Notes: So, this my first ever upload to this new account and i just wanted to tell you that
this is a just a test about how my writing skills are. This particular fic is like
i said in my bio, a very... i would say radical... A band and a Disney movie?
But whatever. This is fanfiction. Its about unleashing your imagination, isnt it?
So, try to "enjoy" and remember this is just a test. So no flaming?
Oh, and the pairing that im using is possible one for having more fanfics.
And the couple is Captain Amelia from Treasure Planet and Johnny Marr from the band The Smiths.
So called AmMarr.
Being the depressed person i am right now, i decided to go and go gaze at the eternal and in my opinion very fascinating etherium. I walked to the balcony of the ship that i were traveling in. I were wearing my almost so usual and familiar clothing, Slim dark jeans, a slim fit shirt with a dark blue or navy blue colour and suede chukka boots. People around here and the crew of the ship aren`t or weren´t so baffled of my style. Well, thats actually strange, because im not around here. I walked slowly to the rail of the ship, lots of things on my mind. A thought started appearing again to my mind over again. How did i even end up here? I don`t know. Do i know anything anymore? There are few things that are keeping in one, The captain of this roaming ship. Yes, her it is. As i gaze to the deep etherium i sigh deeply. For a while i look up and then to my feet while leaning on my hands that are on rail. I run my hands trough my dark hair that still has the pompadour stylish look that was left from the night i ended up here.
While im filling myself on apathy, sadly and leaning still, feeling like a abandoned person from anyone.
I feel someones presence within me. I quickly gazed to my back and saw her. The feline like Captain of the ship with an unimaginable wit and strength within her mind. Thats really something that i appreciate on a women...and make the invividual rather interesting too. But… theres still something more on her. She isnt a regular person ... Tonight, i want talk about my past with her. Not knowing were it will go. Shes the only person now, who i could fully trust. The ships crew is full of unpleasantness, darkness and mysteriousness.
The Captain walked next to me, looking to the eternity with me.
"Everything tip top here on the deck Mr Marr?" She asks with a stern and delightful voice.
"Erhm.. Well, yeah. Everythings rather… Splendid" I said while trying to sound alright, but failed. She came to me on so unlikely circumstances. I started grow some confidence. To start the conversation that ive been thinking of.
"Theres… something that i would like to talk with you Captain" I said while trying to keep a tiny smile.
"Something that had been on my mind since i got on this voyage. And this place".
I felt a growing pressure inside me, but i tried to keep myself in full form while talking to her.
When that said, the Captain looked in my eyes, concerned look appearing on her face. She put her hand pretty close to mine on the rail.
"Of course Mr Marr, im all ears." She continued to stare deeply in my eyes.
I noticed how beautiful her eyes actually were while standing there, trying to start blabbing about my concerns… Actually, why am i even concidering this? Bleeding all my agony inside my head ,to her? Well… Maybe it will help. Talking….
I took a deep breath and gazed for second somewhere else before returning my gaze to hers.
"Well, how should i put this… Its just the fact that i am here… Ugh…"
I almost started collapsing into my hands, feelings coming to the surface. I tried to be without crying, but that is so freaking hard.
Amelia put her hand worriedly to mine and started holding it. That really surprised me, ive always thought Captains shouldnt do things like that. It doesnt suit their ego and position.
She still were looking deeply into my eyes, that started make me even more nervous
but i managed to straighten myself mentally and take the thing away.
"You know, i dont know almost anyone around here. Back home i had my band, a few relatives. But thats almost it. But… i miss them" I felt a tear striking from my eye corner but trying to hide it, but not making any difference to anything. She started to grip my hand more tigther. That made me look again to her eyes. She was now the only one for whom to trust and lean. Even when it felt at the same time so wrong.
"Go on" She said wamly. Her expression full of empathy towards me.
"The band mates were the only ones for whom i could put my trusting to. They were my… family… almost my meaning of my life. Being here was at the first time, of course, a shock." I looked desperate. The urge to start crying was growing, i didnt know how much i could stand. I was feeling depressed.
I suddenly felt hand on my shoulder, a comfortably warm hand. I gazed to my Captains eyes, and realized the fact that, Amelia was full of concern and even shock. She couldnt care so much, couldnt she?
She cleared her throat, almost like she herself were building up some confidence to speak.
"You know, from the first day i laid my eyes on you, i instantly started thinking that you… arent like a regular… man living on his young adulthood. I saw something on you."
You could sense the Captain was herself a bit embarassed to confess such thing about me. A tint of pink appeared on our cheeks. I looked at her full of surprisement. Now, this is going odd.
"Thats… thats something that i… dont hear very often from other people…But, youre the captain of this ship, and im just a passenger…"
" Oh stop it" She gave me i caring smile.
"Dont flame and put yourself on downfall with those kinds of thoughts.
You see… that happened to me, when i was your age…" She then started looking… Sad. Genuinely sad.'
I felt the urge to get known to her past more better. I managed to somehow ask her this.
"If i could ask Captain… what happened? If you feel to talk… you can" I said with myself being concerned. Its almost like… in that moment the caring from both sides were starting grow. That felt so surreal.
"No, my past doesnt make a difference…. " She then looked me like preparing me, for something to come.
"I just want you, to feel safe" After that, my jaw dropped a bit. Butterflies on stomach and i couldnt lay my eyes anywhere else than her.
I was now becoming anxious. Because of the storm of feelings. Didnt know what to say or think. And the Captain started noticing that. I was shaking and my eyes were locked down to the deck of the ship.
I slowly raised my eyes to her. My expression full of hurt. This is enough, i couldnt handle myself in that moment.
I started sobbing a little bit, then the sobs started to come more pacefully.
The sadness and emptiness started to radiate to the Captain. Her ears went down to her skull and she pointed her hand to me.
"Oh, Johnny!" She said with a voice full of sadness.
" Im… So sorry. I shouldnt…" I tried everything to hide this. I were thinking i were losing my ego and everything on front of our Captain,
For my shock i realized, she didnt call me with the usual name, Mr Marr. She used my real name. Johnny. More shocking was that, she suddenly, wrapped her arms around me and started to hold me tightly.
My sobbing continued. Feeling embarassed and empty at that situation.
To be continued, maybe….