A/N - Hey you guys! Well, this is in Speid's POV. It's kind of taking a look inside his mind..it takes place a few years after Tommy left Jude to go to Montana. The things in italics are the lyrics to the song "Don't close your eyes" by Whitley Keith. And the other is in his mind..he's not saying any of this outloud.
Disclaimer - I do not own Instant star or the song.
I know you loved him.. a long time ago..
I sit here with you in my arms, who would've known that things would turn out this way? I never in my wildest dreams thought I would end up with the prettiest girl I've ever laid eyes on. He blew his chance when he gave you up. He gave up everything when he gave you up.
Even now in my arms you still want him I know..
Yet, I know if you could have it your way you'd be with him. I'm not stupid, and I'm not blind. You love him..there's no doubt about it. Just give me a chance..give us a chance.
But darling this time let your memories die
When you hold me tonight.. don't close your eyes
If only you would get him out of your mind. I don't understand it anyway, he never did anything but hurt you and treat you like crap. How can you love the fool? He never told you he loved you. He was scared of it. I love you..and I'll say it a million times to make you understand. I love you and I'm not running.
Don't close your eyes let it be me
Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy
Yes, I know what you're thinking. I know you want him. I know you picture him. Just remember..I'm not going anywhere.
Darling just once let yesterday go
You'll find more love than you've ever known
If only you'd trust in me. I just don't know what to do anymore. What should I say? Would it mean anything to you anyway? If I kiss you will you even feel it? When you look at me do you really see me? You see him..don't you?
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight
And don't close your eyes..
I love you..
Maybe I've been a fool holding on all this time
Lying here in your arms knowing he's in your mind
I may not be as intellegent. I may not be as experienced, and hell I may not be as good looking, but do you think you could look at me long enough to see inside me? To look beyond my faults and my flaws. I know you are perfect and you deserve the world, If only I could buy you happiness..maybe if I get him..bring him back..is that what you want?
But I keep hoping someday that you'll see the light
Let it be tonight, don't close your eyes
I'd never leave you, don't you understand that? I'm here for as long as you want me to be..do you want me to be?
Don't close your eyes let it be me
Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy
Darling just once let yesterday go
You'll find more love than you've ever known
Quincy took the one thing in life that I need- Your heart. He took the only thing I've ever wanted besides my music..who am I fooling? You are my music. He doesn't deserve you. I don't deserve you. No one deserves you.
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight
And don't close your eyes
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight..
Jude, don't do it..please girl..don't. I need you..please..
And don't close your eyes..
And I watch your eyes close slowly. Your drifting to think about him again. It's hopeless..You'll never love me..
A/N - So what did ya think? I don't think it's one of my better ones..but I love the song and I was playing around with it yesterday..and well..this is what came of it. Please review?