A/N: Hello everyone! This is my first fan fiction, but please don't hold back. I want to know how to improve my writing, so flames are welcome!

This is just a short songfic using the song Bruised by Jack's Mannequin on Edwards possible feelings after he left Bella.

Thanks for reading!

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight/New Moon or Bruised by Jack's Mannequin.

I can't believe what I have done to her. I love her and still I lie to her. She must hate me for all the things I have just said to her.

I've got my things, I'm good to go
You met me at the terminal
Just one more plane ride and it's done

I lied to her, I wish I could tell her that. The look on her face broke my dead, un-beating heart. I truly am the monster that she is always telling me I am not.

We stood like statues at the gate
Vacation's come and gone too late
There's so much sun where I'm from
I had to give it away, had to give you away

I will miss her so much. All the time we spent together…it truly was perfect.

And we spent four days on an
Island at your family's old hotel
Sometimes perfection can be
It can be perfect hell, perfect...

The image of her beautiful face contorted into sadness and bewilderment will forever haunt me. I did not want her to feel so much pain.

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised

I want so badly to go back and beg her forgiveness, but I can't. If I do that she will just be in more danger. I love her too much to endanger her life like that.

And don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised

I have to keep strong. I can't return. I promised her that I would never bother her again, but it just gets harder and harder as time passes.

And hours pass, and hours pass, yeah, yeah...

Yeah, yeah, she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this

My dead heart is throbbing with the pain I feel for leaving her. I miss her so much. I feel like I am in physical pain because I miss her so much.

Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised

I can't give in. I promised I would never go back…

And don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised, bruised, bruised

I miss her too much. I never should have done this. I'm sorry Bella…