If I Ain't Got You
Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush.
Okay so this idea has just kind of been floating around in my head for a while. I've been deciding what to do in it, and what I should call it. At first it was "Halo" and then it was "Journey" but then I finally decided on this so…live with it if you can. So anyways, I'm finally starting it and I hope it goes over well :D. Please review and tell me what you think.
Logan shriveled up in the corner of his room, not sure whether to take the news as good or bad. It wouldn't matter anyway, it's not like he could get James to stay. It all happened about a year ago…
While the boys were trying to get first place in the hockey tournament, Kendall, Carlos, and James were all becoming closer. They started to leave Logan out of all of their activities. Soon, they were actually almost starting to avoid Logan. It was nothing the boy wasn't used to. His parents neglected Logan ever since he was four. So, after a few months of loneliness, the pain started to come back from his childhood, and he started to cut himself. Yes Logan knew it was unhealthy, but he couldn't stop. It seemed to make him forget things and focus on the real pain at hand. One day while the boys were changing into their hockey uniforms, James noticed the scars on Logan's wrists. He confronted Logan about everything the next day when James got him alone. Logan confessed to everything, about how he felt. James laughed and told him that they were just growing closer, and the last thing James wanted, was to make Logan feel left out. So after, when the three were doing things again, James would always invite Logan to come along. And if it was something Logan didn't want to do, James would always stay back with him, and Logan stopped cutting himself. After awhile Logan and James got pretty close. The boys kind of broke off into pairs. Carlos and Kendall would always go do stuff together and James and Logan would go do things too. One day, after it seemed James and Logan couldn't get any closer, James wanted to audition to become a singer for Roque Records. Logan supported him, figuring that the odds were not in his favor, and he wouldn't have to be worried about losing him. But, James actually got the job, and Logan had to choke back tears and put on a smile for weeks. Then one day, James was gone. He was living the life, he moved to California, away from Logan. Almost instantly, it felt as if Kendall and Carlos were shunning Logan again, running off to do their own things, whether it was hunting down girls, going paint balling, or playing laser tag. Logan got the lonely feeling again and started to cut himself again. Kendall and Carlos never paid enough attention to Logan to notice. To them, Logan was just another one of the guys on the hockey team, not even a friend practically.
It had been practically 7 months since James left. Kendall called Logan. He said nothing but to pack a suit case. So just in case, Logan had told his mom that he may be gone for a week or two. His father was in prison for drug overdose, and his mom had just barely gotten out of counseling to be a better parent. She told him okay and simply let him go.
Logan had just finished packing when Kendall had told him that James was coming in concert tonight. And now here we are with Logan backed into the corner of his room. He received another text from Kendall that told him to bring the suitcase. So, Logan pulled himself together and walked into the driveway finding Kendall's car.
"Hey," Logan's face masqueraded the pain and seemed to transform into a huge smile. He was very good at putting up a happy front. He learned from his past that it was easier to act happy, so he finally perfected his fake smile and made it through all of those years.
"Hi," Kendall smiled back. "Throw your stuff in the trunk." He told Logan. The smaller boy went to the back and opened the trunk. He slid his suitcase in the remaining space and slammed it shut. Logan went and opened the car door and sat in the backseat.
"So where are we going after?" Logan asked them.
"It's a surprise." Kendall grinned over to Carlos. They hadn't been telling Logan anything for the past week that they had this planned. Logan figured it was normal; they never shared anything with him anymore. This was the first thing that they invited him to do in a long time. That part made Logan feel a little special.
After about twenty minutes of driving they finally pulled up to the arena and Logan felt his stomach about let the butterflies loose. The smart boy was a little lost, why did they show up at the concert around eleven p.m.? There wouldn't even be anywhere to park, what was the point? But Kendall wasn't looking for a place to park. He kept driving until they reached the back of the arena and found the actual tour bus. He popped open the trunk and parked the car. Kendall and Carlos both flew out of the car and grabbed their suitcases.
"Guys what's going on?" Logan asked.
"We're breaking into the tour bus." Kendall yelled in a whisper. "We're going to be on tour with him for the next half year!" Kendall's voice was very happy, and Logan's stomach reached a whole new level of sick. Reluctantly, he stepped out of the car, grabbed his suitcase, and followed them to the tour bus.
"Guys, we don't have a way to get in." Logan stated. "So we tried, might as well just give up now."
"Please Logan," Kendall started. "me and James worked this whole thing out." Kendall smiled. He grabbed the lever and pulled the door open. "Come on, it's giant in here." Kendall said. Carlos and Logan both followed. Their leader, Kendall, wasted no time in throwing his suitcase on the bed right over the driver's seat. "I love these things." He stated as he climbed up and sat on it.
"I call this one!" Carlos called jumping on the giant bed in the back.
"Carlos, I'm pretty sure that's James's," Logan said.
"Oh," Carlos sighed and hopped off of the bed. "Well, never mind then." He rushed back over to Logan and Kendall. "Then I call the couch bed." Carlos set his stuff on the couch. Suddenly, Logan started to laugh.
"Guys, you can't be serious about this." He smiled. "Haha funny joke. Let's go, or our moms are going to kill us." Logan grasped his suitcase.
"See, this is why we didn't tell you until now." Kendall stated. "We knew you would chicken out." Logan was caught a little off guard.
"No I won't," He said. "It's just...I didn't pack enough clothes." He lied.
"Then we'll pick you some up on the road." Kendall stated. "Stop being a baby." Soon, the door opened and James entered the bus.
"James!" Carlos yelled and pounced to the boy. "What took you so long?" Carlos had a small little Latino meltdown and hugged James.
"Gee, I don't know, maybe, the concert." James laughed and gave Carlos a noogie.
"Hey James." Kendall got off of the bed.
"What it is Knight." James smiled. Kendall gave James a friendly hug as well. The two boys backed away and made room for Logan, who was already close to tears. He lunged at James and gave him a very heartwarming hug.
"Hey, are you good buddy?" James asked very softly and hugged him back. Logan's head buried into James's chest and the taller boy ran his hand through Logan's hair.
"I'm better now," He actually started sobbing into James's chest. He sighed, knowing that something was wrong.
"Hey guys, so we're hitting Bismarck next." James told them while holding onto Logan tightly. "Um Kendall you can have the top bed, which I guess you already took." He laughed. "And apparently Carlos has the couch, and Logan can have my bed, and I'll sleep on the floor."
"Okay," Kendall smiled.
"Sure," Carlos agreed. The two boys went back to their beds.
"No," Logan said wiping his eyes. "I'll take the floor; you can have your bed." He faked a smile.
"Oh please, we already learned I can see right past that fake smile." James said. He pulled Logan back into the hug. "Well, it's a two person bed; we can both sleep in it as long as you don't feel awkward." James stated.
"Okay," Logan agreed. And with that, the boys started on the road.
Well, I hope you guys liked it, remember to review, tell me what you liked, what you think, critique me, anything really. Thanks