Black and Gold

by Ballerama Beauty

After making a grave mistake at a party, Kida is forced to play a twisted game with Izaya to keep from being blackmailed by him. Kida falls into depression & has a hard time keeping it from Mikado and is burdened with guilt & regret. Every day is a struggle as he fights for his freedom and tries to beat Izaya at his own game, not knowing that Izaya has a secret of his own. Iza/Kida

1. Chapter 1

Black & Gold

Chapter 1

Black

"Hey Mikado!" Kida said throwing an arm around his unsuspecting friend.

"Ah~ Oh, hey Masaomi!" Mikado smiled at his friend.

"So guess what?" Kida said smiling.

"What?" Mikado asked curiously.

"I found out that Kadota and his gang are going to have a party tonight! Isn't that exciting?" Kida gleamed.

"Oh wow really? That sounds cool!" Mikado smiled agreeing with his friend.

Kida twirled in front of his friend and smiled. "I'm glad you think so Mikado, because..." he then pointed at his friend in excitement. "You, Anri and I are going tonight!"

Mikado scratched his head nervously. "Really? Are you sure? I mean, are we even invited?" He questioned.

"Of course we are! I mean, we're friends with them and they didn't exactly invite us directly, but I overheard them talking about it and...well, that's good enough of an invite for me! So get your party pants ready!" Kida explained.

"Um, okay. If you say so Masaomi. But, I've never been to a real party before." Mikado said nervously.

Kida smiled and put his arm back around the boy as they started walking out of the school. "Oh Mikado, so young! So naive! Don't fret my inexperienced friend. I'll show you the ropes. Because I happen to be an expert." Kida winked at Mikado.

"Really? Okay, well as long as you and Anri will be there then I guess it will be okay." Mikado said.

"Don't worry Mikado it will be awesome night. Now where's my boobie~licious Anri? Kida asked turning around only to see Anri running up to them. "Ah, there she is!"

Anri ran up to the two boys and sighed. "Sorry, I'm a little late."

"Don't worry about it Anri and hey, I have some good news! You, Mikado and I are going to Kadota's party tonight!" Kida told her.

"Really? Um, okay. Sounds fun." Anri responded looking at Mikado.

Mikado smiled at her. "It's okay Anri! As long as we're together, it will be fun." He encouraged.

"Okay." Anri smiled.

"Aww, aren't you two just the cutest?" Kida said throwing his arms around the two. "Well! Let's hurry home shall we? We need time to prepare ourselves! I say we meet up at Anri's place and then leave from there, sound good?" He asked.

Mikado nodded. "Yeah, that sounds good!"

"Great! I'm so excited!" Kida exclaimed.

"Um, Masaomi you think there's going to alcohol there?" Mikado asked.

"Of course! C'mon Mikado, you know better!" Kida smiled slyly at him.

Mikado blushed. "It's just that, I've never drank alcohol before."

Anri nodded. "Yea, me neither."

Kida laughed. "You guys are too cute! Believe me, it's going to be a blast and I'll show you guys how to handle your drinks. Though, I would like to see you guys drunk."

"Masaomi, don't say that!" Mikado exclaimed.

"What? Is it wrong to want to know what what my two best friends are like when they're drunk?" Kida asked. "Besides, I'll be drinking to so it will be even more fun!"

"Whatever you say, Kida." Mikado said.

"Tonight is definitely going to be our night." Kida said.

After walking for a bit, the trio split up, only to reunite a few hours later. Kida made his way into his apartment and threw his school bag on the floor. Immediately he began rummaging through his closet. "What to wear, what to wear?" He thought aloud as he began throwing clothes out his closet. "Hm, I wonder what Mikado and Anri are going to wear...do they even know what to wear?" With that said, his cell phone began ringing.

"Hello? Masaomi Kida speaking your personal love guru!" Kida answered.

"Masaomi! What do I wear?" Mikado asked.

"Mikado, I was hoping you would call!" Kida smiled.

"I don't really have any party clothes." Mikado replied.

"Well, I'm sure you have something in your closet." Kida told him.

"What should I look for exactly?" Mikado asked.

"Something totally cool, so you can impress Anri." Kida said grinning.

"Masaomi!" Mikado exclaimed turning red.

Kida laughed, he could imagine a huge blush on his friends face.

"I'm just trying to help you out man!" Kida smiled.

"Sure, Masaomi." Mikado sighed.

"Look dude, if you don't feel like dressing up you can totally go casual." Kida replied.

"Really?" Mikado perked up.

"Totally! I just want you to have a good time." Kida told him.

"O-okay! What are you wearing tonight Masaomi?" Mikado asked.

"Can't say. It's a surprise!" Kida said glancing down and at all the clothes thrown on his floor.

"Really? Okay. Well, I'll put something together. Thanks Masaomi." Mikado said.

"No problem bro. Though, I do think it would be best if you just came naked." Kida said slyly.

"What? Masaomi!" Mikado exclaimed. "Why would I do that?"

"To let the world know what you're packin' Mikado! Especially Anri." Kida laughed.

"That's it Masaomi, I'm hanging up." Mikado replied.

"Okay, Mikado! I'll see you later! Hey, just wondering am I the only one hoping Anri wears something totally revealing and sexy?" Kida asked.

"Huh? What? Masaomi! You shouldn't wonder those things! Don't even think about it!" Mikado exclaimed blushing.

"Hahaha, Okay Mikado, I won't think about it, but I know you will. See ya!" Kida said hanging up before giving his friend time to reply.

He knew all about his friend's obvious crush on Anri and he thought the two would make a great couple. Only if Mikado had the guts to actually ask the girl out, but he knew his friend was to shy. Actually, Kida was hoping that Mikado would be able to tell Anri tonight about how he felt. Maybe with the help of a little liquid courage, who knows, maybe they would even hook up. Kida could only hope.

He turned back to the pile of clothes on the floor. /Just what kind of impression am I going for tonight?/ He thought. /I definitely want to wear something that says, 'Hey everyone! The life of the party has arrived!' Oh yeah, I'm partying hard tonight./ He began rummaging through the mess on his floor and pulled out a yellow with two black arrows going up and down.

"Huh, this shirt looks like it will do! Now what to go with this baby!" He said running to his drawers and pulling out a pair of black pants. "Hm, these would good." He then looked back down to see a pair of black shorts sitting in his drawer. "Hm.." He said grabbing them with his other hand. "Pants or shorts? Think Masaomi what will get you more attention.." Kida laughed throwing his pants back in his drawer.

"Shorts it is!" He said going to his closet and pulling out a black leather jacket to go with attire.

"Perfect!" He smiled and as he ran to look under his bed wear he spotted these tall black boots he had. "How or why I own these, I don't even know, but I'm gonna look so smokin'!" Kida smiled as he began changing into his outfit.

He was just about done changing as he grabbed his studded belt and put it on, Kida ran in front of the mirror and stared at himself totally satisfied. "Haha, this is great! I look like a freakin' rockstar. Oh yeah, look out everyone Masaomi Kida is on his way!" He exclaimed grabbing his cell phone and running out of his apartment and headed to Anri's.

Mikado and Anri stood outside of her apartment waiting for Kida to get there. Mikado couldn't help but stare at Anri, she was wearing a cute pink dress and a tiny black sweater and even if it was a simple outfit, he thought she looked amazing.

"Um, you look good Mikado." Anri said smiling at him.

"R-really? You think so? Oh wow thanks Anri." Mikado said blushing a bright red. He was wearing a white dress shirt, a black jacket and some jeans. "You look pretty good too Anri, I-I mean you always do!" He exclaimed.

Anri blushed. "Thanks Mikado." The two stood there smiling at each other until Kida showed up.

"Hey YO! What's up homies? Oh wow, Anri you look pretty sexy if I do say so myself." Kida said winking at her as the two of them stared at their blonde friend in shock. "Hey Mikado, you're lookin' sharp! I'm totally impressed." He said smiling at his friend.

"M-Masaomi, you look...like a rockstar!" Mikado said as he stared at his friend.

Kida laughed and did a twirl. "Haha, you think so? Thanks man!"

"Yeah, Masaomi you like nice." Anri stared. "I never expected you to wear something like this."

"Well, I am full of surprises!" Kida winked. "Enough about me you two, you're gonna make me blush. C'mon lets head to the party!" He exclaimed.

"Okay!" Anri and Mikado nodded as they walked next to Kida.

The trio chatted happily down the streets of Ikebukuro as they made their way to Kadota's place. As they approached they saw a lot of people outside the house and entering inside. Kida smiled witch excitement. "This is going to be so much fun you guys!"

"Yeah, there looks like there's a lot of people here already." Anri said.

"So, what are we waiting for? C'mon!" Kida said grabbing the two by the hand and dragging them towards the house. They pushed past the crowd at the front door and made there way inside.

"Woah." Mikado said.

As they expected the house was packed, the music was loud and people were everywhere dancing, hooking up and mingling with each other.

"Now this is a party!" Kida said. "C'mon let's see if there's anyone here that we know!" He said dragging his friends into the living room. In a corner they spotted Walker and Erika talking with a group of people about manga non the less. The trio made their way quickly over to them.

"Hey Walker! Erika! What's up?" Kida said greeting the two as Anri and Mikado waved timidly.

Walker looked at the trio and smiled. "Hey, hey you guys! I didn't know you guys were coming!" He said smiling.

