DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN NARUTO. IF I DID, OH IF I DID, THE STUFF THAT WOULD HAPPEN (hehe), but someone else does, someone who i dont remember or kno how to spell their name, but i dont.
A/N#1: this is my first fanfic on ffnet, so no flames plz, i got enough when i posted it on affnet.
SO, I hope u in enjoy, I'm giving no spoilers as the synopsis gave most of it away.
Prologue
Cold. So very cold. For the longest time now I feel cold. I used to be warm; I used to have a burning flame that kept me going. Over time it got smaller, until, well, now. Why did he have to leave, he caused me to feel this cold.
When he left me, it seemed all my happiness went with him. I tried to get over it, but as much as it seemed I could, that i would, I was always brought back to thinking about him and how much he meant to me. He never saw that, after all the hints I gave him, never did it get through.
Maybe I was going at it the wrong way, maybe I didn't try hard enough. Maybe I even failed? I failed? NO, it wasn't me, it was all his fault. But still, he had other things to worry about.
I wish he would come back to me; I need the warmth, but he not going to. He long forgot about me the way I want him to remember me. I wish I could go back, go back to when I had a true chance, maybe I wouldn't be so cold if I did it right the first time.
BUT NO! The damn bastard left me...........he didn't give a damn about me. I gotta stop thinking about him; all I do is feel cold. But he is all I think about now, the "what if" and "could have been". I really wish he hadn't left me; I need him more than ever.
All my friends try to be there for me, but nothing seems to work. Even my shissou tries to be there for me, but nothing can lift me up. It saddens me more that he had and still has such an effect on me, that he brought me so much joy and that now, nothing. He was the only thing that kept me going.
But I have lost him forever it seems. I guess my way at getting through to him was too much, that I totally pushed him away from me. When he left to better himself, I though maybe when he came back I would have a new shot, but it seems he was further away than I thought.
I hate what his teacher put him through cause it only ruined my chances at happiness. Everything his teacher taught him pushed him away from me where all my chances would be hopeless. I guess I was never meant to be happy cause i just cant seem to be able to put my arms around it. I would love to be able to put my arms around him one last time, but I could never, would never.
I guess he's happier now, that I'm not there all the time bugging him and getting in his way. Now he can do what he feels, without the watchful eyes of others, and my eyes......
If he did come back to me, I would never let him go; I would make sure he would never leave. Not by force, but I'd show him what he truly meant to me. But I'm just going back into the "what if" category, which seems to never come true.
So I guess I did screw up after all. I guess I should take the blame; I can't get anymore depressed than I already am. I really thought he cared for me. I guess it was all just all lie. Cause here I am thinking about him, again.......and again........and again. No one can get me outta this rut but him, so I guess I'm doomed to die alone and unhappy. Isn't life great?!?!
The big question I have yet to answer myself is what do I do now? I have no where to go to, nothing to look forward on, I have no one to help guide me through the times I need more then just a friend. But when he left, he took all my hopes and dreams and everything. I hope he is happy with his decision of leaving me, seems I get some little bit of happiness from his.
So, now I guess I do nothing. Got nothing to do anyways, no missions, no girls-night-out, nothing. I really wish you would come back to me.
Naruto
A/N#2: so, comment if u have not read this story on AFF, and if u have, comment again cause i changed the wording a bit. Im leaving u guys with a little work to do. In ur review, if u do so, i want you readers to tell me what u thinks going on with the current situation between naruto and sakura and it has to be specific, no "naruto turned away sakura", no shit, everyone is thinging that, but come up with a senario (in 200words or less) about what happened. The winner will have his review posted with the next chap and will be the first on my awards/honor section on my profile. So good luck.
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