Dear Sean

*I do not own Degrassi or the characters, even though I dearly wish I did*

Waking up that morning, I never would've imagined what would happen. How could I, with being so caught up in my own, new life. Yet somehow, I smile because I know I made the right decision in the end. It all started a year and a half after I married Spinner. I know his real name is Gavin, but I'll always know him as the name he was given and called throughout school. Anyway, a year and a half….

The sun infiltrated through the window, the perfect start to a beautiful morning. My phone started playing my favorite song, Steal Your Heart by Agustana. It was Snake, "Hey Mr. Principle, haven't heard from you in a while!" my voice was bright and you could tell I was in a good mood. "Yeah I know, but it's because I was putting together a surprise for you." a surprise, I thought, oh brother. "Snake, you really didn't have to do anything for me! You know how I absolutely hate surprises!" I wasn't angry, it just bothered me a little when he did stuff like that, if anything, I should be doing it for him. "Yeah, but this is a little something for everyone. I sent it through the mail. It should be coming today if my amazing mailing calculations are right." Snake sounded so happy. "Alright, alright. I'll check to see if it's here in a bit. I'll let you go Mr. Mailman, you probably have a lot of letters to deliver anyway!" I said, smiling as I spoke. It always did me some good to talk to Snake.

"Ok bye Em. Hope to see you soon."

"You too!"

After I hung up, I decided it was time for some cleaning. Spinner wasn't exactly the best housekeeper, so about twice a week I had to play the role as maid and clean the entire apartment. Of course, I was still going to University, but I didn't focus all of my time on it. Spinner quite his job at The Dot when we got married. We moved not too far away from Degrassi, but it was far enough. At that moment, he was at a job interview with Jay Hogart, he was going to try to be an engineer. Life with Spinner was… unexpected. We got married so fast that we didn't really know what we were getting into. But on the other hand, life was good. Spinner was fun and spontaneous, sure, he could get annoying at times, but he always made up for it. Spinner was also really caring, romance was a good skill for him.

After finishing up the bathroom, which was spotless now, I lost track of time. I ran to the store to get groceries, had a lunch date with Liberty, and also had a phone call with Manny. When I got home, I didn't know what to do with myself. Remembering my surprise, I headed out the door to get my mail. The phone rang once again, it was Spinner.

"Hey Spin." I said casually, the sound of his name came naturally now.

"Ah, my babe. I just called to tell you that I have great news!" He was clearly excited.

"What is it?" I was practically jumping at the thought of him getting the job with Jay.

"I got a job offer."

"Yes! Baby I knew you'd get it! I guess it helps having friends in high places like Jay." I was so glad that my husband finally found a career, and one I approved of at that.

"Yeah well, it wasn't exactly that job. It was offered by a friend in even higher places. As you know, Jimmy is an aspiring hip hop artists since he can't exactly play basketball anymore. Well, his manager has this opening, and he wants to train me. Like an internship for an agent! I could become and agent Emma, and agent!" I didn't know what to think.

"Um, you're not serious right?" I said, probably bursting his bubble.

"Aren't you excited for me? Jimmy told him about how well I worked at The Dot, now he wants me to come out there. Even if the while agent thing doesn't work out, I could be a business owner.." He was clearly disappointed that I wasn't too thrilled.

I wasn't focusing on the conversation anymore, I had retrieved the mail and got the package from Snake. Now I was just sorting through the other mail to avoid opening it. The water bill was here, a letter from the insurance company, a magazine, and I paused when I saw the last letter. "Hey Spin, I have to go. We'll talk about this later." I ended the call quickly and started tearing the letter open carefully. It had been so long since I had heard from him..

Dear Emma,

It's been a while, I know. I hope you can forgive me for not writing or calling. The army life's been busy and tough, I just didn't want to burden you with any of that. I mean truly, it isn't the kind of life I would want for anyone else. Being in Afghanistan gave me a lot of time to think. I had time to think about the past twelve, almost thirteen years. Em, I'll be coming home soon. I want to see you. I understand if you don't want to see me, but I'd like it if you would. I want to catch up with you again, see how you're doing, and know how you feel. I don't know if I'm going to enroll again, but there are some things you need to know. Emma Nelson, you're what kept me going through my whole time in Afghanistan. The thoughts of my girl back home gave me the strength to go on. I don't have much time to write this, so I'll make it short. Emma, meet me at The Dot, June 18th, 3:30. It would mean the world to me.

Love, Sean

I let the letter fall out of my hands and on to the floor. I was having trouble breathing, and I didn't know what to think. I couldn't control myself as I fetched a piece of paper and my favorite purple pen. Words spilled on to the pages…