A/N : This takes place after eclipse but in this story Bella has not yet said yes to Edward when he asks her to marry him. This is my first fan fiction. Please ignore the minor mistakes but let me know if there are any major ones. LEMONS IN THE NEXT CHAPTER!
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Disclaimer : I do not own twilight, I'm just borrowing the characters. But I do own this story.
I was in the place of the most beautiful dreams of dreams, the place I wanted to be the most. It actually had nothing to do with the place but had everything to do with the person I was with.
With my head on his left shoulder, his left arm wrapped around me and his right hand stroking my hair and the left side of my face, his marble but always-gentle thumb feeling my left cheekbone, I wondered if life could get any better.
I must have done something unimaginably good to deserve this level of fortune.
I let out a soft, pleasant sigh as I smiled into his shoulder. He pulled up my chin with his stroking hand to take a better look at my face. I couldn't stop myself from drifting deep into my land of pleasure and happiness as his marvelous, deep golden eyes scorched into mine. I could look deep into his soul through his eyes and so could he. I could feel my cheeks burning and I wondered what shade of red my cheeks would be and blushed a deeper shade of red.
The wind from the passenger's seat blew my hair in every direction possible, making the moment more movie-like. But no wind could ever make me look as breathtaking, as beautiful, as perfect, as the Greek god sitting next to me, with his hand wrapped around me.
Edward was every ounce as beautiful as any one could ever dream to be. His tousled bronze hair danced with the wind and I was paralyzed, all I could do was admire his perfection.
Why did he have to look so perfect when I couldn't?
With his gentle fingers he smoothed out the frown lines on my forehead. "What are you thinking?" He asked, slightly worried.
"No, it's nothing." I hated the difference between us. He was so good looking and mysterious and perfect and I looked so pale next to him. It was like comparing a royal red rose to an average looking wild flower.
"I'm not buying it." He said, a bit annoyed, as he always was when I didn't tell him what I was actually thinking.
"I was just comparing myself with you. You're so beautiful, so perfect. I'm always going to look pale next to you." I said, giving up.
He look at me with his liquid golden eyes which were like a waterfall of the best quality of silk available on Earth, flowing with the utmost grace that could put the most graceful dancer to shame. "You're the most beautiful person I know, Bella. If only there was someway to show you how others view you. You turns so many heads when you walk past them but of course, you're oblivious to that. The fact that I can hear their thoughts regarding you makes me feel even more annoyed. I don't want to share you, Bella. Not even in their thoughts."
I sighed.
"You don't believe me, do you? " He said, shaking his head in disbelief.
"How can I, Edward? I mean, yeah sure, the guys in this town do pay me a lot more attention than the ones in Phoenix, but I'm really not as special as you describe me to be. I'm just a normal teen - " I laughed once, without humor. " - Which is, of course, if you ignore all my near-death experiences and the bad luck that I'm bound to put up with. I still can't see why you feel this unexplainable pull towards me. There's nothing about me that could hold you."
He looked at me, his eyes understanding and full of disbelief at the same time, I again, seemed to drown deeper and deeper into the depth of his honey eyes.
"Your hold is permanent and unbreakable, never doubt that, Bella. If you look at it in this context then I'm not good enough for you. I'm a monster, Bella. I've killed people. Yes, I've killed just the bad, shallow - I'm not sure you could even call them humans. But you still love me, you've accepted me the way I am. Accepted me with every single bad quality of mine, without asking me to change. I can't tell you how extremely lucky I feel to have you by my side, in my arms. And - " He broke off and I heard a low growl rumbling in his chest.
I looked around us to see what possibly could trigger such a response from him but I couldn't find anything. I lifted my face to see him giving the cab driver a murderous glare. That's when I realized that the cab driver had turned the rear view mirror in such a way that he was able to take occasional peeks at me while driving. He was obviously unaware of Edward's anger since he couldn't see him through the rear view mirror as it was focused on me.
I lifted my hand and slowly caressed his face. "Shh, Edward. Shh, calm down." He relaxed a little under the touch of my hand but the angry look didn't leave his face or eyes.
The car came to a stop, I looked out of the window to see other cars coming to a halt as the traffic light went red. Edward let go of me and was pinching the bridge of his nose. I caught his wrist and kissed the back of his hand, then turned his hand over and kissed his palm, I looked at him with love-filled eyes, trying to convey the message that I wanted to.
I'm yours Edward, only yours. You don't have to stress over what others think about me .None of it really matters. We're never going to see the cab driver again. Don't let such people bother you. I love you and I can't even bear to see a tad bit of stress or unhappiness of your face.