"That's because we didn't invite them Walker! They're a trio of high school kids trying to crash the party! The rebel types." Erika said with her arm on Walker's shoulder. "I'm glad you guys are here! Just don't get into too much trouble okay!" She said smiling.

"Don't worry we won't! Hey, where's Kadota at?" Kida asked.

"Oh, he's hanging out in the kitchen mixing some drinks!" Walker said holding up his cup.

Kida smiled widely. "Alright! C'mon guys! Catch ya later Walker and Erika!" He said as he, Mikado and Anri headed to the kitchen.

As they walked into the kitchen they saw Kadota mixing some drinks on the counter and there with him were Celty and Shinra chatting happily. The trio quickly approached them.

"Hey Kadota! Shinra! Celty!" The three greeted them.

Kadota looked up from the drinks and looked confused. "Hey, I don't remember inviting you three."

"Well, we caught word of the party and decided to come!" Kida said smiling.

Kadota chuckled. "Yeah, just be careful, okay kids? I don't want anything happening to you three, this is an adult party after all."

"Don't worry Kadota, we're totally mature." Kida replied slyly.

"Haha sure." Kadota said handing Shinra a cup.

"Celty, I'm surprised you're here." Anri said.

Celty quickly typed on her phone and showed it to Anri.

I know, this isn't really like me to come to a party, but Shinra wanted us to come, so I agreed.

"It's nice for Celty and I to be getting out like this. I cherish these times, when Celty and I can be a normal couple having fun at a party." Shinra smiled as he took a drink from his cup.

Celty typed on her phone again showing it to the three.

I'm surprised to see you guys here. It's nice to see you guys. If you need anything, don't be afraid to ask Shinra or me.

Anri smiled. "Thank you, Celty."

"Well, let's get this party started! Hey, Kadota you don't mind if Mikado, Anri and I have some of those drinks you're mixing do you?" Kida asked.

Kadota looked at them and then looked towards Celty and Shinra. "I don't know, I'm not trying to encourage under age drinking here."

"Aw, c'mon Kadota! Please!" Kida begged. "Anri and Mikado have never drank before! Let them have them experience!"

"I don't know, what do you think Shinra?" Kadota asked him.

Shinra scratched his head in thought. "I don't know. What do you think Celty?"

Celty typed on her phone and showed the message to Shinra.

Well, as long as they can handle themselves.

Shinra shrugged. "Well, if they can handle themselves, Celty and I don't see why not."

Kadota looked over to the three teens. "Look, I'm going to let you drink, but don't abuse it okay? If anything happens to you I'm responsible. So, try to be good okay?"

"Thanks Kadota!" Kida gleamed and quickly grabbed three cups for himself, Anri and Mikado.

"Okay guys! Here's to a great night!" Kida said holding his cup for cheers.

"Yeah." Mikado said nervously holding up his cup.

Anri nodded and put her cup theirs.

"Cheers!"

After the three toasted to the night an hour had past and the trio had been on the dance floor. At first Mikado and Anri were reluctant to dance, but Kida encouraged them to dance. The lights were low and the music was bumping, it was really dark so you couldn't see to well with lights flashing. Mikado loosened up a bit after his first drink and it comforted him to know that no one could really see him dancing in the dark. He hesitated at first, but he worked up the courage to ask Anri to dance with him and to his surprise she was more than happy to. They both had a little buzz going on which made it easy for them to talk to each other without being nervous. Though the two were having fun, Mikado was a little concerned for Kida who seemed to keep going back for more drinks. He could tell his friend was really drunk.

"Hey Masaomi!" Mikado yelled over the music.

"Yeah, What is it? Are you having a good time Mikado!" Kida yelled back at him.

"Yeah, I am! Hey, Masaomi you don't look to good. Are you okay?" Mikado asked him.

Kida laughed. "Yeah I'm okay! I'm doing great!"

"You look flushed!" Mikado told him.

"Really?" Kida asked as he almost fell over.

"Masaomi!" Mikado yelled grabbing him. "Hey I think you should take it easy!"

"Haha, you look so cute when you're worried!" Kida said pinching his cheeks.

"But, masa~" Mikado began.

"Mikado, don't worry about me! You just have some fun with Anri Oookay?" Kida said walking away from his friend.

"Mikado, is Masaomi okay?" Anri asked worried as she came back with another drink for herself and Mikado.

"Uh, he said he is, but I'm not sure." Mikado told her and she handed him his cup.

"Should would we worry?" Anri asked.

"Well, I tried telling him to take it easy, but I don't think I'm going to get through to him" Mikado replied looking in the crowd as he saw Kida dancing with a group of people. "I think he'll be okay."

"Oh okay then!" Anri nodded. "Do you still want to dance Mikado?"

"Y-yeah!" Mikado yelled and the two continued dancing with each other.

Even if he told Mikado he was fine, he knew that he wasn't. Kida's vision was blurry and his movements became sloppy, at any moment he thought he might fall over and pass out. But, he couldn't stop dancing and for some reason everything became funny. He couldn't stop laughing when anyone talked to him and he felt light headed, truth be told Kida wanted to get wasted, he hadn't felt this good in a long time and in a way it was a thrill for him.

Kida continued to dance in the crowd and when he spun around he accidentally he someone in the chest. His vision was blurred and it was dark, so he had a hard time making out the person that stood in front of him.

"H-hey! Sorry! Haha, I didn't see you there!" Kida yelled over the music.

"No need to apologize, Kida~kun. I saw you dancing from the other side of the room and I had to come over and say hello~" The person said grabbing Kida's hand and pulling him closer to him. "You look like a hot mess." He whispered in his ear.

Kida starred at the persons face in confusion. "D-Do I know you?"

The person laughed. "Haha, Do I know you? Why Masaomi, I'm almost offended that you don't recognize me."

Kida tried to make out a face but, he couldn't tell who it was. "I-I'm sorry! I'm kinda have a hard time seeing right now!"

"I'm not surprised, you've had quite a few drinks since you've been here. You need to learn how to handle your liquor Kida~kun." The person told him.

"Haha, yeah I guess I got to!" Kida said smiling. "B-but it would be nice to know who you are!"

"Ah, who I am? You know all to well, Kida~kun." The person leaned in touching Kida's face as he whispered in his ear. "It's me. Izaya~"

"I-Izaya?" Kida said pulling away from the older man. "W-what do you think you're doing? You can't just t-talk to me!" He yelled holding his head as he backed away from him.

"Come on, Kida~kun. Don't be like that." Izaya purred.

"D-don't talk to me..." Kida felt himself falling backwards and as he reached for someone to hold on to, Izaya grabbed his hand and pulled the boy back up.

"My, my Masaomi. You're really tore up aren't you? Why don't you let Izaya~san take care of you, neh?" Izaya smiled holding Kida against him.

"What do you want, Izaya?" Kida asked looking up at him.

"What do I want? All I wanted to ask you Kida~kun, is if you would dance with me." Izaya replied as he touched Kida's face. "Watching you dancing was so cute. You tempted me, I just had to come over here and join you." He told the boy truthfully.

Kida pushed Izaya's hand away from his face. "I don't want to dance with you."

"Aw, don't be so mean Kida~kun." Izaya pouted.

"Just stay away from me." Kida replied. He didn't want anything to do with Izaya, especially after all that he had done to him in the past.

"Fine, if that's what you want Masaomi. I guess I'll just go ask Mikado if he wants to dance instead." Izaya smirked as he walked away.

"H-hey!" Kida said grabbing the older mans arm.

Izaya turned back to look at the boy. "What is it Kida~kun? I thought you wanted me to leave you alone?"

"S-stay away from Mikado." Kida said sternly.

Izaya laughed. "Well, I can't leave both you and Mikado alone. That would be no fun."

"If you leave him alone, I'll dance with you." Kida told him. He didn't want to dance with Izaya, but he wasn't going to let him go anywhere near Mikado.

"Oh, an ultimatum? Hm, how about no?" Izaya said prepared to walk away.

"Please!" Kida said clinging to Izaya's arms.

"You're that desperate to spare Miakdo? Haha, okay." Izaya said turning back to Kida. "Convince me to stay."

Kida looked at him confused. "W-What do you you mean?"

"Why should I stay here with you instead of going with Mikado? Tell me~" Izaya said grabbing Kida by his waist and pulling him closer.

Kida gasped and looked up at Izaya who had a smirk on his face. "Izaya, p-please stay with me."

"Why~?" Izaya asked as he ran his fingers through Kida's hair.

/Why is Izaya doing this? and why does his touch feel so...nice?/ Kida thought. "I don't want you to leave." Kida said putting his arms around Izaya's neck. "B-because, I like when you're close to me."

/What am I saying? I can't stand the bastard. But, something about this moment and the atmosphere is pulling me in or maybe it's the alcohol talking./

"Dance with me." Kida whispered to him.

"Masaomi, I'm shocked." Izaya said putting his hands on Kida's hips. "I've never seen this side of you." He said as he slid one hand up his shirt to tease him.

Kida gasped at Izaya's cold fingers against his stomach. "I-Izaya, what are you doing!"

"Let's dance." Izaya laughed as he kept his under Kida's shirt.

Kida didn't know what was going on, the music was blaring and his vision became blurry again, he felt like he was in and out of conscientiousness. He and Izaya had been dancing with each other for awhile and it was getting so hot tha he began panting slightly. He didn't notice when Izaya started grinding against him which made him moan slightly. He didn't know why, but it felt good and he didn't want Izaya to stop.

