The words in bold is lines and dialogue from the show, the words in normal is all mine.
Episode 1
Rayna and Deacon talking on the bridge after her diva dip at rehearsal.
"Sometimes I wish I could just do everything all over again."
"What would you change?"
"Nothing. Everything."
"That makes two of us."
"I need a drink. You wanna walk me to Tootsies?"
"I can´t. I got a meeting."
"You ever miss the wild old days?"
"Sometimes. Except the headaches. I do not miss the headaches."
"You were the headache." They both laughed. "I don´t want to hold you back. I want you to be happy."
"Darling, you know good and well there´s only one thing that´s gonna make me happy. I lost that a long time ago.
They were both silent and looking out over the city.
"Do you ever think about what could have been? What our lives would look like if things went differently?"
Deacon turned and looked at Rayna. "I do. All the time, far more than is good for me."
"How do you imagine it?"
"I always thought we would get married and start a family together at some point when we were established. We would write music, play it and if we were blessed with children, we would take them with us on tours. Why do you ask?"
"I don´t know, it´s just this whole situation. I thought once you paid your dues, played the run-down bars, dives and shabby joints for less than pocket money the struggle was over. When you hit big you would have the fans, your place in the industry, get the radio time, have a foundation to stand on. Then we could ease down on the marketing, the interviews, the boring stuff. Just write music, record it and release albums and when announcing a tour the fans would be so excited about it that it would sell out every time. I diden´t think we would have to struggle again."
"It´s another time now Ray. The world is changing all around us."
"I know but I didn´t think the fans would be so fickle, once you got them that is. Or that I am being forced to tour with Juliette Barnes if I want to keep my house as my husband lost all our money in some very bad business deals."
The last part of that sentence was just a whisper since Rayna turned away from him. He barely heard her next words.
"I didn´t picture this. All I wanted was to be with you, make love and music together, create a family and fill our lives with music, laughter and joy.
Episode 2
The meeting between Rayna, Deacon, Bucky and Watty. Watty presented his idea of a smaller tour.
"I haven´t seen that kind of chemistry since you and Deacon in the beginning. So I´m thinking you should get back to what made you want to do this in the first place. You and Deacon should go out on the road together. Just the two of you."
"No Watty, that´s a crazy idea."
"Not really no." Bucky chipped in. "If you can´t afford a big tour and you are dead set against opening for Juliette Barnes."
"Yes, I am."
"Then this is a great solution. Instead of half-filled arenas, we book smaller venues. Now you have a sold-out tour that actually makes money."
"And you get to do something intimate, personal music you actually care about again. Remember those love songs you guys used to write?"
"That´s cos we were in love. That was a long time ago Watty. We would just go on stage and pour our hearts out to each other. I don´t think we could pull that off now. I can´t imagine what Deacon would think of the idea."
"Hey, you beat me." Deacon said as he approached the table.
"Speak of the devil."
"Sorry I´m late. Traffic. What did I miss?"
"Watty thinks we should go out on the road, just you and me and sing our old love songs. I said it was ridiculous."
"Why?"
"What do you mean why? Because we are not twenty anymore and not in love with each other." Rayna thought she saw something in his eyes, a gleam of hope. She turned her eyes away from him so he wouldn´t see that she had a hard time saying those words. She wasn´t fast enough, Deacon noticed something before she could avert her eyes, and thinking of what she whispered on the bridge the other day did give him some hope.
"I didn´t mean that, we don´t need to sing those songs, but I meant a smaller tour sounds good to me."
"You think that?"
"Yes I do."
"Could I talk to you privately for a moment Deacon?"
"Sure." They walked away from Bucky and Watty.
"Can we do this? We haven´t toured alone in fourteen years."
"What are you afraid of Ray? The only difference from now is there´s gonna be less people with us."
"Exactly what I mean. I´m married now and Teddy is running for mayor, I can´t have any rumours going on about us. And I don´t know how I will tell Teddy about this, he will have a fit, especially now when he has found a new love for politics I didn´t know he had. He still gets agitated and annoyed every time I go on tour with you."
Deacon thought to himself, that was interesting. Teddy was still bothered about them together, was he so insecure about Rayna´s feelings to himself. Did Teddy think Rayna still had feelings for him after thirteen years of marriage? Were they having problems in their marriage? This could be an interesting tour if Rayna decides to do it.
"Why would it be rumours? You did set up pretty clear boundaries when you hired me back and they have worked perfectly fine. Sure we haven´t shared one bus in years and I obviously will not share the master bedroom with you so I don´t see a problem why we couldn´t do this tour. You said you need the money."
"I do. I can´t give you an answer now. I will talk it over with Teddy, ok?"
"Fine with me."
...
Rayna and Deacon sitting in Deacon´s car after they sang No One Will Ever Love You at the Bluebird Cafe.