I knew just the distraction to free him from his momentary suffer. His impeccable face was inches away from mine, his flawless lips silently calling out to me. I gently pulled his perfect face to me, I brushed my lips to his with a slight smile and his lips parted slightly and his delicious, cool breath washed over my face, making my lips tremble. My breathing became unsteady, my mind was all dizzy and I couldn't make myself concentrate on anything other than him. I forgot we were in the back seat of a cab, forgot that the driver was still watching me in the rear view mirror, forgot that we were in a traffic jam and the cars lined near our cab could easily see us. Edward was mine and I was his. I let out a soft sigh and he finally, with the most gentle pressure touched his lips to mine. The moment our lips met, something happened, electricity passed though our bodies, making me shiver, not because of his cold touch but because of what he could do to me. I lost control of my body, aware only of our lips embracing each other. I took his upper lip between my lips, gauging in every second of this moment. He did the same with my lower lip. My hands greedily traced his perfectly angled jaw line and moved on to the back of his neck and slightly pushed his face towards me to make the kiss more intimate. His hands cupped my face and he traced every feature of my face with his long fingers, he pushed my hair out of my face and his hands slowly trailed down the side of my neck and he let his hand rest there, never breaking the kiss. I could feel the cab moving forward and the cold wind hitting us.
My left hand slipped down his neck, down his marvelous chest, when he caught my hand. He chuckled softly against my lips and pulled away a little to look at my face. He kissed my hand and put it back on his chest holding it right above his still heart. His expression turned into a beautiful smile that made my heart skip a beat. His honey eyes looked at me like I was the most beautiful person he had ever laid his eyes on.
"If this heart of mine could beat, Bella, I swear this whole town would able to hear what you do to me."
I looked at him lovingly and he sighed and wrapped his arms around me, hugging me to his stone chest. He kissed my forehead and I closed my eyes and thought of where we were going and what we were about to do.
Carlisle and Esme had convinced Charlie to let me go on a vacation with the Cullens. I didn't think Charlie would allow but then again, it was Esme and Carlisle who talked to him so he had to say yes. He had high regards for them and since my holidays had started and Charlie had to be at his station the whole day and I would be left at home all by myself, he allowed.
Our flight had landed about an hour ago and we were heading towards the main city, it was night now and our next flight was at 1 in the afternoon tomorrow so we were going to check into a hotel, spend the night there and leave for the airport tomorrow.
We were going to Denali to meet the Cullen's cousins and spend some time with them.
The rest of the Cullen family had already left for Denali and had probably reached too. I had my part time job so I had to finish working the whole month and Edward, obviously wanted to stay back with me.
This would be the first time I would meet the Denali coven. I heard a lot about them and I was looking forward to meeting them but I was never really good with socializing. It wasn't a fear of strangers but just the uncomfortable feeling I got when I met strangers or people who I didn't know well. It would be worse this time because I was finally going to meet Tanya, the girl who had, or even has a crush on Edward.
Rosalie had told me a little about them and about how Tanya was nearly desperate to be Edward's mate.
Would she be mad at me because Edward chose me and not her? Would she behave badly? Would she try to steal Edward? Or think bad things about me that Edward would be able to hear in her thoughts? It would be really embarrassing if she did and Edward had to hear. He would not even tell me the truth to spare my feelings. Would Edward change his mind after seeing Tanya and me together, because Tanya is a vampire and she's probably, no, I know that she's very beautiful. How could I ever compete with that kind of beauty?
Edward said that he loves me, shows me that he loves me, every single second of the day. He can't live without me and I have seen it with my own eyes but the insecurity still lingers.
I didn't tell Edward anything about it because the thought is embarrassing and Edward would tell me that I'm exaggerating it and that there is no reason for me to feel jealous or insecure, which would probably make me feel worse.
He does deserve better than me but we are made for each other. And when I become a vampire I'll be beautiful too. Then I'll feel a lot less of these feelings, for which I'll have to wait since I still didn't say yes to Edward and according to our deal, he'll change me only after I marry him. I want to but I'm not ready for marriage yet. I know I hurt him a lot when he asks me and I say no, again and again but I just need some time.
"We're here", said Edward, pulling me out of my thoughts. He removed his arm from around me and kissed my forehead before getting out of the car and opening the door for me. I got out and saw that we were in the front drive way of a very beautiful hotel.
A bellboy dressed in a dull but dark shade of purple, pushed the luggage cart towards us and after talking to Edward started loading our luggage on the cart.
Edward paid the cab driver and we went to our room after Edward finished the procedure of checking in. I wasn't surprised to see the extravagant room, it was expected from a 5 star hotel chosen by Edward.
Okay, so room was a wrong word, a flat would be more appropriate. We entered a large living room, with a sofa set in the middle of the room, light in shade, that complimented the walls and the lighting of the place. There was a huge TV on the opposite wall of the sofa, with two beautiful vases on each side, which held freesia and lilacs which were still attached to their stems to give them height. The room was filled with it's soft, lingering fragrance. On the wall on the right, was a glass door, paneled with wood, which opened to a balcony. The heavy ivory colored curtains, with a golden string that tied it in place, added to the beauty of the scene.
I walked in and noticed that there were two bedroom on the left side of the living room, one near the main door, and the other on the other end of the wall.
Our luggage was kept in the middle of the living room, near the sofa. The beauty of the place struck me, it was the classic Cullen-style house, though no one else could even dare to compare with the beauty of the houses that Esme designs.
"This place is beautiful, Edward." I said, finally putting my thoughts in words.
