Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto. Kishi-sama does.
Author's Note: My second Sai x Sakura fic. Please read and review! Arigatou!
Sakura's POV
As I stared at him, he reminded me of Sasuke-kun… Yeah…Sasuke-kun… His voice, his looks …the way his eyes stare… and somehow… his attitude… So much like Sasuke-kun… He's so like him… yet he's different…
I don't know why but Sai's words somehow always sent chill down into my spine, always made the tips of my hair stand up…he always made me shiver…one thing I only felt whenever I'm with my dear Sasuke-kun… Ah…maybe it's just because they look so much alike…
I remembered the first time I met Sai; he had called me, "an ugly-butt girl". Does that enough to make me angry? NO… I don't care what kind of names he called me, I can handle that all… Just like those insults I received from other people… (A/N: I'm talking about other fans who always bash Sakura) But what I can't tolerate is him insulting my beloved Sasuke… I just can't accept all those things he said… I can't…
That's too much for me… I felt fury towards him…And I punched him so hard that I thought he would fight back… Yet he didn't. He didn't make any move against me… He just showed that stupid smile of him…
As I stared at him, I suddenly realized…that I really don't loathe him… I hated myself…so much…
I punched him because he insulted Sasuke-kun? No… It's far more than that… I hit him because… I can't accept that what he was saying were all… TRUE…
And unexpectedly, I felt guilty…that despite the fact that Sasuke-kun hurt me… I can't hate him… Despite of what he did to me, to Naruto… I'm still loyal to him… That in spite of Sasuke-kun not caring if Shikamaru, Neji, Chouji, Naruto and Kiba end up dead because of him… I still don't care…
All of a sudden, I wondered if that is really what people called love…if that is really what people called friendship…if that is really what people called loyalty…
MAYBE…
Demo…
I'm not sure…
And really, I don't want to hurt other people… I really don't want to be selfish… But this feeling…
I felt droplets starting to well from my eyes… This feeling…is hurting me… yet… I don't want to let go of it… Maybe that was what Naruto-kun also felt…
"What?" I heard someone said... It's Sai. I didn't notice I was looking so hard at him.
I smiled at him… This time…real…
"Another fake smile, huh?" he asked, his black eyes crinkled into smile… One thing Sasuke-kun didn't do often…
I smiled much sweetly…that I felt small droplets escaped from my green eyes…
"No…"
'But I'll still wait for you…I don't want to let go…not yet…I can still handle the pain…Not yet… Sasuke-kun…'
Author's Note: Another one shot… I know it's not that good… I'm having so many problems as of now… I can't concentrate… (Sigh) please R&R…