A.N: Written for my challenge on the True Blood Fanfiction Challenges forum, "The Diary Entries Challenge". I used Sarah Newlin, and this is set roundabout between series 3 and 5, when she wasn't present on the show.
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Dear Diary,
It has been a while since I wrote in here, by means of releasing my thoughts to another source. My life has held nothing of interest for a while, much to my despair.
"Ye though I walk to the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. For thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me. Anointous my head with oil, my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the lord forever…"
I am bitter, Diary, I must confess. My life seemed to be heading completely in the right direction. I seemed to have it all! I had a perfect husband; we had our wonderful church together, and our committed following. We were the ideal couple everyone at the Fellowship wanted to be! I was in full control of my life (and most of the lives around me). God's plan was really working out; we were going to annihilate the vampire race slowly, by means of the Fellowship.
I made the Fellowship of the Sun. Of course it may have seemed like Steve was running the show, but it was I who dealt with all the business. It was I who brought all the people to us; Steve just advocated the cause! But it was he who seemed to get all the recognition for my work. But I didn't mind, back then.
Now, the Fellowship has been completely destroyed by the vampires, and in tow were those damn Stackhouses (forgive me). Steve was angry when he found out that I enticed Jason Stackhouse into my bed and had sex with him, but we didn't get long together to reconcile our disintegrating marriage – Steve was kidnapped in the dead of the night, one night, shortly after our demise. I haven't seen him since, but rumour has it he has been made vampire, and a gay one, to boot.
Now I am in the middle of things. I have no life, as of yet. I am a single person, hiding away from the vampires whom I know would love to tear me shred from shred, for all the things Steve and I did to them. It has been well over a year since the demise of the Fellowship, and finally, I think my path has been illuminated again! There is a man, by the name of Truman Burrell, who I know (from listening through the grapevine) is planning on writing off the entire vampire race. I fear that throwing myself at another man will result in another Fellowship Situation. I want to manipulate a man slowly and surely, but not another man like Steve. Hopefully, Truman is different. He appears to be very different. He has a daughter, an older daughter, I have heard. He plans on inducing a vampire-killing disease that he is in the process of creating, into the TruBlood streams around the world.
He seems like exactly the man I need to be with, and a person I can use to step up to power. I will fuck my way up to the top if I have to.
And that is just it, Diary. That is what I plan to do. Step up to power, and wipe out the vampire race before they continue to ruin my perfect life.
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