Unspoken words
The fighting between James potter and lily Evans skyrocketed in their fifth year after the lake incident. Lily would never tell James why. She would never say why she started all those fights and publicly humiliated him. She would never say it was because he had taken that one person who had meant the most to her and destroyed him. She remembered the days of when they were young and Severus had been carefree and innocent but then those sweet, light hearted, happy days had grown dark. Potter and black had bullied Severus until there was no turning back and he turned to the dark arts. She would never tell James that when Severus had called her that name by the lake it had felt like she had been stabbed a thousand times over. She would never tell him that she blamed him for crushing that sweet innocent boy that she had once been best friends with.
She would also never tell James that as she got to know him in their seventh year and found the man he had grown into was someone she could call a friend, she started to forgive him. She would never tell him that when she had accepted his invitation to hogsmeade and Severus had confronted her she had picked him over Severus. She remembered the day as if it were yesterday.
"What the hell lily" a voice hissed behind her as she walked down the hall, she halted abruptly and spun around, she would know that voice anywhere. Severus stood there glaring at her and in his eyes beneath the anger she could see the hurt and betrayal swimming in them.
"You said you hated him and would never stoop to his level" he continued moving closer to her.
"He's grown up Severus" she replied evenly instantly knowing what he was talking about, he stared at her for a few moments of silence then his eyes narrowed.
"I suppose I should have seen it coming" he sneered "potter gets the mudblood slut" and with that parting insult he had begun to walk away.
"you made your choice" she shouted after him spinning to face him "you choice your precious death eaters and dark arts over me, I would have stood by you but you made your choice pretty clear that day by the lake, James just made it happen quicker" she paused staring at him sadly then continued "I choose him Severus, I choose him ever time, he loves me and I.. I love him" she finished staring at him sadly.
"Don't" he choked out, stepping towards him "don't you dare look at me with pity, the dark lord will rise and your choice will get you killed" he spun away from her and walked sharply down the hallway. She stood there alone letting the tears fall thickly down her face and when James tried to coax out of her what had happened later on that evening she wouldn't tell him.
James would never tell lily that he had felt infinitely guilty for what he had caused down by the lake. He would never tell her that the day he asked her out, he had had an enormous fight with Sirius about her. How she was putting him in danger because of her parentage, how he had changed so much for her that Sirius barley recognised him anymore and he would never tell her that that fight very nearly tore him and Sirius apparent forever. He would also never tell her that he along with Remus had heard everything that had been said between her and Severus that day and he had felt terrible for being the cause of it.
What they would tell each other each day was that what they had was unique. So many people searched for this feeling and they had found it and would fight for it. It wasn't easy they fought and yelled but at the end of the day they loved each other and would do anything for each other no matter the price.