"Hnng." Kida moaned holding onto Izaya tighter.

Izaya couldn't help but laugh. "Do you like the way it feels Masaomi?"

"Y-yea, don't stop." Kida replied as he continued to move his hips against Izaya's.

"Well Kida~kun, how about we take this else where?" Izaya said pulling away from the boy.

"Huh?" Kida asked still holding on to Izaya, his legs were shaking and he was afraid he would fall over.

"Let's go upstairs." Izaya said taking Kida's hand and began pulling him through the crowd.

"I-Izaya. Hey, wait I-I can't walk." Kida tried to tell Izaya as he pulled him by the hand, but his head was spinning and legs gave in. Kida hit the floor and he immediately started laughing feeling delirious.

Izaya was walking when felt Kida's hand slip away from his, he looked back to see the blonde laying on the floor laughing.

"Hahaha, everything is so bright and I can't feel my legs!" Kida shouted as he wiggled on the floor.

Izaya looked at the boy with amusement. "Kida~kun, you're such a hot mess." He said as he picked the boy up from the floor and carried him in his arms. "Stop teasing me."

Kida put his arms around Izaya's neck and allowed himself to be carried up the stairs. "Why are we up here, Izaya?" He asked Izaya as they walked into and empty room.

Izaya flicked the light switch on and shut the door. He threw Kida on the bed and smirked at him. "You know, you really are something Masaomi."

"Really?" Kida asked as he laid back on the bed. He didn't know what to expect from the information broker. Why did he bring him up here? What did he want from him? and why did he allow himself to be carried up here? /What's wrong with me? I don't feel like myself at all. In fact, I can barely feel anything my legs are like jelly and my heads spinning, just what is Izaya planning? Why did I end up in this situation so easily?/ He thought as he tried to focus on anything in the room, but it was all one big blur to him.

"Yes, I was afraid someone else would get to you before I did and have their way with you instead of me." Izaya admitted smirking at the boy. He's eyes moved up and down the boy's body as he laid there helplessly and so vulnerable. Izaya loved what he was seeing.

"W-what do you mean, Izaya?" Kida asked trying to focus on Izaya's face. /Have their way with me?/

"Don't act like you didn't know exactly what you were doing Kida~kun. I know you're not that naive." Izaya said tossing his jacket on the floor as he moved towards the bed.

"S-stop." Kida said as Izaya approached the bed climbed on top of him. "I-Izaya, what are you doing?" He felt himself begin to panic as Izaya hovered over him staring down into his eyes. Kida was scared and he didn't know what to do, he couldn't move and he felt so vulnerable.

"Shh, It's okay Masaomi." Izaya said stroking Kida's cheek which caused him to flinch. "I know you want it." He leaned down closer before being pushed away by a weak hand.

"D-don't touch me." Kida said as tried to push Izaya away only to have his two hands pinned behind his head. He gasped and struggled under Izaya trying to break free. "L-let me go!" He pleaded with the older man only to be laughed at.

"Haha, oh Masaomi! No need to play Koi now! It's to late for that." Izaya smirked.

"What are you talking about Izaya? I don't want this!" Kida said desperately still trying to break free from Izaya's grip.

Izaya leaned down and his face hovered over Kida's, he looked into the blonde's eyes and saw his fear. It only made Izaya all the more anxious. He held both Kida's wrists above his head with one hand and with the other, he reached in his pocket and pulled out a yellow scarf. Izaya's eyes glistened as he saw the blonde tense up at the sight of it.

"I-Izaya, why do you have that?" Kida asked focusing on the scarf, his whole vision was blurred, but he could see the yellow scarf as clear as day.

"I think it's appropriate don't you think so? It's only right that the leader of the yellow scarves be taken while wearing one." Izaya smirked tugging on Kida's shirt. Kida squirmed underneath Izaya, panicked, he tried to kick, but he couldn't move his legs. He felt himself sweat in fear and the last thing he wanted to hear was that he was going to be taken.

"I-Izaya, please..d-don't." Kida said with pleading eyes. He was scared and he felt like his whole world was spinning and all he could see was his yellow scarf and a hazy dark grin.

"Stop teasing me, Masaomi. I love it when you beg." Izaya leaned down and kissed the Kida's neck, which made him gasp when he bit down into his skin. Izaya continued biting down on his neck as the boy squirmed underneath him, Kida clenched his hands into fists trying to endure the pain, but he didn't know that this was nothing compared to what was going to come.

"Ah! I-Izaya! Hng, s-stop!" Kida gasped as Izaya pulled away from his neck. Izaya smirked as he examined the marks he left on Kida's neck, knowing that they would be there for awhile. He turned his attention back to the blonde's face and grinned.

"Now, Kida~kun. Let's do a recap shall we?" Izaya asked as he left go of the blonde's wrists, Kida tried sitting up but Izaya quickly pushed him back down and began taking off Kida's jacket and shirt.

"First, you found out about Dotachin's party and decided you would come without an invite, because you wanted to feel like a big boy, Kida." Izaya said throwing Kida's jacket on the floor and began pulling off the blonde's shirt.

"I-Izaya! N-No, stop!" Kida yelled trying to push him away, but he was to weak and once his shirt was off, Izaya grabbed his wrists again and pinned them behing his head once more.

"Second, you invited you're friends so you wouldn't have to come alone and then you chose the most provocative outfit you own to wear tonight." Izaya said wrapping the yellow scarf around Kida's hands as he released them.

Kida frantically tried to manevur his hands out of the scarf, but it was tied so tightly it hurt more to struggle against his bindings. Izaya pulled both of Kida's boots off and threw them on the floor, but Kida felt his breathe get caught in his throat when Izaya began to unzip his shorts and unbuckle his belt.

"Izaya..." Kida whispered as Izaya pulled his shorts off. "Please..." Izaya ignored Kida's pleas and he grinned when Kida only had his boxers left on him, he playful tugged at the elastic and the blonde tensed up. He was anxious and scared, he didn't know what to expect, he had never been in this position before.

"Third, you crash the party and convince Dotachin to let you drink and that's when you start downing cup after cup and getting completely beligerant and messy." Izaya said his hand pulling down Kida's boxers and throwing them on the floor. Kida laid there still his cheeks flushed at being completely exposed, no one had ever seen him naked before. Izaya grinned at the blushing boy. "Naughty boy, Masaomi. You're already hard." He said as wrapped his hand around his member.

"Ah!" Kida grasped as Izaya rubbed him and as scared as he was it felt good to be touched. He looked at Izaya completely flushed and he didn't know why he was letting this happen. But, he felt to weak to protest against the mans touch.

"Fourth, you start dancing unaware of all the attention you're bringing to yourself looking like a cheap whore and you don't even know it." Izaya stopped rubbing and spread Kida's legs open. "More like you knew what you were doing, but pretended like you didn't. What a performance, Masaomi."

"Izaya.."Kida was cut off by a finger pressed against his lips.

"Now suck." Izaya said forcing two fingers into Kida's mouth, he almost gagged, but he obeyed and sucked on Izaya's fingers.

"Good boy." Izaya purred, pulling his fingers out and spreading Kida's legs wider.

"Izaya, please! Don't.." Kida pleaded. He felt himself begin to shake from nervousness. He couldn't believe that this was happening and he wasn't doing anything to stop Izaya.

"Fifth, you tempt me enough to make me want to dance with you and then you seduce me, leaving me no choice other than to take you up stairs and have my way with you." Izaya smirked as Kida stared at him with wide eyes. "You wanted the attention Masaomi and now you've got it."

"No! I-It isn't like that..I wasn't trying to get any attention." Kida replied and Izaya immediately hovered over the boys face again.

"Please Kida-kun, you can't lie to me." Izaya said placing his fingers against Kida's entrance. The blonde gasped and his body tensed up. "I know you're still drunk Masaomi and that's why you haven't put up a fight. You should learn how to hold your liquor."

"Izaya, please I'm.." Kida began, but was cut off when Izaya whispered in his ear. "I know you're a virgin Kida." Kida felt extremely light headed and confused. How did Izaya know that? Was it obvious? Izaya moved away from the boys ear and grinned looking down at him. /I'm not ready for this./ Kida thought.

"You came to this party dressed like a whore and acting like a whore. Now prepare to be fucked like one." Izaya said as he shoved his two fingers into Kida's rectum.

"Ah!" Kida yelled throwing his head back, he was in so much pain Izaya fingers dug deeper into him, but before he knew it, he found himself bucking against the fingers and he moaned as he felt sting of pleasure. "Ah, f-fuck!" He yelled out as Izaya grinned enjoying the blondes reaction. He stared down at the flushed boys face and saw how heavily he was panting, just looking at the blonde made him hard.

"You're making me so impatient Kida-kun. I just can't wait any longer." Izaya pulled his fingers out of the boy abruptly which made him gasp. Izaya looked down at the blood at his finger and smirked, he wasn't surprised since it was the boys first time. He simply wiped the blood off and prepared for his next move. Kida panted heavily looking up at Izaya trying to make out his face, but his vision was still blurry. He had drank to much to be able to focus on anything visual, but even though his body felt limp, he definitely felt the pain and pleasure Izaya was giving him.

