Lost Innocence's Notes: I have always felt there was a lack of female characters in this epic novel. Surely there must have been more than one woman that lasted for more than a few lines in the story. That is why I created Liu Yulan.

I try to follow the major storyline of RTK but I'm not an expert so please forgive any mistakes I make. All the characters will be described as they are in DW3.

Disclaimer: I do not own The Romance of Three Kingdoms or any of the characters in it. But Liu Yulan is mine.

My Story

Everybody knows who Diao Chan is, but what about me? I know she sacrificed a lot in order to overthrow that tyrant Dong Zhuo. I have heard her tale countless times. How she let herself to be with two men in order to tear apart their trust. But it mustn't have been that hard- that hard to be with Dong Zhuo because she didn't love Lu Bu…

But it doesn't matter now. You are listening to me. You will hear my story and all I ask of you is to listen and listen closely. Believe me.

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My family was originally from Xiang Yang. My father, Liu Yun style Fangda was a small general serving under the royal uncle of the emperor, Liu Bei during the rise of the Yellow Scarves. He was only 21 then. He was tall and his shoulders wide. His playful eyes twinkled under his fair brows. Sometimes in my dreams, I can still hear his ringing laughter and see his smile as he lifted me, his 'most perfect jade' up into the air.

After the fall of the Yellow Dragon, my father continued to serve under Lord Xuande. He followed him to Xi An, the capital of the Han. And there he died. They say a disease struck him but I know better than to listen to their lies. It was that despicable man, Cao Cao. My father was a loyal general to the Han and knew better than to listen to the sly words of that traitor. My father stood up for the Emperor, the rightful heir of power. He did what was just, what was righteous. Cao Cao knew father would never obey him. Father was just another threat to his power, along with Lord Liu Bei. And for my father's righteous but rebellious spirit, he died. Cao Cao must've slipped poison into his food. I wish I could've prevented this but I was too young to understand then.

Immediately after my father's death, my Lord Liu Bei fled. His departure was neither out of fear nor dishonor but to temporarily escape the tyranny of Cao Cao to establish a stand against his ill deeds. And with him, he brought my sister and I. I was barely 2 at the time yet I can still remember that day so clearly. We had stopped to rest on the road for the fierceness of Cao Cao's pursuit was decreasing. The day was hot, the men thirsty. Water was brought to his highness yet he gave it to us. As he watched us drink, tears began running down his cheeks as he fell to his knees. His sobs were begging for forgiveness, forgiving him because he was not able to prevent our father's death. My sister, Rushi, who was 7 at the time immediately brought him to his feet. His sobs ceased and he picked me up. Our eyes met. I stared into his dark, sad eyes and he into my innocent creamy brown ones.

From that day, we became his adopted daughters. He promised to raise us as if we were his own. And truly, he was a man of his words. My sister and I grew up in the best environment he could provide for us. My father's face slowly diminished in my adolescent mind. His playful eyes were replaced with Lord Liu Bei's dark, soulful ones, his ringing laughter replaced with Lord Liu Bei's soft smiles. My father was now no longer Liu Yun but Lord Xuande.

O' father! You have done so much for me. Raising my sister and I into adulthood. I shall never forget your kindness to us in our time of need. I would do anything for you to aid you. And then you asked for my help. You said with my help, the establishment of your power in the chaotic feuding land can be found. I was more than happy to help. But if I had known the outcome, I would have never done it.

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That was quite a change from my other story, no? Lol, if you happened to read my other story, Once Upon A Dream, you've noticed I've again used the name Liu Yulan. I don't know why though. I just like it a lot. But you can tell the two Yulan's in the two stories are very different. I like to believe that Yulan from Once Upon A Dream is the reincarnation of the Yulan from here. And that your reincarnation can possess different qualities than your former self but still much of the same.