September 2012
"I don't understand. You're just going to leave? What am I supposed to do? We're getting married. Does that mean nothing to you?' Rachel cries
"This wasn't how we would end up. We were supposed to leave, YOU were supposed to leave this stupid town and have a life. I never should have let you defer your acceptance. You are going. You are going to New York and maybe… maybe one day we can make this work, but until than I want you to go." Finn says, not looking at her.
"This isn't what I want. Does that not matter to you? Do my feelings matter to you at all?" Rachel sobs out with tears running down her face. He walks to her and cups her face.
"Of course they do! I am doing this for you. Your miserable here. You've wanted to get outta Lima since you could say Broadway. I want you to go. I want you to live your dream and one day we will make this work. We will. I love you, Rachel Berry and one day you will be Rachel Hudson. Right now is not that time. You need to go. Stop fighting this and go. Just stop. Nothing you say will change my mind. If you stay here you will hate yourself and maybe one day me too. I do not want that. I love you." Finn looks in her eyes and gives her a kiss.
"Now, let's finish this up. You're train leaves soon. I'm going to go make you some tea." Finn walks out of her bedroom.
Rachel doesn't know what to think. She knows that some of what Finn is true but she knows that no dream is worth accomplishing without him. How can he do this to her? Is she just supposed to wait for him? Leave the man she loves because of some stupid reason that he isn't good enough for her? Why isn't he coming too? Her thoughts are interrupted when Finn walks back into the room.
"Why can't you come with me? Why? Why are you just going to abandon me and what we have?" Rachel says with some anger.
"I can't hold you back any more than I already have. You are the brightest, inspirational, and the most beautiful woman I have ever met. I can't hold you back. I'm not good enough." Finn replied.
"You are good enough. You are perfect for me. You have so much spirit, courage, love, and you make me want more. Why isn't that enough? Why isn't what I have to say enough?" she said
"It just isn't. I'm not who need right now, Rach. I—can't go with you yet." Finn replied.
"Well then, get out." Rachel say with a fierce look in her eye.
"Wh-hat? Rach, I love you—", Finn started but was quickly interrupted.
"I'm not going to wait for you to see what I already do. I love you, more than anything in this world but I can't watch you tear yourself down. You want me to go? Fine I will. I don't need your help and I don't want it. As far as I am concerned this is over." Rachel is silently sobbing. "Just go."
Finn doesn't know what to say and slowly starts to walk away. He turns with one last look at the girl he loves, the woman he wanted, no wants to marry. She is looking at him too with tears running down her face. He gives her one last look and walks away.