I am nothing.
I am Prussia.
I am I am I am
I am I am
I am
.
.
.
But what is Prussia?
Prussia Prussia Prussia
Prussia is a country,
my country,
me.
Konigreich Preuβen.
Kingdom of Prussia.
Founded in 1701,
and in 1918,
dissolved.
No
longer
a
country.
No
no no no no no
if there is no Prussia
I cannot be Prussia.
If I am not Prussia,
who am I?
.
.
.
I am nothing.
.
.
.
I long to be acknowledged.
I need to be acknowledged.
.
.
.
So I will be loud,
and annoying,
and my scratchy laugh,
"kesesesese,~"
will be something
no one ("no one"? Isn't that me? I am no one)
will ever
forget.
.
.
.
So I will rip your sheet music,
pull your hair,
be a leech,
because
even if you hate me—
and you do hate me (of course you do)—
you at least know
that I exist.
I am here.
Prussia lives.
.
.
.
Everything I do is a silent plea:
notice me
Notice Me
NOTICE ME!
.
.
.
The things I do for attention
are gradually
becoming
uneffective.
"Oh—
it's just
Gilbert.
No big deal."
No.
"What else can you expect from him?"
No.
"I barely
even
notice
it—
him—
anymore."
NO!
.
.
.
noticemenoticemenoticeme
noticemenoticemenoticeme noticemenoticemenoticeme noticemenoticemenoticeme
noticeme!
.
.
.
"Prussia,"
I hear you,
your voice so soft,
barely there,
"Prussia"
You are the only one to call me that now.
Only
you.
"Prussia"
say
my
name
"Prussia!"
scream
my
name.
"PRUSSIA!"
.
.
.
when we finish
you say my name
again
"Prussia,"
you hesitate,
"Prussia,
are
you
okay?"
Okay?
Me?
I am
never
okay.
"You look a bit …
different,
Prussia.
Paler.
Thinner."
A shrug
a murmur of
I'm fine
and you believe me.
.
.
.
It's enough to make me want to cry.
and laugh.
cry laugh cry laugh cry cry cry
.
.
.
Sometimes I forget.
What I'm doing.
Who I am.
Everything.
.
.
.
Sometimes they forget, too.
.
.
.
Sometimes we forget together.
.
.
.
it is cold
so cold cold cold
you look at me
"who are you?"
who am i?
who am i?
good question.
.
.
.
I look at my feet.
I have no feet.
I look at my hands.
I have no hands.
.
.
.
I am fading.
.
.
.
I am
I am I am
I am I am I am
I am Prussia.
I am nothing.
i own nothing.
i realize it jumps around a lot and makes no sense. this is intentional.
this is the raw version - unedited and everything. i have not even proofread it.
it may or may not be edited in the future.