Don't Stay
Author's note: Well, I had to do something with all the creative energy and since I couldn't write on my LOTR-fic, I decided to write this. It's been in my head for some time now, but I never really wrote it down. I think that the bitterness and rage in Linkin Park's lyrics describe quite well how some of the characters can feel and think in the different situations from the books.
Disclaimer: Blah, blah, blah - not mine, you get my point.
Padfoot thinks about Wormtail after his breakout from Azkaban in POA
[lyrics]
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
*~*~*~*~*
[Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe]
I can't believe I let you fool me like this
[Sometimes I need you to stay away from me]
Then, as if your betrayal wasn't big enough, you took me away from what was my responsibility
[Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know]
I should've known it was you
[Somehow I need you to go]
And now that I need you again, will you betray me once more?
~*~
[Don't stay]
Just give me the chance and I'll have my revenge
[forget our memories, forget our possibilities]
Don't expect me to show you mercy
[what you were changing me into]
They think I killed you
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
Nothing can take it back
[forget our memories, forget our possibilities]
He was you idol
[take all your faithlessness with you]
Some day, I'll ask you what you asked me
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
How could you?
~*~
[Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well]
It was my idea
[Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself]
Was it my fault as well?
[Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know]
Was it my betrayal?
[Somehow I need to be alone]
No time to think or you'll slip from my grip again
~*~
[Don't stay]
I'll show you how it feels
[forget our memories forget our possibilities]
Things can never be the same
[what you were changing me into]
He'll think I'm a murderer
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
I won't hide anymore
[forget our memories forget our possibilities]
You are where I should be
[take all your faithlessness with you]
Forgiveness was never an option
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
Give me my life back
~*~
[I don't need you anymore]
I'll kill you and we'll be even
[I don't want to be ignored]
You'll see what I have seen
[I don't need one more day of you wasting me away]
Suffer as I have suffered
~*~
[Don't stay]
I'm closer than you think
[forget our memories, forget our possibilities]
I'm not alone anymore
[what you were changing me into]
He will know the truth now
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
He will see your true form
[forget our memories, forget our possibilities]
Twelve years of self-accusation
[take all your faithlessness with you]
Self-hatred
[just give me myself back and]
Self-pity
[Don't stay]
I saved it all for you
Author's note: Well, I had to do something with all the creative energy and since I couldn't write on my LOTR-fic, I decided to write this. It's been in my head for some time now, but I never really wrote it down. I think that the bitterness and rage in Linkin Park's lyrics describe quite well how some of the characters can feel and think in the different situations from the books.
Disclaimer: Blah, blah, blah - not mine, you get my point.
Padfoot thinks about Wormtail after his breakout from Azkaban in POA
[lyrics]
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
*~*~*~*~*
[Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe]
I can't believe I let you fool me like this
[Sometimes I need you to stay away from me]
Then, as if your betrayal wasn't big enough, you took me away from what was my responsibility
[Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know]
I should've known it was you
[Somehow I need you to go]
And now that I need you again, will you betray me once more?
~*~
[Don't stay]
Just give me the chance and I'll have my revenge
[forget our memories, forget our possibilities]
Don't expect me to show you mercy
[what you were changing me into]
They think I killed you
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
Nothing can take it back
[forget our memories, forget our possibilities]
He was you idol
[take all your faithlessness with you]
Some day, I'll ask you what you asked me
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
How could you?
~*~
[Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well]
It was my idea
[Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself]
Was it my fault as well?
[Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know]
Was it my betrayal?
[Somehow I need to be alone]
No time to think or you'll slip from my grip again
~*~
[Don't stay]
I'll show you how it feels
[forget our memories forget our possibilities]
Things can never be the same
[what you were changing me into]
He'll think I'm a murderer
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
I won't hide anymore
[forget our memories forget our possibilities]
You are where I should be
[take all your faithlessness with you]
Forgiveness was never an option
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
Give me my life back
~*~
[I don't need you anymore]
I'll kill you and we'll be even
[I don't want to be ignored]
You'll see what I have seen
[I don't need one more day of you wasting me away]
Suffer as I have suffered
~*~
[Don't stay]
I'm closer than you think
[forget our memories, forget our possibilities]
I'm not alone anymore
[what you were changing me into]
He will know the truth now
[just give me myself back and don't stay]
He will see your true form
[forget our memories, forget our possibilities]
Twelve years of self-accusation
[take all your faithlessness with you]
Self-hatred
[just give me myself back and]
Self-pity
[Don't stay]
I saved it all for you
