Rejected
Hey, I'm Brooke Davis and this is my life.
I was on Facebook one day because I was bored. I decided to check Lucas' profile. Lucas is a guy that I have a crush on. He's in my English class. I thought he was cute and had a good personality. I thought that maybe he could be the one for me.
So I searched for him on Facebook and I added him. I started making small talk with him online. I was a little uncertain about his age so I asked him. His response was kind of sarcastic or maybe that was just my perspective. He said that he was a freshman and that he did not get left back nor did he skip any classes, and that I should figure it out.
I thought that maybe I should forget my crush on him because of his attitude. But because I was so bored, I decided to check his page and that's when I saw this dreadful little conversation between he and his friend Skills about "she" who was obviously me.
I found it very embarrassing and humiliating since I knew that I would be seeing him in class. In their conversation, Skills was asking about me. He asked Lucas if I was his related to him and said that "she," meaning me, seemed interested in him. Lucas' response was that he was NOT interested in me and that maybe I was just interested in him.
Ha! Not any more loser!
I find it very insulting when I am rejected by guys. It is so uncool. I start wondering why. What is wrong with me? I know that I have a pretty face but my body is not exactly wonderful. I have a flat butt and little boobs, and that is probably unattractive to most guys. I am also underweight but not because I diet or am anorexic or anything like that. It's just because I have a really fast metabolism and I don't get hungry often. I want to gain weight. I want to look and feel sexy.
This isn't my first time being rejected. A few years ago I was rejected by a jerk name Chris Keller. He and I were friends. Well, more like friends with benefits. The only reason we were friends was because we had crushes on each other. But then he got bored with me. He was interested in plenty of other girls and I guess I was hurt.
But what hurt the most was being rejected. When he actually said to me, "Move on!" That was totally embarrassing. Well I did move on. But what I miss most was his touch. Not that he was any good or anything. It's just that that I had the thought that there was someone I could depend on for the touch.
A few months later, I heard that he liked my sister Peyton. I was like, "OMG!!". I was with a complete jerk and I didn't know that. I was so angry at myself for not seeing that before. Being rejected for my sis. Ouch. I have to say that was embarrassing beyond words. But then again Peyton is very attractive. She has the body and she is pretty. I think a guy should love me for me and not who he wants me to be.