SVX: Hi everyone this songfic is to "Mary Pretends" by Fuel (the greatest band ever). I kind of tweaked the song to fit with Gundam Wing. It's about Duo and his inner psyche. So enjoy!!! Hurry up MAX!!!!
MAX: (snorts and wakes up) Sorry! (Presses PLAY button on projector)
Duo Pretends
A songfic to Fuel's "Mary Pretends"
Duo Pretends he's so insane, so insane, so insane
Duo pretends he's so insane, so insane, so insane
Pain and suffering that's what I am. A plague that roams the Earth killing everything it touches. It was funny how a young catholic boy became a mass murdering shit. I never thought I would kill for fun. That's right I said fun I enjoy what I do. I get a rush as I hear the screaming men and women I kill. So what, I'm a sick fuck and I know it. I knew what I would be doing when I signed up. I knew I would be killing…and I looked forward to it.
He just sits back and laughs at the pain
At the pain, at the pain
I remember this one particular soldier. He was my age young and thought to be invincible by himself. He happened to see me on a mission…too bad for him. He was so afraid, I could see it in his eyes. He was such a pathetic soldier. Do you know he actually begged for his life? It made me sick, he got down on his knees as I pointed the barrel at his head. 'Please don't kill me, I have a family, a girlfriend, I want to live, and…' blah, blah, blah, blah it made me wanna puke. I remembered his face as he realized he was about to die. I would give anything to see that face again, the rush it gave me. I began to crave for it like it was a drug.
Duo pretends he's so insane, so insane, so insane
Falling down of his mind
The only time it actually hurt to kill was on my last mission. I knew my victim, he wasn't just a nameless soldier, he was a friend. He got in the way dammit; I had no other choice. Funny I always thought boys didn't cry, then why am I crying now. Because it hurts more than anything. Is this what it feels like for the families of those I've killed. Does it feel this empty for them? Why did he have to get in the way?
Gives him everything he's wanted from the world
Close his eyes, drift inside, so alive
Heero you dumb shit, was she worth dying for. Your precious dove of peace, huh was she? Was she worth making me kill you. Well you died in vain, after I shot you she fell as well. They were orders Heero; you of all people should have respected them. I wish you never died but what the Fuck were you thinking. Sometimes I wish it would just go away, the pain, the addiction to killing. Did it take your murder to make me realize I was sick?
He wants to know what it feels like
He wants to know what it feels like to fly
I never that a body could be do heavy around a soul, mine wants to be freed from this sick prison I call myself. Heh, I guess the God of Death finally found something he couldn't kill. Pain, I can't kill that, instead of killing it, I give it life. Pain to the families of those I've killed. Pain to you and Relena. Pain to myself, and soon pain to my friends.
He wants to know what it feels like to die
Is this how you felt. Did you contemplate your life and actions as I have? Shit how long does it take to bleed to death? I thought cutting my wrists would be the best way. God I feel lightheaded and cold, it's so cold. Heero is this what you felt, or did you feel warm in God's grasp. I don't it's cold from the icy grips of death, I don't get God's attention. I'm sorry Heero for your death. I wrote a letter to the others telling them why. I didn't want Quatre to blame himself. Heh, ow it hurts to laugh now, maybe if I just close my eyes. I feel so free and weightless. Goodbye cruel existence I'll miss the rush.
Goodbye
SVX: I know it was really angsty but this song just fit. If you want I will write a prequel and sequel to this fic. Just tell me if I should or not!!! R&R!!!!