Izaya threw off his own shirt and began removing his pants, he watched Kida carefully and saw that the boy's eyes were glassy and unfocused. "I know you're vision is unfocused and blurry, Kida-kun. But, just because you can't really see, doesn't mean you won't remember how this is going to feel. Even if the alcohol has made your body weak." Izaya guranteed.

Once his pants were off he grabbed the blonde and raised his hips, immediately Kida felt something large poking at his rectum. The blonde began squirming and shaking his head. "W-wait, I-I can't do this.." He whispered, but before he could continue, he felt a pair of lips meet his own. The kiss sent tingles down his spine as he was kissed roughly by the older man. He didn't know why, but it made his head spin even more than before and he felt himself getting lost in the kiss. But, before he knew it Izaya thrusted into him with one swift motion. The information broker quickly broke the kiss to hear the younger boys screams.

"Ah! I-Izaya, s-stop!" Kida yelled feeling the pain overwhelm him as tears began to fall from his eyes. He whimpered as Izaya ignored his desperate pleas and all Kida wanted was for it to be over.

"Kida-kun, shh it's okay." Izaya said loving every scream and every expression Kida made. He leaned down licking the tears from the blondes cheeks. Kida tried to stop crying and bit his lip to himself from whimpering. The tears continued to flow as Izaya continously thrusted into him, he had never imagined his fist time to be like this. He knew Izaya was enjoying this and with his tears clouding his already blurry vision, he thought it was better this way so he wouldn't have to see the grin Izaya had on his face.

To his surprise, instead of whimpers Kida began moaning. Izaya kissed the blondes lips satisfied that boy was starting to get a little bit comfortable. Kida kissed Izaya desperately wanting to feel what he had the first time when they kissed before, Izaya kissed the boy back letting his tongue slip into his mouth so he could taste every corner. Izaya continued to rock into the blonde and Kida desperatly wanted to hold onto Izaya, but couldn't because hands were tied.

"Mm, Kida...does it feel better now?" Izaya asked in between kisses.

"Ah, ah, Y-yes. Hng." Kida moaned, he was still in pain, but he was beginning to get the flow of things.

"Good." Izaya purred. He began to thrust harder into the boy receiving small moans and slowly the tears became lesser.

Izaya thrusted into the boy continously and when Kida let out a loud moan, he knew that he had hit the spot. "I-Izaya...Aha! R-right there!" The blonde yelled out. Izaya grinned and continuously thrusted into the same spot, which made Kida let out moan after moan, which drove Izaya crazy with pleasure.

Kida wrapped his legs around the older mans waist making the thrusts harder which made Kida's body shiver with pleasure all over. With a few more hard and fast thrusts he felt himself cum all over his own stomach and on the other man. Izaya moaned and he felt himself release inside the boy, which made the blonde shudder. Izaya grinned and leaned over to kiss the boy. The shared a heated kiss before the Izaya broke the kiss and pulled out of Kida.

Kida laid there in a daze as Izaya got off the bed and began getting dressed. /Did that really just happen?/ He thought unable to move, he was so sore. /Did I just have sex with Izaya?/ He didn't know how to handle everything that just happened and what confused him the most was that he actually enjoyed himself despite the pain.

All of a sudden Kida saw a flash coming from where Izaya stood. "Izaya, what are you doing?" He asked trying to see, but unable to make out the blurry figure and what he was holding.

Izaya snapped a few pictures before putting his phone back his jacket pocket. "I don't want to forget this moment Kida-kun, so I had to take a few pictures." The information broker grinned watching the boy become worried.

"W-what? You better not show anyone those!" Kida told him afraid that the information broker would shame him to everyone they knew.

"No promises, Masaomi." Izaya said grabbing Kida's tied up wrists and releasing them. Kida felt relief as his wrists were no longer being strained, he winced though because they were red and they felt raw. His clothes were tossed at him and he tried to grab them, but his hands were shaking.

"Get dressed." Izaya said as watched the boy struggle to put his clothes back on with his weak hands and clouded vision.

Kida's hand were shaking as he put his boxers and shorts back on and he struggled to get his tall boots back on his feet, it took him a couple of times, but he got it. He threw his shirt over his head and pulled it down, he reached for his jacket when he felt a hand grab his arm and pull up from the bed. Kida stumbled forward into Izaya's arms and hit his chest. Izaya held Kida up as he helped put the the boys jacket on. "You really are a hot mess, Kida-kun." Once his jacket was on Izaya leaned down and began sucking on the blondes neck. Kida gasped and held onto Izaya for support, his bites were painful. Izaya licked the mark he left on the boys neck and pulled away. "It's time to go home, Masaomi." Izaya said turning off the light and opening the bedroom door. He laughed as he watched Kida stumble out, he was barely able to walk.

Kida reached out to Izaya for support, but the older man was behind him, so he grabbed onto the staircase railing to hold him up as he walked down. Izaya grinned as he walked behind Kida and gave the unstable boy a push. Kida fell forward unable to regain his balance and went tumbling down the stairs. Everything was spinning as he cluched his head at the bottom of the staircase. The music seemed louder than ever and it was more crowded than before, so much so that no one noticed him laying there at the bottom of the stairs. He felt something warm coming from his mouth, he raised his fingers to touch him lip and saw the blurry red substance on his finger tips. /I'm bleeding./ Kida tried to get up, but was quickly pushed back down by Izaya's foot.

"My, my, Masaomi. You really need to get yourself together. Actually don't do that, the drunken whore look suits you perfectly." Izaya grinned stepping over Kida and heading toward the door. "Well, see you later Masaomi!" He yelled back as he twirled the yellow scarf in the air on his way out.

/I can't move./ Kida thought as he laid helplessly on the ground. As much as he tried to find the strength the boy couldn't move an inch, even as people passed him by he couldn't speak or call out for help. He slowly saw all the blurry lights and people fade to black.

"Masaomi! Masaomi, can you hear me?"

"There's no point kid, he's out cold."

"What happened to him?"

"Who knows, he disappeared after awhile. No one saw where he went the rest of the night."

"He was bleeding!"

"Yeah, he must have fell. That's probably why we found him infront of the staircase."

"Masaomi, please wake up."

Kida opened his eyes slowly as he felt himself being moved, he could barely see anything when he felt himself being grabbed. "Masaomi! You're awake! What happened? Are you okay?" Mikado asked staring at Kida with a worried look. "Mikado?" Kida said reaching out and grabbing his friend. "Where are we?" He asked confused as to where they were. "Were in Kadota's van, he's giving us a ride home." Mikado replied. Kida looked around trying to focus Kadota's figure in the front seat.

"Hey kid, you alright?" Kadota asked.

"I..." Kida began finding himself unable to explain. "I don't know."

"Figures. It seems like out drank everyone at the party. You're a mess. I knew I shouldn't have let you drink, but Mikado and Anri were fine." Kadota replied looking at Kida through his rear view mirror.

"Are you okay, Masaomi?" Anri asked.

"Yeah, don't worry about me." Kida replied. His head throbbing in pain and he felt like at any moment he would back out again. /My head is still spinning./

"Alright, Anri this is your stop right?" Kadota asked stopping infront of Anri place.

Anri nodded and turned to Kida and Mikado. "Well, I'll see you two tomorrow at school. Thank you for inviting me." She said giving them a small smile as she stepped out of the van and shut the door.

"Bye Anri!" Mikado waved from the window.

"Mikado." Kida called him. /I still can't make out Mikado's face./

"Yeah? What's wrong Masaomi?" Mikado asked concerned.

"Did you make the moves on her tonight?" Kida asked him a small smile. /I just want Mikado and Anri to be happy./

Mikado's face immediately turned red and he shook his head. "No! It wasn't like that. We danced and that was it." He said nervously. Kida lauged slightly and put his hand on Mikado's. "Dude, I thought you would have at least been able to cop a feel by now." The blonde replied as Mikado became flustered. "What? What are you talking about, I could never do that Masaomi!" /I wish I could see his face right now./

"I know, Mikado." Kida smiled weakly as he saw his blurry world turn black once more.

It was morning. That's what Kida knew for sure as he turned over and saw the light from his window creeping into his room. He was a bit shocked that his vision had returned to him, he was so traumatized from last night that he didn't know how he would ever live without his sense of sight. /I can see. Nothing is blurry, everything is so clear./ He looked down to see his boots and jacket laying on the floor and saw that he was still in his shirt and shorts from last night. /How did I manage to get home last night? I couldn't even move./ He tensed up as he remembered how paralyzed he had been last night, he was so scared and vulnerable. /And Izaya took advantage of that./ Kida felt the tears coming, but quickly wiped them away.

"Izaya..." Kida whispered. /It was real. I said his name just like that last night./ He looked at his wrists and saw that there were now black and blue bruises on both his wrists. /There's probably bruises on the rest of my body to./ Kida reached for his phone next to his bed to check the time. He jolted up quickly when he saw the time, but immediately fell back down against his bed. /I can barely move. I'm so sore from last night and now I'm late for school./ He flipped open his phone to see five new messages all from Mikado.

Masaomi! How are you feeling? Text back as soon as you get this! -Mikado

You're not sleeping in today are you? You don't want to be late for school!-Mikado

Masaomi, Anri and I are waiting for you at the gate. Where are you?-Mikado

Hey, are you coming to school today? I would understand if you're not.-Mikado

Hey Masaomi, I'll see you after school okay! Feel better!-Mikado

Kida smiled slightly and shut his phone, that's Mikado for you. Despite how horrible he was feeling, Kida couldn't allow himself to miss school, he needed to get his mind off of everything. He sat up slowly and got up out of bed. "Okay, I can do this." He said as he slowly walked toward the bathroom in pain. Everything hurt, he just wanted to lay back down but he couldn't allow himself to do that.

