What Happened to Forever ?
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All characters belong to Cassandra Clare i only own the story line
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Chapter 1 - I don't know what happened!
Looking back I still don't understand what i did wrong for him to leave, was it the way i looked ? the things i said ? or even the way i acted around him, of course i was jealous of every single girl and even some guys that would talk to him he was perfect, god-like even and i didn't believe that i deserved him i was honestly waiting to just wake up and it all the be a dream and i would have to go back to my boring old life where no one looked at me with a sexual preference never mind wanting to take me on a date.
I'm Clary well Clarissa Fray but the names so outdated and long no wonder no one really cared well expect Sebastian. I'm short and chubby and my fiery red hair looks like some one has rubbed a balloon all over my head from when i wake up till i go to bed its untameable but its a curse my good old mother gave me. I don't have the effort in the mornings to put layers upon layers of make-up on my face so i don't and you can guess how i look because of it. Yeah you guessed it ... a mess i look like a child. I would never think of myself as popular in the high school i was the art nerd that always had my head stuck in a book or was away in my own world drawing but if i'm quite honest i much rather enjoyed that then having to talk to the people at that school they were all not my type of person and definitely way out of my league so my dating history was clear and there was definitely no one i had my eye on.
That was until Sebastian came along we had a whirlwind romance, we met in summer break i was in the park drawing the landscape and the atmosphere with the children playing in the park and their parents chatting away but they some how always had at least one eye on their child never letting them out of their sight. I was able to captured the couples relaxing in the sun and how comfortable and easy they where with each other and obviously the guys playing football with there shirts off. That's when i met him just i was finishing my drawing i was hit by a ball i furiously thought someone was purposely trying to ruin my art i was about to shout when i looked up his deep chocolate brown eyes caught me off guard i just stared at him lost for words ''I'm so sorry i hope i didn't ruin your drawing' he glanced at my work as i had just dropped it on the floor when i was hit ' Wow that amazing! its Clary right? your in my English?' He knew my name MY name this isn't happening of course hes in my English i stare at the back of his head every bloody day! realizing i hadn't said anything for quite a while i just mumbled a ''yeah that's me'' and looked a way my cheeks blushing bright red.
That was the first time i had ever spoken to Sebastian and everything went a lightening speed from then on we spent the rest of the day together at the park getting to know each other our likes and dislikes our favorite things and i was so amazed by him by is mysterious eyes and the way they captured me speechless as soon as i looked in them. From then we talked a lot over different social networking sites and texted a lot, he eventually took me on a date and i was not going to turn a date down with him in a thousand years so we went for dinner. It was lovely and an amazing first date and he was a gentlemen insisted he paid for dinner, drove me home and walked me to my door only to give me a gently kiss on the cheek. I didn't not sleep a wink that night replaying everything that happened and what was said through my mind and a constant huge grin on my face!
We dated for what seemed like forever we talked about everything and anything I became so comfortable around him so happy i didn't know any different, my whole life changed i made friends and was out of my house a lot more. Sebastian helped me try new things and i loved them all we planned a future together where we would life how we want to get married and have kids even the type of dog we would have and i loved every little plan every suggestion he made i was 100% sure this was how my life was going to work out how i was going to grow old and die with the boy i love and i was excited for it all to start. I was in love with Sebastian Verlac and honestly i still am.
He left me on November 20th of course he didn't give me all the answers i wanted just that i wasn't enough, that we were never going to spend forever together he used me for sex and left but i was of course a challenge because i didn't 'give it up' quickly. I felt to dirty when he said that i gave him everything i trusted him to have sex with him for the first time and that was all he wanted. Everything hes ever said to me has been a lie and i couldn't i still cant believe i trusted and believed him.
I have nothing left now 6 months later, no boyfriends, no friends at all i'm back to my boring old life reading and sleeping to escape my own life and worst of all I myself have fallen apart ! Its like Sebastian Verlac was the main structure to myself and now hes gone my life has crumbled and i don't know what to do with myself with my life with anything i'm numb and but the worst thing it I honestly don't know what happened!
Thank you for reading this first chapter i will hopefully upload a new chapter very soon, I hope you enjoyed it don't forget to follow and even favorite this story to see what happens. Any suggestions would be hugely appreciated
Thank you xx
P.S. Jace will come into this story very soon don't worry :)