Syed and Christian from wedding onwards. Not sure about this one so appreciate any comments. May just be a one-off.
His mind was wandering again. He always did this when he was here in the Unit. Back to times when it was just him and Christian working together. Remembering the conversations they had had, the first time they met and that terrible Muslim and Christian misunderstanding and how he had walked off angry. He also recalled how after that they had become good friends and when he had backed Christian up after he had too much to drink on his birthday and eased him through the day. Then he remembered their first night and how they had come back here and argued before he had kissed Christian and then it had all started.
All the time he had been kidding himself for so long that it was just lust that when Christian had finished it and gone out with James instead, he had realised then that his feelings had deepened and he was in love with him. Then the dinner at Christian's and that glass. He wondered sometimes if he hadn't cut his finger whether they would have got back together again. But then he wouldn't have missed their last few months together for the world. Even allowing for a few weeks when he was being blackmailed, they were among the happiest times in his life. Thinking about those happy times was the only thing that got him through the life he was now living.
He remembered their walk together when Christian had told him he loved him for the second time and wanted him to say it back. He had and everything had been wonderful just then until the next day and his dad's accident. That's when the dream ended and the nightmare began. His current life, his marriage to Amira and the horrible tension between him and his mum since they had got back from honeymoon. She could hardly bear to look at him at all and if they were on their own together, she wouldn't acknowledge him or talk to him. When other people were around she was civil but no more and Syed knew the rest of his family were picking up on something being not quite right.
He felt so lonely and wished he could talk to someone about the situation but who could he turn to? Certainly not Christian. When he had got back from honeymoon, he had been really surprised to hear that Christian was still around. He thought he would be gone for good. He wasn't sure how he felt about this, in a way he was glad as at least he would still see him occasionally but at the same time if Christian moved on and met someone else, he wasn't sure he could cope with that right now. They had only bumped into each other a few times and just nodded and said a quick hello and that was it. Christian seemed to be really focussed on working in the Vic and getting on with his life.
Syed's thoughts reluctantly went back to the previous night. Amira had wanted him to make love yet again. She just couldn't seem to get enough at the moment and he was hoping that once the newlywed months had passed that she would ease off a bit. He remembered how he had been dozing off in the bed and her arms had draped around him and he had felt her soft breath across his face as she kissed light kisses across his cheeks until she reached his mouth. He had tried to protest and said he was tired but she was determined and her hands had moved and she had stood up and removed her dressing-gown. She was naked underneath and she smiled seductively at him. He had sighed inwardly but had reached out for her. They rolled together on the bed and he made love to her. Afterwards he couldn't sleep and kept thinking how different things were in bed with Christian. It wasn't just the obvious differences but other things he missed. He missed the strength but tenderness and he hated always having to be in control with Amira. He remembered how Christian and him would take turns but it had always been so very different. He was just going through the motions with Amira and it didn't really satisfy him.
His mum's baby was due any time now and he was hoping that having a baby in the house would ease the tension. Also perhaps Amira would back off a bit once they were all tired due to lack of sleep because of the baby crying. He finished off what he was doing and packed up the food to take to the function.