If Only

by creamychocpudding786

Something happened in the past that caused Puck to be a part of the Scarlet Hand, but he can't remember. He loves Sabrina, and finds a way to quit. There is this secret program for people who quit the Scarlet Hand, it protects their identities. He joins that, and changes his appearance so no one recognizes him. He tries to find Sabrina and win her heart back, as well as her trust.

1. Prologue

I can't deal with it anymore. I can barely remember how I even got stuck in this situation.

From the moment I was 13 years old, I felt something with Sabrina. I couldn't name it then, but now I can. I felt some sort of a connection, like a pull. Whenever I was around her, I felt happy, carefree. I had thought it was some affect from that damn puberty virus, but it wasn't. I was clueless then, at that young age of 13, but now, I'm 17 years old, and I can name what that thing was, and I'm not afraid to. It was love. That maddening, crazy thing that makes you lose all your worries in an instant. The thing that you can't live without, and what keeps you going. Love. The one thing that I, Puck, was afraid of as a child. But I'm not anymore. Because I love Sabrina Grimm. But she won't ever know or care.

And it's not because of anything I even remember doing. I can't remember a thing from the last 2 years of my life, but all the crazy things that happened then, now come back and punch me in the face. Something happened in the past, something horrible. Something- something, that is the reason that I'm now a part of the Scarlet Hand. But
I don't remember doing anything. And I'm sick of it.