"I wish we hadn´t done that song. This is what I feared was going to happen if we did our old love songs. Old memories and feelings I fought so hard to suppress would come back."
"Now what are we gonna do?"
"I have no idea."
Rayna left the car without another word. Deacon remained where he was in his car even after he saw Rayna drove away. Doing that song had felt so good, so familiar. Sitting close to her, looking into her eyes while singing one of their oldest duets, he forgot the audience for a while. All he felt was the love, he never stopped loving her and tonight he could see the old Rayna, his Rayna. He saw a bit of love in Rayna´s eyes too. When they were done and the audience started to applaud he was brought abruptly back to reality and without thinking he took her hand and squeezed it. He felt the electricity between them from the light contact and how her hand trembled, she felt it too and she just confirmed it by what she said before she left.
Episode 3
Rayna sitting in her car thinking before she calls Deacon.
Can they really do this? Teddy was right when he said she should support him for once, his time in the limelight. He has supported her not without fuss, arguments and disgruntled of course but he did it anyway when he definitely didn´t like it one bit. Going out on this tour would leave Teddy taking care of the girls and do his campaign at the same time. It was probably for the best if she didn´t go. If one song made her feel what she felt yesterday she was afraid what could happen once they were on the road. Seeing Deacon every day, having him close every day, as there is not much space to hide on the bus is going to be dangerous. If she should be honest for a sec she is not sure she would stop Deacon if he would kiss her, probably the opposite, she would kiss him back. And if they started kissing it wouldn´t stop there and she would be cheating on Teddy. Her marriage would be the last thing on her mind and a cheating scandal is going to hurt everyone, her career and Teddy´s campaign and the girls too. No, she can´t put her family through that, better to not get tempted in the first place. She has to call Deacon and tell him she can´t do this tour. She and Teddy have to figure out another solution to their financial situation.
Episode 4
Rayna is sleeping in her bed and is dreaming that dream of her and Deacon in bed about to make love.
"Do you know how much I have missed this?"
"A lot?"
"Yeah. A lot."
"Hey. Hey. Hey. Rayna." Rayna opened her eyes and jolted up until she rested on her elbows. "Hey sleepyhead. You planning on getting up today?"
"Yeah."
"I will see you downstairs. Take your time."
"Thanks babe."
Rayna fell back into the pillows, her heart was beating so hard. Dear Lord, what a dream. It felt so real that she almost could feel his taste on her lips. Did she say his name, she hoped she hadn´t again. She did in the beginning of their marriage apparently, Teddy told her. It was both a relief and disappointment that it had only been a dream. Relief that Teddy didn´t caught them in bed together but so disappointed that it wasn´t real, it felt so real. She couldn´t lie to herself anymore, she still wants him. Now this dream really showed that it was a good decision to not go on tour. Her marriage would most likely be in jeopardy if she had gone out on tour with Deacon. As the can of worms is already open by having a sex dream about Deacon, she couldn´t resist to think what could have been. What would it be like to go on a tour twenty years later, in love with the same man and be free to show that love. Would they still hold up in the master bedroom, making love or just lay joyful in each others arms, never leave it more than necessary. She could imagine they would fall back to what they used to do when they were younger. How wonderful wouldn´t that be to lay in his arms and listen to his wonderful voice whispering sweet things or when he sings her to sleep. Living on love and music. She hadn´t dreamt about Deacon in a long time, ever since they did that song all sorts of feelings and memories has come up to the surface. Every day now it was something that reminded her about their time together. She really hoped she could hide it from Teddy to avoid unnecessary quarrel.
Episode 5
Rayna and Bucky sitting outside having lunch and talking.
"Well, you know there´s not a writer in town that doesn´t want to work with you. It´s just the good ones all, you know, have commitments."
"Maybe I should do it myself."
"Do what?"
"Write. You know, I gotta keep moving forward I feel like I´ve been stuck. Beholden to other people. Prove it to myself."
"Maybe you should."
"Since Deacon and I stopped writing together, I have to rely on other people and my own writing. All songs I have released since then is good and I stand by them but it has always felt something was missing, that little touch only Deacon can add. I haven´t written on my own for a long time now."
"Why don´t you ask Deacon then?"
"Last time we wrote were when Daphne was newborn and it was so awkward and so tensed between us, the time before that was the same so we stopped. I guess both of us were thinking how it usually are when we write and we can´t do that anymore. You know how we usually ended our writing sessions."
"I do know, I would say it didn´t stop with only writing. You guys couldn´t hardly keep your hands off each other any time, any place."
"We were in love, that is what love is suppose to be."
"Yes it is."
"And now when I cancelled the tour and after the big outburst at the country club which lead me to fire him, I don´t think he will talk to me, not to mention help me. No, I have to do this by myself."
"You are an amazing songwriter too Ray, you can do it."
"Let´s hope so."