Ohayou, minna!! i wrote another xXoneshotXx, just now. (and it's about 1 am)
so, if i have any spelling mistakes, please forgive me, or/and tell me, because i'm veerrrryyy tired at the moment!!
pls enjoy...
One day, for sure
My own world, completely covered,
covered with one thing,
darkness.
Nothing is here,
just me, left alone,
alone in my own silent world.
A world where no one could ever go,
so, I'll be alone,
forever.
That's my fate,
to be left out,
for the sake of others happiness.
I'm in pain,
but no one knows,
no one would help.
They won't do anything.
Because it's me.
It's just me, who is in this darkness.
Alone.
Along with this silence,
this unbearable silence.
I want to escape,
who would not?
But I can't, for the sake of the others,
for those people who call me a murderer.
I have to stand this pain,
so the others would be happy.
It's not that I envy them,
but, I'd like to be one of those people,
not to worry about anything else but myself.
Not to see the pain of the people around me.
I want to be selfish,
just once in my life.
If this was possible,
I know what I would do.
I would make her my girlfriend,
not thinking about the consequents,
not knowing she would be hurt if I do so.
But that's impossible.
I can't have her,
even if I wish from the bottom of my heart.
She doesn't deserve me,
I only cause her troubles.
She would be hurt,
because of me.
I won't let that happen.
Never.
So I decided to watch from far,
hoping she would find happiness.
I have to stay away,
leaving her to him,
protecting her from far.
She never noticed.
Maybe it's better that way.
I have to let her go,
even if it hurts.
That's how life is.
Unfair.
It's hard to see her
in the arms of this guy.
Knowing he doesn't love her.
He just wants a toy he can play with.
I would burn him to death,
if I could.
Maybe, I can,
But I won't do it.
I won't throw away someone's life.
Even if I despise him.
Because life has to be protected.
Everyone's.
But especially the life of her.
The only light in my darkness,
shining like the sun.
I'll do whatever it takes,
to keep her happy,
to protect her beautiful smile.
Because I love her.
The only one
who ever cared a bit,
just a little bit,
about the murderer who was always alone.
Alone in his own world,
imprisoned in the darkness around him.
Never able to escape
Staying there,
chained,
for those who despise him.
"Natsume!"
The fire caster looked up, seeing a brunette girl running towards him with her usual bright smile.
"What?" he asked, putting his pencil into his pocket.
"What were you writing?" she asked, trying to get hold of the piece of paper in his hands. "Can I read it?"
"No" was his simple answer. He would never let anyone read it.
She pouted cutely, but this time, it didn't affect him. The fire caster looked at the paper in front of him. It started to burn right after he let if fall on the ground.
Mikan stared at him.
"Why did you burn it?" she asked confused.
"Because I didn't write it for someone to read." He looked away. 'Sometimes, you feel better after you wrote down your feelings. One day, I'll find a way out of the darkness. When this day comes, I'll tell you. So just wait for me, polka.' His thoughts went unconsciously back to that day, when his lips had touched her's. He smiled a bit as he recalled the feeling of those warm soft lips.
'One day, I'll confess'.
He silently watched her skipping away until her figure disappeared.
'For sure.'
sooo, finished this one. Hope you liked it
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