My Pathetic Life

Summary : Light caused a very tragic accident which shattered his family. He felt really guitly and began to be depressed when luckily a girl came and helped him to find the real meaning of life.

Possession : My original characters are : Yagami Ayami and Laura Wind. The death note's are not belong to me.

I'm Light Yagami, an extraordinary 17 years old guy. I would supposed to have a normal and boring life if I hadn't had chosen the decision. What's the decision? You mustn't know now. First of all, you must see how is my family.

I have two sisters. One is my elder, she is 2 years older. The second one is my younger, I'm 3 years older than her. My younger, Sayu, is like my mother, they are really talkative. She is a bit naughty and coquettish. She likes Hideki Ryuga -a dumb but cool singer- a lot. She collects all his posters and CDs.

I have a similar personality with my father. Yeah, we're wise, mature, heroic, and of course smart. We both like detective stories,and we also love our family a lot.

And my elder sister, Ayami, she was similar to us until the miserable occurrence happened. In fact, it affected and changed my life a bit too, because deep inside my heart I know that it's my fault.

Well, Ayami has become the quietest one in our family. She hardly ever spoken any words, always refuses to speak or even only to make some gestures as responses. Never nods her head, never waves her hands, even never smiles or sullens. And tough she couldn't believe someone easily since she was a toddler, but it's abnormal if she can't believes anyone at all, like now . However, those abnormalities can be very reasonable. She has schizophrenia syndromes because of her trauma. Anytime you see her, you will find a strained, messy, and aware girl. She isolates herself from society almost all the time. She hardly ever puts any attention to everything but her circumstances.

Well, Ayami used to love me a lot until the accident happened. I really regretted my idiot decision. Soon after the nightmare happened, she hates me intense. I have no idea how could she changed so fast. I'm pretty sure, she loved me more than everything, even more than her own life. And I love her too. I love her with all my life and my soul. I'm sure she knew it. But now, she always scream hysterically when she feels my presence. That's why she often being mad anytime I pass her room. She has been doing it for a very long time –-eight months is not a short time if you have to pass it in such condition-. It makes me a bit bored and hopeless. Lately sometimes I feel a slight anger with her crawling in my heart.

That's not all, it's only...about five sixths of my suffering. My little sister is lame, because of me too. Luckily she copes well, it helps me a lot. It reduces my mental burden. Yeah, my siblings are extreme. One of them became really crazy and the another returned her joyful life successfully. Haha, thanks God for the flavors of life. Without them maybe I've bored to die. Tough, I often ask Him why does He give me sort of flavours.

The others look Sayu, my little sister, as an oasis in a very very extremely dry desert. But unreasonably her independence and cheerful life makes me feel more and more guilty day by day instead. The accident makes me desperated and feel really really guilty. To redeem it, I try to help my sisters as much as possible. Sadly, it's impossible to help Ayami. She always avoid me, and I know that my presence will make her worse. It hurts, but I always try to abandon my egoistic. I always tell myself, "If you really love Ayami, you must keep away from her"

Of course I also try to help Sayu, the cutest girl in home.I deliver and pick up her to and from school every day. I accompany her anytime she needs to go. I bought her lots of magazines, comics, and even CDs and movies 'cause she must be really bored. Yeah, she used to go to cinemas, or shopping malls with her friends. But lately she becomes more and more independent day by day. Sometimes she refused to be accompanied. She tries hard to manage her disability well, and she's succeed.

Yeah, I've tried to help them as much as I can. I've effort everything. Seems like it's enough to redeem my mistake. No, it isn't. Deep inside my heart, I've promised not to stop until they truly cured. And a man always fulfill his vow.

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