SO DON'T SUE ME!!!!!!!!! AND I ALSO DO NOT OWN THE SONG WHAT HURTS THE MOST!!! I'M JUST ADDING THE LYRICS TO MAKE THIS A SONG FIC SO AGAIN DO NOT SUE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bakura: Yami Rasui is scary. O.O I think he might be scarier than me.
Ryou: *nods in agreement*
Yami Rasui: Thank you so much for not helping me with the disclaimer you little nimrods now get out of here before I decide to make the Tendershipping one so sappy and fluffy that Bakura will be throwing up for months to come once he reads it!
*Bakura and Ryou quickly escape*
Yami Rasui: *smiles* Now enjoy the story. This first one is Darkshipping which has recently become a favorite pairing of mine so enjoy.
Yami sighed as he looked around the apartment that up until two weeks ago he had shared with Bakura. He had never expected the thief's health problems to be as bad as they were and now here he was, standing and taking one last look at the place that had been their sanctuary from the world and everything in it. He didn't want to believe that the thief, his lover, was gone. However, the heavy weight of the ring that Bakura had left to him was proof enough that the thief was gone.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me.
Yami bit his bottom lip as he felt the tears well up in his eyes. He turned from the apartment and found Ryou and Yugi standing there with comforting looks on their faces. Yami shook his head and pushed past the two hikaris. He didn't want pity, he wanted Bakura back. He wanted his thief to suddenly pop up randomly like he used to always do just to bug the hell out of him and to annoy him. He knew that it wasn't going to happen though. Bakura had been dead for two weeks now and he was just going to have to accept it. He just wished that the thief had told him what was going on.
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.
Yami ended up hanging out with the group that night. Every time someone asked if he was alright he would just smile and say that he was beginning to cope since he still had his memories of Bakura and the things that Bakura had left to him to remind him of their time together. The only one who could truly see past the mask was Kaiba and he made sure that Yami was never crowded by more people than he could handle at one time. Yami ended up outside when he couldn't handle his and Bakura's friends anymore. 'I wish I had told you that I loved you Bakura, I wish I had said it to you everyday to make sure you knew how I felt but it's too late for that now.'
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.
Yami looked down at the ring that was now hanging where the puzzle had once hung. Yami had forced Yugi to take the puzzle so that he could wear the ring instead. Yugi hadn't really understood why but he didn't ask Yami to explain it. The truth was that Yami felt closer to Bakura when he had the ring on, as if he had a direct connection to the spirit that had once resided in it and as if Bakura was sitting behind him with his arms wrapped around his waist holding him tightly.
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.
Yami sighed as he looked up at the stars. Tears began trickling down his face as he picked out the star he had bought for Bakura just this last Christmas. Bakura had always spoken about when he was a thief he wished he could reach up into the sky and pluck out a star to keep for himself. When Yami had presented Bakura with a certificate of a star and a picture of that star Bakura had stared at them for a moment and then looked at Yami with a smile that told Yami how much Bakura appreciated the gift. Yami had named the star "The Thief's Guide" and when he told Bakura this Bakura had promptly tackled him. Yami smiled through his tears as he remembered the round of love making that had happened right there in their living room that Christmas morning when Bakura got something he had always wanted.
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me.
Kaiba came out and placed a hand on Yami's shoulder. "You know that you will see him again Yami, if you're belief in the afterlife has shown us anything it is that you believe in reincarnation. You are immortal Yami and you have the rest of eternity to find Bakura again," Kaiba whispered. Yami looked back at Kaiba. "That may help with the pain in the future Kaiba, but right now it just hurts to much. The loss is still so fresh in my mind," Yami replied. Kaiba nodded. "When you're ready to come back inside you and I will go to my den and we'll play chess or something. That way you can escape for a while without having to be alone." Kaiba said before going back inside.
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.
Yami nodded as he watched Kaiba walk away and went back to his memories. He could remember a time when he had thought that Bakura was just playing him and he could not see the love shining in the thief's eyes that was directed towards him. It was Ryou who was able to prove it and after that he and Bakura had been nearly inseperable. When Yami finally got his memory back he remembered that Bakura had been his lover when he was a prince, but Bakura didn't know that he was the heir to the throne. When Bakura had burst into the throne room that first time with his father's mummy they had stared at each other for the longest time, Yami had been hurt when instead of love directed at him in those dangerous crimson orbs he found absolute hate and loathing.
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.
Yami sighed as he finally wiped the tears from his eyes. 'But we got past that hate and once again you were able to love me, but I never told you that I loved you in return. I'll tell you now though Bakura. I love you with all of my heart and I will wait for eternity to be in your arms once again.' Yami gasped and stiffened when it felt like someone was behind him. He felt invisible arms wrap around his waist and a voice whisper in his ear, "You'll see me soon my Pharaoh. You won't have to wait long for me, your thief, to return to your side. I love you my precious Atem."
Yami had tears fill his eyes. "I love you to Bakura, and I will wait as long as I need to for you to return to me." Yami whispered back. He felt Bakura's spirit kiss his cheek and then disappear. He went back into the house with a genuine smile on his face and took Kaiba up on his offer to play a game of chess with him in Kaiba's den, knowing that soon it would be him and Bakura playing a game of chess in an apartment and Bakura would try and cheat by distracting Yami with kisses and caresses. Yami looked forward to that.
Owari.
Bakura: YOU BASTARD!!!!! HOW COULD YOU KILL ME?!
Yami Rasui: *completely ignoring Bakura*
Yami: AND YOU MADE ME SEEM LIKE A GIRL!!!!!!
Yami Rasui: *Now ignoring both Yami and Bakura*
Bakura and Yami: TELL US BEFORE WE BANISH YOU TO THE SHADOW REALM!!!!!!
Yami Rasui: *Looks at Yami and Bakura with disinterest* Would you prefer it I made it a horrible break up story where Yami ended up commiting suicide and it was Bakura left behind to act like a sissy girl while everyone else secretly blamed Yami's death on him and then when they were around Bakura they tried to help him get over Yami's death?
Bakura and Yami: *look at Yami Rasui then look at each other*
Bakura: No it's fine the way it is.
Yami Rasui: *smiles* Well anyway I hope you enjoyed the story. I don't know how it came out but the words just flowed out of my fingertips and typed the keys. And the thing about buying the star is true. My mom bought my dad one for Christmas one year and you get a certificate saying that you own the star. I don't know if you get a picture of it though. Let's face it though, there are thousands of stars out there and scientists can't name them all because they just aren't ingenious enough to come up with names for all of them. And how I got the name for the star I don't know so don't ask. Anyway, please review. Now if you'll excuse me I have to go put a stop to a shadow game that is currently taking place and none of the yami's are going to be happy campers when I'm finished with them. Ja ne.
*crashing and sounds of complete and total agony are heard as well as screams of innocent bystanders who happen to notice a violent girly looking man beating the shit out of people and scaring the hikaris off to go cry in a corner*