The world has turned so many shades of gray
There's no hue of golden in the white light of today
I can't see the colors, the green trees, and yellow light
All that I can see, is black, and silver, grey and white
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And there you are
You're standing right beside me
You are standing by my side
There's no color in your eyes
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No matter how hard you try, there is no way that you can see
You cannot see, can't understand how much that scares me
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I'm watching you
As you're looking right at me
And of all the things I see
I can't tear my mind away
From your empty eyes
As you're standing by my side
I see nothing in your eyes
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All I see is a caricature of who you used to be
All that I can see, is that you're going to die before me
All that I can see, is the grayscale hospital room
An infectious feeling, of emptiness and gloom
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There you are
You're standing right beside me
You're standing by my side
And there is nothing in your eyes
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No matter what you do, there is no what you can know
Simply cannot understand how much I miss your lively glow
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I'm watching you
And you try to look away
But then your eyes catch sight of grey
You finally see
That blankness agitating me
But you still don't know
That you have lost your lively glow
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And there are words on that paper, black and white
So unchanged and unaffected, without dappled golden light
And the bright and blank fluorescents are just washing me away
Into that hospital room, that's so monotonous and gray
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There you are
You're standing right beside me
You're standing by my side
And there is nothing in your eyes
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And that caricature, that is all I see of you
The number on this paper makes it seem so true
One hundred and seventy three
Never meant so much to me
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Before today
It didn't mean aids
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I am watching you,
And you turn away
For a moment I'm relieved
From your eyes, so empty and grey
But still I can tell
That your lively aura's gone
It's turned a dark and dappled grey
I haven't seen it in so long
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But I know I must remember you as you are today
Because at least right now, you aren't yet wasting away
You may be here with me in this hospital room
But you aren't on your deathbed, wilting in the gray and gloom
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I am watching you
And if I look close
There's a spark in your eyes
Not quite sorrow, not morose
I am watching you
And I can still see life
It's just blurred and buried
Under layers of strife
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But I'm dreading the day, when that spark cannot be found
That day when your livelihood and courage has drowned
I'm dreading the day that I will have to watch you die
That day when the spark of life will leave your eyes
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I can see past that caricature of you
But someday I know, that won't be true
When you're a stereotype, waiting for your death
When I hold you in my arms as you take your last breath
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I'm watching you
And I hold this picture in my mind
So that when you are wasting away
I'll remember you as you are today
I'm watching you
And I see that spark in your eye
And I'm dreading so much
The day that I will see it die
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So many months later
I'm standing by your side
I'm holding you close and
I'm looking in your eyes
And it's such a surprise
That there's still life in your eyes
And maybe it's not color
But it's life that never dies
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I'm watching you
And your eyes are dappled gray
And there beautiful and alive
Like they weren't yesterday
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And then, just moments later when the steady blip has slowed
I'm remembering the times, when you still glowed
And I'm staring down, into your eyes
And I choke out a sob, when I see the spark has died
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I'm watching you
As you're eyes point right at me
And of all the things I see
I can't tear my mind away
From your empty eyes
As you're laying by my side
I see nothing in your eyes
-
All I see is a caricature of who you used to be
All that I can see, is that you've died before me
All that I can see, is the grayscale hospital room
An infectious feeling, of emptiness and gloom
-
The world has turned so many shades of gray
There's no hue of golden in the white light of today
I can't see the colors, the green trees, and yellow light
All that I can see, is black, and silver, grey and white
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