Lyrics from Shinedown's Sound of madness,

Chapter 1 of Never Stopped.

They never changed, the dreams, they never changed. They were always the same, every night. For six years they were always the same.

Always Bella. Sometimes she'd be in a white dress putting a ring on my left hand, Sometimes she'd be pregnant with our child, and sometimes it would just be her smiling at me, but they were always about her.

Then I'd wake up alone. Every single time.

She chose him. There was no disputing that fact. She chose to follow him, and here I sit six years later still reliving the nightmare everyday.

"I'm sorry Jake, But I have to go with him…"

I tried to move on. I've been with my share of girls, I've partied with the boys, but no amount of girls or alcohol could cover up the fact that I was still broken beyond repair. I couldn't get her out of my head or my heart no matter how hard I tired.

The only thing that numbed the pain and cleared my head at all was working on cars, the second love of my life…Cars. I'd turn on the radio and start working on whatever cars we had lined up that day and lose myself in the music and the cars. It was the only time I didn't think of her.

I created the sound of madness

Wrote the book on pain

Somehow I'm still here too explain

That the darkest hour never comes in the night

You can sleep with a gun, but when you gonna wake up and fight, for yourself?

I love getting lost in a good rock song while working on a car, it was the only time I didn't dwell on the depressing things… that was until someone interrupted that…

"Hey Jake, you in here bro?" It was Quil. It was always Quil. Noone else had the balls to bother me when I was working.

"Yeah Quil, what's up?" No use in being rude, it wasn't his fault I was pissy all the time.

"Well your dad called, said he needs you to come by tonight around 6, he's having company over and needs help with dinner." he said.

"Company? Like who? And since when does the old man need my help?" There was something weird about him needing my help, I mean granted he was in a wheel chair thanks too some dumbass drunk driver but the old man did pretty well on his own.

"I don't know dude why don't you call him and ask him im not a mind reader" was Quil's response to everything. So with a nod of my head, I put down rag I was wiping my hands with and walked over to the phone, dialed my dads number and waited for him to answer.

"Hello.."

"Hey dad, why on earth do you need me there tonight whos coming over?" I asked.

"Charlie.." was all he said… Seriously why the fuck did he need me for Charlie.

"Just Charlie, if its just Charlie then why do you need my.." He cut me off before I could finish my sentence

"No son, not just Charlie.." It was the way he said it. The tone in his voice that told me what was really going on.

"She's back…" I gasped. My voice broke. It fuckin broke, I sounded like a teenager…I was 22 years old not 16...

"Err, well what I mean to say is, Charlie called me and said Bella was back and that she wants to explain everything..Something about it wasn't her choice to leave and oh I don't Jacob she wants to see us, you…"

Did he really think that I would be okay with seeing her again after 6 years…6 fucking years of her being gone, not a word, a letter, nothing to let any of us know is she was even alive.

Shit.

"Dad I don't know, I don't think I should come tonight, nothing she can say will change the fact that she left and… and…" I didn't know what else to say, I was on the verge of seriously punching something.

I was mixed between being seriously pissed off, and ready to cry at the same time. I didn't know what to do.

"Tell ya what son, I'll call Charlie, and tell him that you'll be here but if it becomes too much for you to handle you can leave and I wont ask questions…sound good to you?" He asked.

I might as well atleast hear her out…I don't see why she deserved me even gracing her with my presence but I didn't want to dissapoint my dad, he didn't raise me to be an asshole.

"Yeah dad, sure… Ill be there by 5:30" I told him.

"Ok, thank you son" And with that he hung up.

Something in the back of my mind was nagging at me that this wouldn't be as bad as I thought but I couldn't help the way I was feeling.

A/N

Hey sorry this chapters so short, This is my first fanfic and i got a lot of ideas for this story i just gotta get them written down..lol..So yeah bear with me and ill have longer chapters soon.

Like i said im new, So some feed back would be nice so click the review button for me...Pleaseeeee :D

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