The blonde slowly walked into his bathroom and turned to look at himself in the mirror. /Damn, I look awful./ He thought as he laughed slightly. How could he have been so reckless? He moved his hands up to touch the marks that Izaya left on his neck, he was hesitant to touch them. His hands began to shake slightly, but he couldn't bring himself to touch the red marks. It made him feel so weak and he was already vulnerable enough at this moment. Kida turned away from the mirror quickly and turned the water to his shower on. He quickly removed his clothes and got into the shower, he didn't want to give himself the chance to see his body in the mirror. He felt disgusted with himself and he winced as the water touched his skin.

It was painful, but also a relief to be able to wash off all the dirtyness from last night. Even as Kida rubbed himself with soap, he still felt dirty. The bruises and the marks were all physical, but it didn't compare to the emotional damage that was inflicted on him. He was glad the water was running, because he didn't want to see his own tears.

Kida got ready quickly and was running down the streets of Ikebukuro, he knew that he was already late for school, but he felt the urgency to get there as soon as possible. He stopped infront of the school once he got there to catch his breath, he had never been this eager to go to school. /It's weird how you can do a complete one eighty over night./ He walked into the school and headed to the office.

Once he had his late slip, he headed to class. When he walked in the entire class turned around to stare at him, he quickly walked up to his teacher and handed him the late slip. The teacher nodded and Kida quickly took his seat. One of the guys that sat next to Kida turned to talk to him. "Hey Masaomi, why are you late?" The boy asked curious.

"Me? Oh I just slept in." Kida replied smiling.

The other boy raised an eyebrow at him. "Are you sure Masaomi?"

"Yeah, why?" Kida asked.

"Because!" The boy that sat behind Kida said as he grabbed the blondes shoulders. "We can see those hickeys on your neck Masaomi."

Kida flinched and pushed the other boys hands away. "Oh yeah, I forgot about those." He admitted trying to pull his hoodie up higher.

"So, give us the real story Masaomi! We want details! Did you hook up with a hot chick last night?" The boy asked waiting to hear the gossip.

"Yeah, Masaomi! Was her body amazing?" The other boy asked.

"I..." Kida started feeling his words get caught in his throat as he thought about Izaya's hands all over him. He remembered how painful it was when he bit down on his neck leaving the marks on his neck for everyone to see. But, what was more painful was remembering how Izaya penatrated him leaving him feeling used and weak. But, he could never let anyone know how he was feeling and he could never tell anyone the truth about what happened last night. Despite how much it was killing him on the inside.

"Well, you see she had a bangin' body! I mean she was built like a stallion, soft skin and nice tits. I met her at this party I went to last night and we totally hooked up." Kida bragged and pitched his made up story like it was the truth. "You guys should be totally jealous. Guess you can say I'm a babe magnet." He winked at the two boys.

"Damn Masaomi, you've got some skills." The boy said impressed.

"Yeah, you've got to tell us how you do it Masaomi." The other boy replied hoping to get some tips.

"Sorry guys, but if I shared my secrets then you guys would be trying to out shine me. I can't let that happen." Kida said smiling slightly.

"Ah, come on Masaomi! Don't be greedy share your secrets with us!" The boy said as he shook the blondes shoulders.

"Haha, hey! Sorry guys!" Kida laughed as he pushed the boys hands away. "I'm a closed book."

"You suck." The other boy said throwing a ball of paper at Kida's head.

"Don't be jealous." Kida said winking at the boy and turning back to face the chalk board.

Kida wanted to laugh, he don't know if it because it was funny how easily the other boys tricked or because if he didn't laugh at himself then he would start crying. /If they only knew./ He thought to himself. /I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone./ He laid his head down on the desk and closed his eyes. He wanted it to be lunch already so he could see Mikado. He knew that Mikado was the only one who could make him feel better.

The bell rang and lunch had officially started. Kida immediately grabbed his bag and ran out of the room and headed outside to meet up with Mikado and Anri at their usual lunch spot. He didn't bother to stop at the cafeteria to pick something to eat, because he felt to sick to eat. Despite the pain he continued to run and spotted Mikado and Anri sitting together at their usual spot. Kida felt his heart leap at the sight of the two, he had never been more happy to see his two friends. He walked closer to them and was about to approach them, when he noticed something.

They were holding hands and their fingers were intertwined.

Kida froze, he didn't now how to feel at that moment. He was shocked to see the two holding hands, he didn't think it would happen. Mikado had always been so shy, he didn't think the boy had it in him to tell Anri how he felt. When did he tell her? Was it this morning? During class? /or was it last night at the party./ He thought feeling his heart sink. /What if he did tell her last night and I missed it. I missed it because I was with Izaya./ This is was all he ever wanted for his two friends, for them to be together and happy. But, Kida wished that he had been there to see it happen. /I missed it, because I was stupid and drunk. I missed it, because I was being selfish and only thought about myself last night. I left Anri and Mikado alone on purpose last night so they could get close and talk about their feelings. I danced by myself, but I was still supposed to watch them to see if it would happen or not. But, I got caught up in the lights, music and alcohol. I let myself go and I acted like a fool. I allowed myself to get pulled in by Izaya and I got caught up in his touch. While Mikado and Anri shared an intimate moment, I was upstairs being fucked like a whore./ Kida quickly turned his back towards the two and ran before either of them saw him there.

Kida found a place to sit by himself near the school courts where there was alot of people around him, but no one noticed the blonde sitting there alone. He stared forward not looking at anything in particular, his body was numb and his mind was silent. At that moment he truly felt alone.

Class started again and Kida stared mindlessly at the board as the teacher taught a lesson. /How could I let him do this to me? Izaya, look what you've done to me. Not that you care, you sick bastard. You must feel accomplished and pretty pleased with yourself. You've done it again, haven't you? Used me and tossed me aside like I'm a toy. I'm not a toy. At least I didn't think I was before last night. I feel like you've ripped me apart. I feel cheap. I feel disgusted with myself. Heh, here I am blaming you when I should be blaming myself. I allowed this to happen, I left myself vulnerable and defenseless and if it wasn't you that did it then it would have been someone else. Why couldn't it have been anyone else but you? Anyone./ He thought as he looked down at his blank notebook.

Kida trying picking up his pencil to take notes, but his hands were shaking and he couldn't hold the pencil in his hand. /and yet I still think about your touch. How your hands ran all over my body, how you thrusted into me and me scream. I couldn't see anything, but I remember everything. Almost as if my vision wasn't impared at all. I remember how you touched me like I had never been touched before and when you kissed me.../ Kida raised his hand up and his fingers ran across his lips. /You left me desperate for more, I craved the sensation of your lips against mine. It made my head spin and my body shiver. I can't stop thinking about how it made me feel./ He didn't want to feel this way, but the blonde couldn't help it.

Kida didn't know to handle everything that had happened. /I remember when it was over, how I laid there in pain and you got up and acted as if it were nothing./ He felt himself freeze as he remembered something that he had forgotten. He didn't know how he could forget something so important. /As I laid there, Izaya got dressed and then I saw a white flash and he told me that he took pictures to remember the moment./ Kida felt himself panic, he didn't know Izaya was planning to do with those pictures. He had to leave as soon as possible and go confront the information broker, despite how he feared seeing him again.

"Fuck." Kida said aloud causing some of his class mates to look at him.

"You okay, Masaomi?" One of his classmates asked him.

"Huh? Oh yeah! Sorry, I just forgot something important I need to do after school." Kida replied as calm as possible.

"Like see that girl from last night again?" The same boy from earlier said to him.

"Exactly." Kida replied.

The bell rang and school was over. Kida walked out of his class and headed to the entrance of the school. He would have ran, but he still nervous about confronting Izaya. He didn't know what to expect and he was afraid of what would happen once he got to his apartment. Kida had just reached the front of the school when he felt someone grab his shoulder.

"Masaomi!" Mikado said pulling Kida back.

"Mikado..." Kida said looking at his friend shocked. /I didn't think he would see me./

"Why didn't you tell me that you came to school today? You never texted me back and I didn't see you at lunch." Mikado said wanting to know why Kida didn't try to contact him.

"Sorry Mikado, I just forgot to text you back. I was going to find you at lunch, but I wasn't feeling good, so I slept threw lunch." Kida replied.

"Are you feeling better now?" Mikado asked concerned.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry about me." Kida said smiling slightly. It was hard for him to look Mikado in the eyes, he felt like he had let his best friend down, because he was selfish and stupid.

"Okay, do you want to hang out? Anri and I wanted to go walk around the city for awhile." Mikado offered.

"No, it's okay. I'm really tired, I think I'm just to head home today." Kida replied. He didn't want to get in the way of Anri and Mikado spending alone time together.

"Oh okay then. Will you be coming to school tomorrow?" Mikado asked.

"Yeah, I'll see you then." Kida said as he turned around and walked away.

Mikado watched as his friend walked away and he couldn't help, but feel like something was wrong.

Kida walked up to the information brokers door and stood there. He was to afraid to move, he felt frozen. /What am I doing? Why can't I move my hand and knock?/ His hand slowly raised up, but he couldn't put it against the door. /It's to late to chicken out now. I can't be a coward. I can't let him have this effect on me./ He took a deep breath and knocked on the door. His heart was beating fast as he anticipated what would happen next.

