-In memory of a loved Ranger. We'll miss you.-
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An angelface smiles to me
Under a headline of tragedy
That smile used to give me warmth
Farewell - no words to say
beside the cross on your grave
and those forever burning candles
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Watching my mom die right before my eyes tore my heart apart. There's so many things that I wish I could do, things I wish I did do before she left me and Al. I wish I said more to comfort her as her spirit left us. I wish...that I could've told her I loved her one more time. But I can't. I can't turn back time, it's impossible. The only thing I can do now is talk to her grave...
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Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
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The first night was the worse. Al had cried himself to sleep. He could never stop the tears from flowing, and I couldn't say anything to comfort him. I was never good at that, really. She always had the right thing to say to make us feel better. But she were the one making him cry...she could never comfort us again...
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In my hands
A legacy of memories
I can hear you say my name
I can almost see your smile
Feel the warmth of your embrace
But there is nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell?
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I still can't stand that fact that she's dead. I feel like nothing without her. It's an unreal feeling knowing I'll never be able to see her or talk to her again. When I'd come home she won't be there to welcome me back with her smile. She won't be there...
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Never thought
This day would come so soon
We had no time to say goodbye
How can the world just carry on?
I feel so lost when you are not by my side
But there's nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell?
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I hated the funeral. I admit it, I felt almost...helpless...watching her be slowly buried in dirt. I don't like thinking about it. Her; well, her body, that's only just an empty corpse but it's still her...just lying in the dirt slowly decomposing. I'm scared...I really don't know how I'll live without her...we need her...
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All of my memories
Keep you near
In silent moments
Imagine you'd be here
All of my memories
Keep you near
The silent whispers, silent tears
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I wish I could just cry like Al does. It probably would make me feel better. But I'm the older brother, I have to be strong, right? Right...it's hard to not let them fall. Like, I cried one or two tears, and it makes me feel bad that I don't cry more, but I just can't. I really don't want to cry...
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But all these thing are careless things
I want them
But always night, I close my eyes
I want to run
Run to you...in dreams
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I want her back so badly. Every night I have dreams...or...nightmares...something...when I sleep, and I imagine her and us together like it used to be. And every time she leaves us again, and it hurts more and more each time and I always wake up crying. I hate this, I want her back so much...I miss her...
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If tears could build a stairway
And memories a lane
I'd walk up to heaven
And bring you home again
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I really can't stand this. And I bet Al feels the same way. Everyday, right after school, we'd both go into the cemetery and put new flowers on her grave. We can't just leave it bare...sometimes we talk to her though. When we do, I feel this tight feeling in my chest, like my heart's being crushed. I want to talk to her for real.
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My god had it right
For you tonight
And you will see
And you will see us...again
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I've started thinking more about alchemy...science is always the answer to things afterall. And I know I have read something about a homunculus...I know its a forbidden alchemy, but its worth a try. I really think Al and I would be able to do it, and bring her back. Things will be better if she was alive again...okay...I've decided. I'm going to tell Al today.
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Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home
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I'll see you again soon Mom...
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-Owari
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© Copyright 2007 Ayumi Elric (FanFiction ID 1136837 ). All rights reserved. The series Full Metal Alchemist(Hagane No Renkinjutsushi) belongs fully to Himoru Arakawa; usage of her series and character is entirely borrowed. The song lyrics(in order of appearance); Angels Fall First by Nightwish, My Last Breath by Evanescence, Our Farewell by Within Temptation, Memories by Within Temptation, Memories Of You by Waiting For Autumm, the poem Tears and Memories by Keakachan (A.k.a. Mayuna of fanfiction) and the song lyrics of Even In Death by Evanescence belong fully to their creators. All rights reserved for plot, not to be stolen, copied or reproduced without the permission of Ayumi Elric.