"It's nothing." Edward said, unimpressed. "But I'm glad that you like it"
I had a feeling he wanted to say more. I turned to him and he had a smirk on his face. I looked at him with narrowed eyes, and his smirk grew, his eyes were glinting with a hint of mischief.
"But" He continued, "if you marry me, I can take you to places far, far more beautiful than this. Also Esme could design a very beautiful house, that you are most likely to love, where we can live as a married couple." I went up to him and wrapped my hands around his waist, he did they same.
"That is a very tempting offer but we're not having this argument again. I told you my reasons and I don't want to spoil my mood. I really want to spend some alone time with you. How many times do we actually get to be alone? Like, actually alone? No Charlie sleeping downstairs, no vampires with super natural hearing abilities who can hear everything we say from a mile away?"
"Well, we can put it off for later, but we will talk" He brushed my hair from my face, and looked me in the eye. He, very slowly brought his face to mine, his fragrant, cool breath made my knees go weak. He then touched his lips to mine, he pulled me closer to his chest, running his hands up and down my back, slightly pulling my shirt up and down with his hands. He moved his lips from my lips to my cheeks, planting a kiss there before moving to my jaw line, very gently nibbling on it, he then moved my hair from my left shoulder and placed it on my right and traced his tongue to the soft spot under my ears to feel my throbbing pulse. I felt him smile as he always did when he knew he was the reason why my body reacted in such a way. His lips lingered there for some time then slowly, went down to my throat, to my collarbone, as his icy tongue dipped into the hollow of my neck. His hand slowly went under my shirt. He rubbed his hand up and down the small of my back and I moaned out in pleasure. I kissed his neck greedily, while my hands were roaming around his hair, neck, his shoulder blades, trying to take in and remember as much of him as possible before he pulled away. The pulling away part was inevitable and I knew it was not long before he did so. I brought my hands to the front of his neck, slowly moving under his collar of his shirt, and pulled him to me with my left hand that was clenching his shirt. I could feel the bulge in his pants, rubbing against my stomach and I rubbed against it. I could feel myself getting wet, and Edward could probably smell my arousal just as well as I could feel him against me. Edward groaned and kissed my lips, sucking in each corner of each lip before pulling away.
My breathing turned to pants as he slowly pulled away. His eyes were filled with lust. He always stopped when he wanted to go for it the most. He unclenched my hand from his shirt and took a step back. I couldn't hide my pain to watch him move away from me, to give me so much pleasure and then just move away, leaving me there, emotionally vulnerable and physically embarrassed. I was tired of him feeling scared, tired of him pulling away. I didn't just want him, I needed him, needed him with every cell of my body.
He saw the pain on my face, and immediately cupped my face in his hands. He brought his face down to my level and his eyes were now burning, telling me to understand, showing me that he is right now, burning with the same intensity as I am.
He leaned in closer and looked at me sternly but at the same time, with a lot of love and passion.
"Bella, do you have any idea how hard it is for me to pull away knowing that this is what you want the most? Knowing that I could take you right now, at this very moment and you won't do anything but comply. Knowing that your body aches for me as much as mine aches for you? Knowing that you're ready to break all the boundaries of humanity and give yourself to me, a vampire, without a single complain coming out of these delectable lips of yours?
"You have to understand what you do to me, Bella. You have to understand and stop underestimating the power you have on me." I nodded and my eyes immediately shifted to his aroused member. He gave out a soft chuckle and nodded.
"Yes, that's what I was talking about. Is this proof enough, my little bewitching, Bella?"
"Y-Yes" I said, I still couldn't get my eyes off him but I forced myself to look at his face, which, like always, time and again showed me what the real definition of beauty is.
I had spent so much time with him, we were together day and night but I still couldn't get enough of his face, couldn't seem to register his perfect features in my memory, the Edward in my imagination could never gave justice to the Edward holding my face securely in his hands.
We were both still breathing heavily, when Edward kissed my nose, then my forehead, then both my cheeks and placed his head on my throbbing heart. He never got tired of listening to my heart beat, especially when my heart was beating this rapidly because of him. He stayed like that till our breathing and my heart beat went back to nearly normal.
"I'm going to go order food for you and I have a few formalities to take care of. Why don't you go have your human minute till I return? I'll be back before you even get a chance to miss me."
Just like that, he gave me a small peck on my lips, picked up the luggage and kept it in the bedroom in vampire speed, just before leaving he turned at the door step to look at me and then he was gone. The door had an automatic lock so it got locked the moment Edward closed the door.
I knew he could just call the reception from here and order food but he needed some time to calm himself down and so I didn't object or say anything.
I went to the bedroom and saw a huge white bed at the center of the room, the cushions and bed cover were made of a white silk-like material, with a beautiful pattern embroidered on it. A small, but beautiful chandelier gave light to the room, along with a dozen other wall lighting. To the left of the bed was a huge wardrobe, brown in color. The wall in front of the bed had a full length mirror with drawers on each side, which was, again, brown.
To the left of the mirror, the wall opened to a bathroom, the door was slightly off white.
I decided to have a bath and refresh myself. To let the warm water take away all my hurt, insecurity and negativity and in return give me peace and relaxation.
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