Bad Dream

We were walking through the city. Someone had cut us off almost bumping into us. I started to yell at the person and she pulled me away.

"You shouldn't be mean to people Yu. People don't like that. You should be nicer to them" she was telling me. She is always saying things like that whenever I yell at someone or say something mean.

"But sometimes you have to be mean to people" I always point out. And I believe that. Sometimes people deserve to be yelled at. It's not my fault they are being stupid.

"Yu it's not funny. I'm serious. No one will want to talk to you if you are mean to them" She would try to explain. Then we both start laughing...

But then she started coughing horribly. We wheren't walking down the street anymore. We wereat our house. She went from beautiful pale to ill gray. She looked weak and vulnerable. I have to admit it scared me. Since my parents died she is the only one I had cared about. She's the only one I can laugh with. She's the only person who makes me happy. I don't think I could stand to lose her too.

My eyes flew open. I bolted up in a sitting position. I was breathing quickly. I'm in the Black Order. I didn't really leave but it felt like I had gone back before I was an exorcist. And there was no Misaki. I knew there wouldn't be when I woke up. I doubt I would ever see her outside of my dreams.

I knew Misaki before I became an exorcist. We were both kids then. Both of our parents had died so we started living together at my house. We were best friends. She was my only friend. I may have even liked her. She was special. I have never met someone like her. And now she is gone forever and I will never see her again.

Anyone I care about has to go so I have learned to stop caring about people. I can't stand to lose anyone else. After losing Misaki I made my heart cold. Then I had felt vulnerable but now I refuse to let that happen.

Her hair went a little past her shoulders and was blackwith a slight wavy like a calm sea at midnight. Her hair shinned in the light. Her eyes are blue, almost purple. Her eyes where always full of life no matter what had just happened. She was as pale as the snow with a light blush. Her smile could light up the darkest room.

She was always happy… except that last day I saw her. That's what my dream is always about. She had become sick. She was perfectly fine the day before. I never even got to see if she lived through it or not. And I wish I had been there for her while she was sick. It was the only time she really needed me. And I left her. I regret leaving and wish I could take it back.

I went to get help because she was so sick it was scary. When I got back with a doctor she was sitting at the table with people from the order. We both knew something was going on if they were there. I could tell they were from the Order from the crest on their coats. Since she was still there I guess I knew I was the one going.

Her face was a sickening shade of gray. Her eyes looked distant as if seeing something that no one else could. And for the first time since her parents had been murdered, she looked sad. The people came to take me to headquarters and make me an exorcist. I had never left her alone for so long. We went everywhere together.

We both knew I would have to go. I guess she looked so sad because she knew I couldn't stay if I wanted to. Or maybe she looked sad because she thought I wanted to. I never thought of that until now. I always asumed she understood. She's understands everything about me.

I didn't want to go at first but in the end I left. I wanted to take her with but they said I couldn't. Her face that day still haunts my dreams. I will never forget the sadness in her eyes. She was the world to me and they made me leave her. I didn't even come out of my room at the order for at least a week. I refused all the missions for a month maybe two.

I hear her laughing. I see her bright smile. But then everything changes. Her face turns that awful gray her eyes turn foggy and start to tear up. She just sites there staring as I walk away without her. We had promised after our parents died to always be together. I had broken that promise and I hate myself for it. I hate myself for causing her pain.

I hate to think she had died feeling betrayed. I hate the thought that she feels betrayed to this day. I'm not sure which is worse. I wonder if she still thinks about that day. I wonder if she

I slowly rolled out of bed, put on my coat, and went down to the Dinning Hall for breakfast. I can't stand to think about that day anymore but unfortunately I have nightmares of that day every night. Maybe if I'm lucky something will happen that will distract me. Lavi better not talk to me now or i will cut his head of with Mugan. I swear I will.

"Hey, Yu wait up" it was Lavi. He came running up to me.

"Don't call me by my first name" I said in a meaner way then usual.

"Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed" He asked. He was really pushing his luck.

"Shut up" I told him.

"Do you need a hug" he asked. I pulled out my sword.

"You even think about it and I will cut your head off before you can get near enough to touch me" I told him. He backed away. I continued walking and he didn't walk next to me.

Sorry this is a short chapter. Next one will be longer. Please review! Even if you don't have anything good to say I love to see what other's think! :)