The door opened and he was greeted by a woman with long black hair and a sour looking face. Kida blinked a few times confused, he knew that this is Izaya's apartment. /But, then why.../

"Are you just going to stand there and stare at me kid?" The woman asked annoyed.

"Uh, is this Izaya's apartment?" Kida asked nervously.

"Of course it is." She said as she flipped her hair. "This must be your first time here, I'm assuming."

"Acutally no..." Kida began, but was immediately cut off.

"Well, are you just going to stand there or are you going to come in?" She asked irritated by Kida.

"S-sorry, can I come in?" Kida asked.

The woman rolled her eyes and moved out of the way. Kida walked in hesitantly and jumped when the door slammed abruptly behind him. "Izaya! You've got a client here to see you." She said walking over to the couch and taking a seat.

"Send them in, Namie." Izaya said typing away at his keyboard.

"Go on, Kid." Namie told Kida not bothering to look at him.

Kida hesitantly made his way toward Izaya's desk. His heart was racing as he looked at the older man sitting infront of him, he didn't know what expect, let alone what to say. /What do I say?/ Kida thought as he stood infront of Izaya's desk. He clutched his school bag strap nervously as he looked the information broker.

"Izaya..." Kida said softly. If he had said it any lower it would have been a whisper.

Izaya fingers immediately stopped typing and they laid still on the keyboard, he turned to see the nervous blonde boy standing in front of him. He couldn't help, but grin. "Kida-kun, I'm glad you came. I've been expecting you."

"You have?" Kida asked nervously.

"Of course, you and I have unfinished business to discuss." Izaya grinned, examning the boy closely. He knew he was afraid of him.

"Namie, do you think you could leave us to alone?" Izaya asked without breaking eye contact with Kida. "I have a few errands I would like you to run."

Namie put her work down and walked to Izaya's desk, he handed her a list and she walked away. "Take your time, Namie." Izaya told her.

"Whatever." Namie said slamming the door on her way out.

Once the door shut Kida felt himself tense up, they were alone.

"I've been thinking about you, Masaomi. Have you been thinking about me? I wonder..." Izaya said standing from his chair.

Kida moved back a little even though Izaya was still behind his desk. He wanted to keep his distance from the older man.

"Ah, but of course you were thinking about me! Otherwise, you wouldn't be here right now." Izaya said walking around his desk and toward Kida. "You just couldn't stay away." He said grinning and he reached out to touch the blonde's cheek.

"Don't touch me!" Kida said immediately slapping Izaya's hand away. He stood there shocked at how fast he reacted, he was definitely on edge.

"What? You don't want me touching you Masaomi?" Izaya said grabbing Kida by his waist and pulling him towards his body. "Don't you think it's a little to late for that? I've already had you, Masaomi. No need to shy away from my touch now. I know you, I know all of you." The raven haired man said leaning in and licking Kida's neck.

Kida gasped and tried pushing him away. "Izaya, stop."

"Mm, but I don't want to." Izaya continued as he bit down on Kida's neck.

"Ah!" Kida gasped as he clutched onto Izaya's jacket.

"Seems like you don't want me to stop either, Masaomi." Izaya said pulling away from the boys neck. "I bet you had a hard time hiding those marks." He ran fingers over Kida's neck with a satisfied look.

"No thanks to you." Kida said releasing his grip from Izaya. "Izaya, we need to talk."

"Ah, of course we do. So, I'm assuming you came here to gush about how much fun you had last night and how much you would like to do it again, neh?" Izaya said running his fingers through Kida's hair. "You're such a bad boy, Kida."

"I'm not! Don't touch me." The blonde said glaring into the mans blood red eyes.

"Oh, Kida-kun, I love way you look at me. Almost like you're begging for me to take you right here and now." Just when Kida was about to protest, Izaya grabbed the boys chin and pressed his lips against his own.

Kida felt himself grow weak in the knees at Izaya's touch as the two kissed each other aggresively. One moment he would protest and not want to get near the information broker and then next he felt himself succumbing to the older mans touch. Why did he feel so weak and vulnerable whenever Izaya was around? Why couldn't he stand his ground and confront Izaya like he had intended. Did he really crave being touched that badly?

"Izaya..." Kida whispered in between kisses as he threw his arms around the older mans neck feeling the information broker pull him closer.

Izaya couldn't help, but grin as he contiued to ravish the blondes mouth. He made a note of it last night when he had kissed Kida, he saw how the boy completely succumbed to the sensation. Izaya knew that all he had to do was kiss the boy to make him melt. All Kida needed was some false affection to fall into the information brokers arms.

"Do you want me to take you, Masaomi?" Izaya purred as he kiss the boys jawline.

"Huh? I-I don't know." Kida said in a daze as the information broker laid kisses on him. /What am I doing? Why do I feel so weak?/ He didn't know why he was letting Izaya do this to him after how broken he felt. He knew after this Izaya would only leave him feeling the same way. /But then why.../ He couldn't fight back, his mind was telling one thing, but his body was doing another.

"Then I'll decide for you." Izaya said pulling away from the boy. He grabbed Kida's school bag and threw it off him.

Kida stared at Izaya confused. "Izaya, what are you doing...hey!" He shouted as Izaya lefted him up and carried him to his desk.

Izaya threw Kida on top of his desk making the boy wince, he quickly jumped on top of him before the blonde had a chance to get up. Kida laid there staring up into Izaya's eyes. "Wh-what are you..." He began, but was cut of by Izaya finger.

"Shh, let me take over from here." Izaya grinned kicking everything off his desk. "You know Kida-kun, I fantasized about us being in this position all morning." He admitted while his eyes glistened. "I was worried you weren't going to show up today, so I contemplated kidnapping you after school. But, you showed up as I predicted." Izaya said taking his phone out of his pocket and looking threw it. "After all, I'm sure you remembered I had this photo of you." He flashed the picture he took and watched how Kida broke out of a blissful daze.

"Hey! Give that to me!" Kida said trying to grab Izaya's phone, but the information broker was to swift and moved it out of his grasp.

"I knew you would come wanting it." Izaya continued. "Sorry, Masaomi. But, I'm not going to delete it and even if I did, I already uploaded it onto my computer ready to send out to all my contacts at my will."

Kida's eyes widened and he felt his heart start beating fast out of fear. "You wouldn't..."

"I will. But, you could always change my mind." Izaya grinned knowing that he had the boy right where he wanted him.

"How?" Kida asked desperately.

"By playing by my rules, Kida-kun." Izaya said moving his free down and grabbing Kida's crotch.

Kida gasped and a blush immediately came across his face. "I-Izaya, stop." He pleaded.

"No." He then began rubbing against it which caused Kida to grab to each side of the desk. "I-Izaya..d-don't."

"Listen Masaomi, lets play a game." Izaya pitched as he continued to rub the blondes crotch making him squirm. "If you don't want me to send that picture out, then you'll play by my rules. If you do so, then I won't send out the picture and I'll delete it from my computer and my phone." He explained.

"O-okay, I-I'll play by your rules...ah!" Kida moaned as Izaya continued to jerk him off.

"Oh will you now?" Izaya grinned looking down. "You get hard so easily, Masaomi." He then put his phone in his jacket pocket and threw off his jacket.

"Yes!" Kida yelled out.

"Good. Now should I explain the rules?" Izaya asked as he removed his hand away from the boys pants.

Kida stared at Izaya as he left him laying there uncomfortable. "Okay."

Izaya grabbed Kida's pants and immediately began taking them off. The blonde laid there without protest as the information broker removed his pants and his boxers. Once they were off, he threw the blondes Raira jacket on the floor along with his white hoodie. Kida blushed as he laid there completely naked in front of Izaya. Izaya smirked as he saw embarrassed the blonde was and it made him want him even more.

"Okay, Masaomi. Lets begin." Izaya as he undressed himself, but before he tossed his pants aside, he pulled out something from his pocket. "Look familiar?" He asked as he watched the boy tense up.

Kida stared in shock as he saw his yellow scarf in Izaya's hand. "Why do you have that still?" He couldn't believe that Izaya was planning on using it again.

"Like I said before. I think it's only appropriate for the leader of the yellow scarves to be taken while wearing a yellow scarf." Izaya grinned leaning over Kida and tying the scarf over his eyes.

"Izaya, stop!" Kida said feeling himself panic as Izaya tied the scarf around his head.

"Ah, what's wrong Kida-kun are you scared of the dark?" Izaya grinned.

Kida was scared. This all felt to familiar to him and ever since last night, he was afraid of being unable to see. He remembered how afraid he felt yesterday night when his vision was shot and he couldn't see a thing. He felt like he was suffocating, he remembered how limp his body felt and the feeling began to come back. It was a position he never wanted to end up in again, yet here he is now. The boy knew that he couldn't let Izaya know this, but he couldn't stop a few tears that escaped from his eyes.

"I-I'm not scared." Kida replied trying to hide the fear in his voice.

"You're a terrible liar, Masaomi. You're already crying and I haven't even penetrated you yet." Izaya told the blonde as he placed himself in between Kida's legs.

Kida felt himself tense up and he didn't know what he more afraid of; sex with Izaya or not being able to see. The boy didn't know, but the fact that he was faced with both of his fears at once, made him want scream.

