Loss of the SeaQuest
Computers were his life. They were everything he needed and since he mostly forgot his own basic needs like food or sleep while being around them, the sentence rang doubly true.
But most importantly they were simple. All that was needed around them was logic. Lots of ones and zeros and yes, even if there happened to be a bug somewhere or a virus if it was supposed to be a little more challenging, he could always fix the problem. There might come the day when even he ´d bite too big a piece of to chew, they say never say never after all, but that day wasn´t today or any day of this week if he could help it.
Being on SeaQuest he had felt like a little boy on Christmas morning unpacking and discovering all his new and shiny toys to play and fiddle with figuring out how they worked. To break them down into their single components and to put them back together again without leaving any trace and without anyone the wiser to what he´d done in the first place.
So yeah, computers and their programs were simple. He got them. People were the ones he had his troubles with. They were a lot of things; some his friends, some acquaintances, some just strangers and some, though not many, to be avoided. And one special person in particular, the closest he had ever gotten to the empty word Family. But one thing all these people, the boat´s crew, were not was simple or logical or easily fixed. Unlike with a computer you couldn´t just break a person apart and then put them back together as if nothing had happened.
Looking at his crewmates his- dare he think it, probably, kind of,maybe, bite my tongue off before admitting it- family, watching his first real home explode in a giant gysire of water, metal and memories, he knew that no matter what, something had just been broken inside them and that no matter how you turned and colored it, they weren´t computers.
Though they might be put back together it wouldn´t be seemlessly fixable. A scar of the loss would remain, as a reminder of what they had once shared. And lost.