A short one-shot, themed on Hidan's thoughts after his "death." Commonly done, but I couldn't resist! Maybe some KakuHida if you use a magnifying glass. Maybe.
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto. (Unfortunately, or Hidan and Kakuzu would still be up and running! And in a relationship...)
One with the story~
~o.O.o~
I always thought I was invincible. I believed that I could never be beaten. But this little..brat, comes into the picture.
And now I'm in a fucking hell hole.
When he pulled the string, the explosion....it was so fucking painful. Physically, I enjoy pain, only the pain he inflicted wasn't only on my body. He shattered my mind. The more days I spend in here, the worse it gets.
I'm sure talking to myself isn't normal, and I'm becoming more delusional by the minute. Always, when I close my eyes, all I see is my fall, or apparitions of what I think is there, but really isn't.
Or Kakuzu's death.
The worst part of it- He blames it on me. I let him down, I let him die. He shows up regularly, berating me for it. And I think of how his lifeless body slumped to the ground, the only highlight of my life was snuffed out.
You'd think the way I acted towards him that I hated him, but that was only in the beginning. He grows on you after a while. Our relationship was strictly platonic, you might even be able to call us "friends".
When I told him my wish, my only wish, was to die. He questioned me on it. I told him I had no reason to live. Later on, I found that he was my reason to live. And when he died, it was all gone. There are those times when you look at someone you think you hate, but you don't. And you want them to die, except when they do, you remember all the good things about them. And it just makes it even worse. To know that you spent you time being rude to them, and never tried.
Like the time Kakuzu took off his mask and smiled at me. Smiled. Or all of those times he advised me to be careful, when he knew I couldn't die. Our incessant bickering that helped me keep my sanity in the dreary days we were still part of the Akatsuki.
And I realized that whenever I told him that I didn't need him, or that he was a useless, money-grabbing prick, that I had made a mistake. He was much more than that...and that for all those years, I was wrong.
Yeah, angsty, I know. (Or I tried to make it angsty!) I always thought that behind the curtain, Kakuzu and Hidan are somewhat friends. Or maybe have a love-hate relationship. Even better xD! Why yes, I AM an avid fangirl of that pairing. Please review! They're always encouraging.