The first time I met HIM something deep within me snapped. As if everything around me changed and it made me realized about certain things. Alone.
That is how I feel. Everything around me feels fake, ordinary...Don't get me wrong, I love my wife, I love her with the depth and breathe of my soul. But after each time I spent with her, I still feel empty. I keep looking for that moment that something in me will come alive. And that moment arrived when I met HIM.
Suddenly, everything opened right before my eyes. I'm seeing the world in a brand new light. HIS light. SHUICHI.
I don't know what kind of power he has over me. Everything changes when we're together. A whole new world opens up. But the difference is, it's just us, HIM and me, WE. Everything stops, even time stops. Everything changed. I changed. In this world, I'm just Yuki. HIS Yuki. Ayaka belonged in a different life, different time...different Yuki.
The minute HE touches me, the minute HE calls my name..."Yuki san.." I'm HIS. I melt. I turn into silly putty that HE molds and shapes into the person HE wants. Every time we make love, I cry. With so much joy, so much happiness. This is it. This what I want. This is what completes me.
Ayaka forgive me. But the minute HIS hand touches me, that name, that woman is forgotten. All there is, is SHUICHI.
With HIM I don't feel alone. I am complete. I don't know how to change things. But every time I stepped out of my house, I'm a whole different person. I'm Yuki in another time, another place. In this time, in this place I belong solely to SHUICHI. To SHUICHI. How I wish I never met HIM. I wish I'm still the same, I wish I could be what I used to be.
-Owari