"I wonder what you're anticipating more, Masaomi? The pain or pleasure." Izaya looked down at the boy and saw that he was distracted. He frowned and leaned over kissing the blonde the lips, regaining the teens attention.

Kida kissed Izaya back feeling comfort from the light kisses, he placed on his lips. Kida knew that Izaya was only playing around with him whenever he would be gentle. The kisses distracted him from his fears very breifly, because he wanted nothing more than to rip the scarf off his eyes and run out of Izaya's apartment.

"Izaya, please I..." Kida began as Izaya pulled away.

"Kida-kun, don't worry. We've done this before, remember?" Izaya laughed. Without warning he thrusted into the boy hard and fast, which caused the blonde to scream in pain.

"Ah, Izaya! S-stop!" Kida yelled feeling the same pain he experienced yesterday. He was raw and he knew he hadn't completely healed from the night before.

"Oh Kida-kun, I love it when you scream like that." Izaya grinned at the blonde as he leaned over and began biting down on the boys nipple.

"Ah!" Kida screamed throwing his head back in pain and he Izaya continued to tug at it. "I-Izaya, stop! Stop!" He couldn't take the pain on top of the way Izaya kept thrusting hard into him. Izaya pulled away from the blondes nipple when he looked down and saw blood.

"You bleed so easily, Masaomi." Izaya laughed licking his lips.

Kida couldn't respond all the pain he was experiencing was to much for his body to handle. He couldn't do anything, but hold on and wait for it to be over. All he could see was black. Nothing was more terrifying than being assaulted in the dark, he couldn't see what was going on, but he definitely felt it. He wanted nothing more than to punch the older man in the face, but he couldn't because he knew that if he did, the deal that they made would be off. Kida couldn't afford to lose anymore of his dignity.

"Ah!" Kida gasped as grabbed onto Izaya digging his nails into his skin.

"Of course as I predicted, you anticipate the pain more than anything else." Izaya said looking down at the boy watching as he continued to cry. "Don't be such a baby, Masaomi." He leaning down licking the blondes stomach making him shiver. "Have a little fun."

"T-this isn't fun!" Kida yelled holding on to Izaya tighter.

"Look Masaomi, you don't want anyone else to see those pictures of you looking like a dirty whore from last night, do you?" Izaya asked as he continued to slide his tongue up the boys chest.

"N-no!" The blonde shivered at Izaya's touch.

"Good. Not that we've cleared that up I need to explain my rules and terms if we're going to play this game." Izaya said thrusting into the boy faster.

"Hnng, ah!" Kida moaned as Izaya hit his pleasure point.

"Now that's what I like to hear." The red eyed man grinned grabbing the boys member and started stroking it.

"I-Izaya!" Kida panted feeling the pain disappear and his body shiver in pleasure. "Ah! That feels so good!" He cursed at himself for giving in, but he would say anything as long he wasn't in pain anymore.

"Are you ready to play by my rules, Kida-kun?" Izaya asked as he grinned down at the blonde. He kept his eyes locked on the boys face and as much as he wanted to see the pleasure in Kida's eyes, he wouldn't remove the scarf. It was good enough to hear the boy moan and watch him pant.

"Mm, y-yes!" Kida moaned rocking against Izaya. "I'm ready."

"Rule one, I'm allowed to fuck you however and whenever I please." Izaya smirked, this was his favorite rule. "You hear that, Masaomi?" He asked.

Kida moaned as held onto Izaya for support. "Y-yes. Mm, fuck me!" He moaned as Izaya continued hitting his pleasure spot.

"Oh, what a bad boy you are Kida-kun." Izaya said loving the response he was getting from the boy. "You don't have to worry about rule number one. I'm going to keep fucking you so hard that you won't ever want me to stop, Masaomi."

"D-don't stop!" Kida yelled feeling himself about to cum.

"I don't intend to." Izaya smirked devilishly as he watched the blonde cum.

"Mm, Izaya..." Kida breathed as he felt the older man release in him.

Izaya leaned down and kissed the blonde. "Are you still scared, Masaomi?"

"No." Kida replied kissing Izaya back. But, he was lying to the information broker. He never stopped being afraid of what was going on, he just covered up with his words and his moans. The entire time, he was fighting against himself. He refused to let himself continue to cry infront of Izaya, despite how much pain he was in. The blindness was the most difficult fear to deal with, he felt himself being consumed by it and at any moment he felt like he would suffocate. All he saw was black and the pleasure he felt didn't ease the pain. Kida had never been afraid of the dark and now he felt like a child and Izaya was the monster hiding in his closet and under his bed. The difference was that instead of just killing him, Izaya choose to play with him. Kida didn't think he would ever be able to recover from his fear of the dark. The darkness was all around him and that darkness was Izaya in every way shape and form. The yellow scarf was still tied around his head and he wanted to scream, but he wouldn't let Izaya know that he was still afraid. He had to stay strong.

"Good." Izaya smirked running his fingers over the blondes blindfold watching the blonde shake slightly. "Rule number two, you're not allowed to tell anyone about our game. This stays between us." He explained.

"I wasn't planning on it." Kida replied, he wanted nothing more then to hurry up and leave. He was in alot of pain and didn't know how much longer he could take the blindfold covering his eyes.

"Of course you weren't. You wouldn't want your friends Mikado and Anri finding out now, would you?" Izaya asked watching the boy tense up.

"No." Kida didn't want to think about what would happen if Mikado and Anri found out about what was going on. /What would they think of me? How would I ever be able to explain? I can't let them find out no matter what. If I have to lose everything, I at least want to be able to keep my best friends./ He let go of his grip on Izaya feeling disgusted with himself and let his arms fall to his sides.

"Rule number three, I don't like to share. Seeing how easily you submit worries me." Izaya admitted. "I don't want anyone else touching you, but me." He said grabbing onto Kida's wrist, squeezing it tightly.

"Ow! Let go!" Kida yelled trying to pull away, put Izaya grip was to strong.

"I know you're easy, Kida-kun. But, that's no excuse to go out and fuck everyone in Ikebukuro." Izaya said strictly. "Except me, of course." He grinned as he saw the irritation on the boys face.

"I'm not easy." Kida replied.

"You've proven otherwise." Izaya said leaning down and whispering in the blondes ear. "You're mine and mine alone, Kida-kun. Don't forget that." He said squeezing the boys wrist tighter.

"Ah, O-okay! I get it!" Kida yelled, his wrist still hadn't healed from the night before and the pressure was to much for his small wrist.

"Good boy." Izaya said letting go of Kida wrist. "Now, rule number four. I decide when this game ends and the only way to win is if you play by my rules." He said licking the boys ear lobe. "Do you understand?"

/I don't care what you're stupid rules are just take this blind fold off my eyes./ Kida said feeling himself begin to panic. He tried to supress his fear, but everytime he heard his voice it made him more frantic. He would open his eyes and he couldn't see anything and when he close his eyes, all he could see was black. /I can't take it./ He thought as he felt his eyes water, everything reminded him off last night and here he was in the same position again.

"What's wrong Kida-kun? Are my rules to much for you?" Izaya asked as he notcied the boy shaking slightly.

"No." Kida said shaking his head. /Shut up and take it off already!/ He felt himself becoming light headed as he found it hard to breathe.

"So, do you agree to play by my rules, Masaomi?" Izaya asked reaching behind Kida's head as he grabbed the scarf.

"Y-yes." Kida nodded slowly.

"Good!" Izaya grinned ripping the the scarf off the blondes eyes, he looked down into the boys eyes and saw that he was traumatized. The boy struggled to hold his tears back, but they kept rolling down his cheeks.

Kida blinked a few times and he was finally able to see Izaya sitting on the desk staring down at him, he looked around him and the bright sun that came in from Izaya's window was blinding. /I can see!/ Even though he was freed from the darkness he was still shaking, he immediately sat up and as he tried to get off the desk, but Izaya pulled him into his lap.

"Izaya, what are you doing?" Kida asked confused.

"I know you're terrified of the dark, Masaomi." Izaya said running his fingers through the boys hair.

"I'm not." Kida said leaning his head against Izaya's chest melting into his comforting touch.

"There's no point in fighting it, you should try embracing it Kida-kun." Izaya grinned feeling Kida's tears against his chest. "It's okay, Masaomi. If you would let it consume you, then you wouldn't have to fear it."

"I can't." Kida said holding onto Izaya.

"You can. You're only to afraid to give it a try." Izaya explained.

Kida closed his eyes letting himself rest against Izaya's chest. /Embrace the darkness? So, instead of fearing it I'm supposed to let it consume me? No.../ The blonde thought opening his eyes. Izaya meant something entirely different. He didn't want him to overcome his fear, but to embrace it because if he did, he would be embracing Izaya in turn. /Just like I am right now./ He thought as he opened his eyes and saw the he was still holding on to Izaya. /How could I let him pull me in so easily?/ He let go of the older man and pushed him away.

"I'm not going to embrace you, Izaya. So, you can forget it." Kida said pulling away from him.

"Aw, but Masaomi! We were embracing just now! Didn't it feel nice?" Izaya asked pulling the boy back toward him.

"No! Let go of me!" Kida trying to pull away from Izaya.

"Fine." Izaya grinned throwing the boy off his desk.

"Ah!" Kida yelled hitting the floor. /Bastard./

Izaya stepped over the blonde picking up his clothes and throwing them at him. "It's okay Masaomi, we can always cuddle another time."

