Hi! Major author's note ahead!

I don't even know how to start this. I know I have another fanfiction waiting, but this one got me and I couldn't wait to write it. I'm so sorry for who reads Tears Of Ink, I really am, but you're gonna have to wait. Meanwhile, you read Starstruck! Well, it is another Jarlos. It obviously have some Kogan and major Jagan friendship in it (plus a very special Brunette Jennifer featuring), but all in all, it's a Jarlos fiction and I'm not even sorry. No, no, I am. I've been planning on writing Kogan (and I actually have plans for a huge Cargan waiting) for a long time now, but then there's Carlos looking at me with those big brown eyes asking for James to love him and, I'm sorry, but I can't say no to him. Nobody can. So here we are. Another Jarlos for you guys.

This story is very... uh, complex and personal. At least for me. Carlos here is pretty much me. Yeah, I know I shouldn't do that, but so what? We have the lemons, so let's do an amazing lemon pie, right? Because I love lemons and sour things. So, as I was saying. This Carlos is a very conflicted guy. Like, really conflicted, as in someone help him, please! Yeah. A whole lot of angst and pain and suffering - from Carlos. His heart is just really, really big.

I plan on this to be a long, long story, so yeah. I still don't know if it is going to have a happy ending. I'm not a big fan of happy endings, so how about you guys help me on this? Tell me what you prefer - but go reading ready for a lot of angst and a possible not-so-happy-ending.

Ok, I feel like I should stop rambling now. Here you go with the full summary and the introduction. I hope you like it!

*Full synopsis: Back then, when everything we have to worry about is if our Mommy will find out that we ate the cookie before dinner, everything was really easy. All things in life are fun, and games, and having our best friend to spend the weekend with us. And then we grow up. This is a story about how James fell in love with Carlos and how Carlos didn't love him back – but at the same time loved him so much that he got himself the mission of loving James the way the pretty boy wanted to be loved.

Starstruck: When you meet someone you are very fond of; you get completely overwhelmed, paralyzed and/or speechless by the experience.

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This story starts when they found out they had similar likings, back on the first day of 2nd grade.

"Come on number… 4," the pretty, young teacher, said, after she clearly studied the list, to the prettiest boy on the class – what, if you think about, is really wrong, just because he was the pretty boy, "Present yourself to the class!"

"I'm James Diamond. I like combs and mirrors, dinosaur-shaped chicken and hockey!" The boy said with a thousand-watts smile.

After a whole lot of kids – actually, after all of the kids of the class – there was just one left.

"Please, number 15, come to the front of the class and present yourself." The beautiful young lady said bitterly. She was somewhat of a bitch, really, but too cute for anyone to notice that.

He was the only new kid of 2nd grade. All of the other kids already knew each other, and until there, none of them bothered to talk to him. To be honest, they didn't even notice him until that moment.

He walked clumsily to the front of the class and stared at everyone in silence for a while. After he studied everyone, his face broke into a smile.

"My name is Carlos Garcia, I like helmets, dinosaur-shaped chicken and hockey!" He said with a huge grin, this time, and a small tap to the black helmet placed on his head.

Little James instantly thought that helmet-boy was funny. Well, after all, he was wearing a helmet inside of the school. But he didn't say anything. On their class break, James found the helmet actually a pretty good idea when helmet-boy fell head on to the ground and got up as if nothing had happened with just a huge grin on his face.

That helmet-boy – Carlos, his name was Carlos! – had a dark skin, when James, both his best friends and all of his classmates were all so white.

James wasn't one to talk to strangers, so he didn't bulge about helmet-boy – but he also couldn't forget the color of the boy's skin, which looked exactly like the caramel candies his dad would give him, extremely shiny and beautiful, and James wondered if he tasted like caramel too.

Later that night, when his mom kissed him good night, he asked her if his skin could be made of caramel like helmet-boy's was. She laughed at her sleepy son and told him to dream about it.

He did.

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Carlos was that kind of kid that everyone loves from day one. He could be annoying as hell, but people would still love him because he was funny, a ball of energy, his eyes so pure and innocent, and he was very protective. He had this thing about him: he was really protective, even if he didn't really know you yet.

And James found that out in a non appreciated way.

There was that boy at the school who loved to bully James. You see, James is a very sweet boy, and even though he looked really selfish, he wasn't selfish at all. And he also looked really mean, with his shiny eyes, perfect locks, sassy ways, and mood swings, but he wasn't a mean kid at all. He was just… too spoiled, and everyone knew that. After all, he was a Diamond.

Well, everyone except for that butch kid on 3rd grade. He was like the biggest kid that all of those kids in Elementary School had ever seen.

He had a special "liking" for James. James' hair, and James' eyes, and James' food and James' shoes… Everything James did or James had or James cherished. That special day, it was his hair.

He was holding James upside down, and even though he was strong, he surely wasn't strong enough, and James was slowly slipping from his hold, hair almost going touching the sand in the sandbox. This wasn't going to end up well.

Every other kid was looking for Kendall in hopes of some salvation for James and his hair, but he sure enough had pranked Logan, and now both of them were at the Principal's office to clear things out. The three of them were best friends, but Kendall wouldn't ever let go of an opportunity to prank Logan, so he would always be at the Principal's office with their smaller friend.

So while everyone watched in a dead silence, waiting for the boy to finally let go of James and his perfect hair everyone loved so much to finally touch the dirty sand of the sandbox, a tiny, rough voice came yelling from behind them.

"Why don't you go for someone your size?"

Carlos was shorter than James, who was shorter than butch kid, so that made Carlos as small as a baby ant in front of butch kid. But who cares? His voice made him ten times taller than all of them.

"Who are you talking to, baby boy?" Butch kid said calmly, and if all of the kids were already quiet, now they weren't even breathing.

"You, stupid!"

And oh-em-gee, he just said a bad word! Who the hell is this bad boy and how is he short? Bad boys are tall like butch kid, right?

Well, Carlos was about to change that theory.

So Carlos ran head on to butch kid, in a way so the boy fell with James over himself, and this way not even a single inch of James touched the dirty sand. Butch kid, on the other hand, had a lot of sand were sand shouldn't be. Carlos had a bit of sand here and there but he didn't care really.

He pulled James up. "Are you ok?" He asked with concerned, and if he already looked taller, now he looked all grown up. James just nodded. He stared at butch kid with pure disgust in his eyes. "You go and don't ever come back to mess with the kids of the 2nd grade, you don't belong here. Don't mess with us, understood?" Every single kid stared at him with disbelief, because how could he know such words? He waited for a while, and when butch kid didn't answer, he knew the boy had understood, so he just took James' hands in his' and said "Let's go." And James did. Walked away hand-in-hand with Carlos for the swings, and they stayed there alone until the end of the break.

James never left the warmth of Carlos' hand again.

Ok, so here it is! I really hope you like it, and please review! Thank you for reading!