Disclaimer: I do not own any characters in "Inuyasha" or any of the songs
I'm going to put in this fic so don't sue me!
A/N: ok this is my 1st fic like this so it might not be that good. Its all from Kikyo's POV. When I type ***blahblahblah*** its the song. I've found lot's of great songs perfect for Kikyo but it doesn't fit what happens in this chap so I made this song myself. I know it sucks but wateva! There's not really a pairing but this fic's bout Kikyo. R&R! Now on with the fic! ^_^
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Chapter 1: "Once Again"
***you went away and so did I never thinking we'd meet again we both somehow came back and regained all our pain***
That day, that god awful day. I was awoken from my peace. I was peaceful and without any troubles. Sure, I was in hell, but I had no worries, no thoughts, I was.nothing. I didn't mind, I was finally happy and free of all the pain I felt when I was alive. Being dead, I had no emotions; I couldn't feel the emptiness in my heart and soul because I was without you.
My heart and soul rose and I was implanted in a body of me made of earth and bones. When I awoke from my 50 years of slumber, I was furious. But then, I saw you and for a fraction of a second, my heart jumped with joy just before my hatred for you and your betrayal came to my memory.
***I was lost and thought you were too but didn't bother to speak to you***
I realized I was somehow.on earth again. I had my soul, my heart, and my pain back. But I was not alive. I asked myself How? Why? I lifted my clay hands up to feel my clay face. How cold and utterly disgusting it felt, but I did not care. I immediately focused my deep brown eyes to you. Oh how I still hated you. How I wished you were dead. And yet, somewhere in my heart, I wanted to be with you more than ever. But I could not let my weaknesses show. That would be my downfall.
***awoken from my peaceful dreams I did not know it wasn't all it seems***
I lunged at you knowing I could kill you with my bare hands. But u dodged and for some reason, I did not try again. I just let it be. Kaede rushed to me in sheer joy and surprise while you just.stood there.
That night, I lay on a branch of the Goshinboku and thought to myself. No one asked how or why or even bothered to talk to me except my dear sister. I thought you would at least ask for the jewel and I would tell you I don't have it anymore. I thought maybe you didn't care about it anymore. More importantly, how are you still here? Did I not pin you to the sacred tree 50 years ago? All these thoughts in my head drifted me into a light slumber.
***though I am full of hate and pain I fell in love with you once again***
The next morning, all my questions from the other night was answered.
I woke from the sounds of laughter and cheers. I stood on the highest branch of the Goshinboku to see what all the commotion was about. The sounds came from the direction of the well. I saw a few joyous people and a girl in odd looking clothes and a bag climb out of the well. I quickly jumped from the tree to another tree closer to the well so I could get closer look. I did not see the girl's face but I saw you. You ran to her and embraced her in your arms. She cuddled in your warm chest and smiled happily.
***you broke my heart and betrayed my trust for her and your demonic lust***
I gasped in shock and.pain? Pain from what? Did I care she was with you? Did I still have feelings for you after all that you have done? Do I---
My train of thoughts were broken when I saw what was in the bag she carried over her shoulders. They were shards. Shards of the Shikon No Tama.
Now I understood. She freed you from the Goshinboku. You did not ask me about the jewel because you knew I didn't have it and that she did. And you did not care for me because you were with.her.
***why do I still care for your heart if you are with her and we are apart***
Who was this girl? This girl who has everything I had and more. She had you. Who was this god-dammed girl who replaced me? WHO?!? She turned around and I saw her face. At that very moment, I froze.
***though I am full of hate and pain I fell in love with you once again***
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A/N: hmm.that came out better than I thought! Review plz! This fic has no Kikyo or kagome bashing so plz keep reading. THANX!
A/N: ok this is my 1st fic like this so it might not be that good. Its all from Kikyo's POV. When I type ***blahblahblah*** its the song. I've found lot's of great songs perfect for Kikyo but it doesn't fit what happens in this chap so I made this song myself. I know it sucks but wateva! There's not really a pairing but this fic's bout Kikyo. R&R! Now on with the fic! ^_^
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Chapter 1: "Once Again"
***you went away and so did I never thinking we'd meet again we both somehow came back and regained all our pain***
That day, that god awful day. I was awoken from my peace. I was peaceful and without any troubles. Sure, I was in hell, but I had no worries, no thoughts, I was.nothing. I didn't mind, I was finally happy and free of all the pain I felt when I was alive. Being dead, I had no emotions; I couldn't feel the emptiness in my heart and soul because I was without you.
My heart and soul rose and I was implanted in a body of me made of earth and bones. When I awoke from my 50 years of slumber, I was furious. But then, I saw you and for a fraction of a second, my heart jumped with joy just before my hatred for you and your betrayal came to my memory.
***I was lost and thought you were too but didn't bother to speak to you***
I realized I was somehow.on earth again. I had my soul, my heart, and my pain back. But I was not alive. I asked myself How? Why? I lifted my clay hands up to feel my clay face. How cold and utterly disgusting it felt, but I did not care. I immediately focused my deep brown eyes to you. Oh how I still hated you. How I wished you were dead. And yet, somewhere in my heart, I wanted to be with you more than ever. But I could not let my weaknesses show. That would be my downfall.
***awoken from my peaceful dreams I did not know it wasn't all it seems***
I lunged at you knowing I could kill you with my bare hands. But u dodged and for some reason, I did not try again. I just let it be. Kaede rushed to me in sheer joy and surprise while you just.stood there.
That night, I lay on a branch of the Goshinboku and thought to myself. No one asked how or why or even bothered to talk to me except my dear sister. I thought you would at least ask for the jewel and I would tell you I don't have it anymore. I thought maybe you didn't care about it anymore. More importantly, how are you still here? Did I not pin you to the sacred tree 50 years ago? All these thoughts in my head drifted me into a light slumber.
***though I am full of hate and pain I fell in love with you once again***
The next morning, all my questions from the other night was answered.
I woke from the sounds of laughter and cheers. I stood on the highest branch of the Goshinboku to see what all the commotion was about. The sounds came from the direction of the well. I saw a few joyous people and a girl in odd looking clothes and a bag climb out of the well. I quickly jumped from the tree to another tree closer to the well so I could get closer look. I did not see the girl's face but I saw you. You ran to her and embraced her in your arms. She cuddled in your warm chest and smiled happily.
***you broke my heart and betrayed my trust for her and your demonic lust***
I gasped in shock and.pain? Pain from what? Did I care she was with you? Did I still have feelings for you after all that you have done? Do I---
My train of thoughts were broken when I saw what was in the bag she carried over her shoulders. They were shards. Shards of the Shikon No Tama.
Now I understood. She freed you from the Goshinboku. You did not ask me about the jewel because you knew I didn't have it and that she did. And you did not care for me because you were with.her.
***why do I still care for your heart if you are with her and we are apart***
Who was this girl? This girl who has everything I had and more. She had you. Who was this god-dammed girl who replaced me? WHO?!? She turned around and I saw her face. At that very moment, I froze.
***though I am full of hate and pain I fell in love with you once again***
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A/N: hmm.that came out better than I thought! Review plz! This fic has no Kikyo or kagome bashing so plz keep reading. THANX!