"There's no way in hell I'm ever going to cuddle with you." Kida replied as he began putting his clothes back on as fast as he could.

"Now there's the Masaomi that I know." Izaya smirked as he finished getting dressed himself. "Too bad I prefer the one that screams in pleasure and submits to me in bed." He laughed walking over to his chair and sat on it.

"Shut up." Kida said picking up his school bag when he was dressed. "I'm leaving."

"That's fine. I'm expecting some clients any minute now, otherwise I would have made you stay for round two." Izaya grinned looking at the frustrated boy.

"Whatever." Kida said trying to stay as strong as possible as he began walking towards the door. Before he could open it, Izaya pinned him against the door.

"Izaya, what are you..." Kida began, but Izaya put his hand over his mouth.

"Remember the rules to our game, Masaomi. If you want to keep those pictures safe make sure you don't break any of them. I'll see you tomorrow~" Izaya said biting down on Kida's neck.

"Mmph!" Kida gasped, but it was muffled by Izaya's hand.

"Remember that you belong to me now." Izaya said letting go of the boy and opening the door, Kida was about to say something, but Izaya had already pushed him out and shut the door.

He sat on the floor dazed for a bit and stared at the wall. /What am I doing? I have to get out of here./ Standing up as fast as he could, he took off running down the hall passing Namie on his way out.

"What the hell is up with him?" Namie shrugged and walked into Izaya's office.

"Is scaring little boys your new hobby?" Namie asked Izaya as she placed the bags on kitchen counter.

"Not all boys just one in particular." Izaya said smirking as he played with the yellow scarf in his hands.

"You're a pervert." Namie said as she put this away.

"Ouch, that hurt Namie." Izaya pouted. "Besides I'm not a pervert, he practically begs me to fuck him." He laughed sniffing the scarf that smelled like Kida's hair.

"You're sick." Naime snorted.

Izaya simply smirked at the snide remark. He was to pre-occupied remembering the time he had just spent with Kida. It gave him pleasure knowing that he would be able to play with the boy for awhile, he wanted to watch him break. "Hm, I wonder what I should plan for Kida~kun and I tomorrow?" He smirked as an idea came to mind. "Oh yes, that will be perfect~"

Kida collapsed on his bed right when he got home and curled up underneath the sheets. There were so many things that he was feeling and none of them were positive, his whole life and had been flipped upside down ever since that night. No matter what he did, he couldn't escape from it. He wanted to run away and never come back, but he knew that he couldn't. He felt trapped and weak. There was no way of getting around Izaya now, he knew that the Information broker had him right where he wanted him. /I'm nothing but a toy to him. I'm just a sad joke./ He knew that the older man was laughing, enjoying every moment of his suffering. How could he allow himself to submit to Izaya so easily? Was he that vulnerable? Why was it that Izaya touch made him weak? It sent shivers down him back and it made him want to fall into his arms. Kida was disgusted with himself, he felt like nothing but a cheap whore and was all made to be used and abused. He wished there was a way out, but he knew that there was no escape. Unless he could find a way to get a hold of those pictures, but he was sure Izaya kept them safe.

He tried to get up, but he couldn't move. He was so sore and his body ached all over the place. The blonde used his phone as mirror and that the hickeys on his neck were more noticeable now and a lot darker, he didn't know how he would hide them. As much as he didn't want to, he could always wear a scarf, but he knew that he wouldn't. Not only was his body damaged, but he was emotionally damaged too. The emotional burden felt greater and Kida felt himself falling into a depression. As much as he wanted to stay strong for Mikado and Anri, he knew that it would be extremely difficult. How could sit there and smile and laugh with them about the small things, when he suffering so much on the inside. How can he be there for them, when he can't even save himself? He felt like a failure. He could have prevented all of this from happening, but he let it happen anyway. /What's wrong with me?/ He thought. /I feel so alone./ He flipped open his phone and started scrolling through his contact list.

Truth be told, Kida just wanted to be comforted. He wanted someone to hold him and tell him that everything was going to be okay; even if it wasn't. He wanted to tell someone about what he was going through and about what he was feeling, but he couldn't tell anyone. He was completely alone in this situation. There was no one to turn to for help, he could only hope that he will survive. The blonde stopped scrolling and he staring at Mikado's name of his screen. Mikado was the only person he had that he could trust. Even though he could never tell him about Izaya, just hearing the raven haired boys voice would be comfort enough for the blonde. He needed his best friend, but he was to afraid to reach out. The blonde felt like he didn't deserve anything from Mikado. Mikado was to good for him and someone like Kida didn't deserve sympathy from someone as good as Mikado. But, Kida was selfish and still yearned for the other boy. He knew that he should leave Mikado and Anri alone and let them live their lives without him. The thought of losing them was to much for him, he had already lost enough.

Kida took a deep breath and he dialed Mikado's number. His heart was beating fast as he listened to the line ring waiting for Mikado to answer. /Please answer./ The phone continued ringing and he felt his heart sinking as it continued to ring with no response.

Right when he was about to hang up, Mikado answered.

"Hello?" Mikado answered sleepily.

"Mikado! Hey it's Kida!" Kida replied excitedly. He felt his eyes water from happiness, just hearing his friends voice gave him peace of mind and comforted him.

"I know, it's so late. What are you doing up this late?" Mikado asked as he rubbed his eyes.

"Oh you know, just some homework. I procrastinated a little." Kida lied.

"You shouldn't do that anymore, Masaomi. You need to focus." Mikado replied shaking his head.

"I know, you're right. I guess I'm just lazy." Kida told him.

"Yea that's for sure." Mikado laughed.

"Hey, don't talk smack!" Kida grinned.

"You called yourself lazy first! I just agreed!" Mikado laughed.

"Whatever Smarty Pants, don't think you have bragging rights, because you scored the highest during the entrance exams." Kida told him.

"Well, I can at least rub it in your face." Mikado smiled.

"That's messed up, Mikado! I try my best. Well, you know...sometimes!" Kida laughed.

"Yeah at least you're passing." Mikado agreed.

"Hey Mikado, can I ask you something?" Kida asked. He wanted to bring it up sooner, he just didn't know how to go about it.

"Yeah, sure, what's up?" Mikado asked curious.

"Are you and Anri together?" Kida asked. He was afraid as to his friend might say, but after seeing them at lunch, he had to know.

"Well...sorta. I mean, kind of...but not really." Mikado tried explaining.

"What do you mean?" Kida asked.

"Well, when we to that party yesterday, Anri and I kinda talked about our feeling for each other. We both like each other, it's just we want to take things slow first and see if it works out, before we make any commitments. But, you know...I really do like her." Mikado explained blushing.

"Oh, I see." Kida smiled slightly. He was glad that Mikado and Anri finally got their feelings out in the air. At least, one good thing came out of the party.

"Yeah, but...Masaomi?" Mikado said.

"Yeah?" Kida replied wondering what the other boy would say.

"I don't want you to feel like I'm abandoning you." Mikado told him.

"Oh..." Kida whispered feeling a pang in his heart.

"Just because Anri and I are dating now, doesn't mean I've forgotten about you. I don't want things to change between us. I still want to be able to hang out and talk. I don't want you to feel alone." Mikado explained.

"Mikado, I don't know what to say." Kida said feeling his eyes water. At that moment he wanted to scream, he wanted to tell Mikado everything he was going through and how much he needed him. He wanted to tell Mikado that he meant so much to him and that he never wanted to lose him. He wanted to talk to Mikado about his feelings and have the boy give him some kind words and advice. He wanted to feel special and important. Like he actually mattered to someone.

"You don't have to say anything, I'm just worried about you, Kida. I want to be there for you." Mikado told him.

"Then be there for me. Don't ever leave me, Mikado." Kida said feeling tears fall down his cheeks. He needed his friend more than he would ever know.

"Are you okay, Masaomi?" Mikado asked worried.

"Yeah, I just don't want to lose you." Kida replied trying to keep himself from sobbing.

"You won't, I promise." Mikado smiled.

"Yeah, I know. You're stuck with me!" Kida laughed through his tears.

"Yea, you're stuck with me too!" Mikado replied.

"I'm glad! Mikado, I really am happy for you and Anri. All I ever wanted was for you to give it a shot. You two look great together." Kida admitted.

"Thanks Masaomi, it means a lot to me. If it wasn't for you, I don't think I would have worked up the courage to tell her." Mikado blushed.

"Well, I'm glad that I could help." Kida smiled.

"I want to help you too, Masaomi. I'm here if you ever need me." Mikado told him.

"Come over tomorrow morning before school, yea?" Kida asked desperate to see his friend. Mikado, didn't know how much he needed him.

"Yea, I can go! I'll get some coffee for us too on my way to your place." Mikado smiled.

"Thank you." Kida said smiling through his tears.

"Okay, we'll I'll see you tomorrow morning, Masaomi." Mikado replied.

"Okay, see you then. Good night." Kida said.

"Night!" Mikado said hanging up.

Kida flipped his phone shut and wiped his tears away. Mikado was coming over tomorrow and they would get to spend some time together. That's all that he wanted. He slowly got up from his bed and turned off the light in his room. He changed into his pajamas and crawled back into his bed, flipping his night light on. There was no way he was able to sleep in the dark anymore. The blonde sighed and turned over curling up into a ball. Talking to Mikado made him feel so much better and he was able to rest at ease.