She tossed and turned in a cold sweat while having the same nightmare again.
They stood at the shore line facing each other. The moonlight was their only light to see each other and the air was full of salt. Michiru's eyes were full of sadness and Haruka's seem soulless.
"Why are we here Haruka?"
"To do what needs to be done." Haruka responded back nastily.
"What do you mean by that?" Michiru asked even though she knew what would happen. For it has happened every night for about a month, but she hasn't learned to change it. So she always asked the same questions.
"You know what I mean."
"No Haruka, I don't. Or I wouldn't ask." Michiru snapped back.
Haruka let out a sigh, "It's time to walk away Michiru. Its over"
Michiru stood there with tears in her eyes. She knew those words would be spoken. "Haruka, why are you doing this to me? Don't you know me at all? Don't you love me?"
"No Michiru, I don't. I don't love you. I was only with you cause of what we are. Cause we're Senshi. But I never have loved you."
"Then why did you stay around for so long then. You could have turned your back at any time and you didn't. Do you enjoy seeing me hurt? Do you Haruka! Is this all just a game to you?IS IT!"
"Of course. That's all this is. Just a game. That's how life is. And now this game is over." Haruka said as she turned and stated to walk away from Michiru. All Michiru could do was drop to her knees and keep crying. "HARUKA! DON'T GO. I LOVE YOU!"
"I'm sorry you have wasted your feelings on something that was never real"
That was the last she saw as she woke up quickly raising herself forward. Michiru felt her part of the bed soaked from sweat and tears. Her heart was racing. She covered her face in her hands and shook her head back and forth. "No. not again. Not the same dream" Michiru whispered to herself. She looked to the other side of the bed and noticed Haruka sleeping there peacefully. Michiru let out a sigh and threw off the covers and got out the bed. She walked over to the dresser and grabbed a new set of pajamas and walked to the other bathroom to shower. She didn't want to wake up Haruka with the shower in their room.
She closed the door quietly and locked it. She leaned her head on the door then turned around and pressed her back against the door. Michiru slide down to the ground and started crying. "Why is this happening? Why am I getting these nightmares every night? What is going on?" Michiru sobbed out to herself as she wiped the tears from her eyes. Michiru pulled herself off the ground and turned on the shower. As she let the shower warm up, she stripped out of her clothes and looked in the mirror. She noticed all the bite marks and scratches on her body from earlier that night. All the ones that stayed hidden under her clothes. A tear slipped from her eye as she stared at her naked body in the mirror remembering what had just happened earlier that night. "Is this all that is? A game? Haruka...why can't you ever say what you're really feeling." Michiru asked as she turned from the mirror to climb in the shower and started to rinse off all the sweat.
She stood there and let water pour over her body. "You have been so distant from me lately. I don't know what you're doing. What you are thinking or anything." Michiru spoke to herself. A sigh escaped from her mouth. "What is happening to us? We were so in sync in the beginning. Do you even love me? You never told me so." Michiru sat on the bottom of the tub and hid her face in her hands again trying to stop the tears. "I don't even know if we ever become an official or what. But yet, we live together. Why are you so confusing?"
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Haruka woke up in a panic. "Michiru?" She asked as she rolled over and noticed the other side of the bed was empty. "Michiru? Where are you?" Haruka asked. She noticed that Michiru's pillow was soaked and so was some of the bed. Haruka sat up in the bed. She stared at the empty side of the bed wondering what was going on. Haruka heard the sound of the faint shower in the distance. "She is showering again? She has showered every night for the pass month. What is going on with her?" Haruka asked herself as she crawled out of the bed and walked to their closet. She opened the door and sat on the ground.
She removed a piece of the floor and pulled a small shoe box out of it. Inside where letters she had wrote for Michiru that she hadn't given to Michiru. "Why can't I ever give these to you?" Haruka asked herself as she looked through them. They were letters expressing her real feelings for Michiru. The ones she could never speak of. She placed all the letters back in the box and pulled out a small box. She opened the box and diamond ring sat inside of it. "One day, when I'm done being a coward, you will have this." Haruka said as she stroked the ring. She closed the box and placed it back in the shoe box and placed the box back in the floor and placed the piece of the floor back.
Haruka pulled herself off the ground and closed the closet and walked to the kitchen to grab a glass of water.
She sat at the kitchen table and listened to the shower running. "Michiru…how do you stand me? I am nothing but misery for you. But yet, I am so scared of losing you cause of it. Gahh!" Haruka asked herself as she slammed her fist on the table. "Why can't I make things official with you? I want you and only you. But yet, I am terrified. I know I am not good enough for you. I know you can do so much better, so why do you stay here with me and put up with me?" Haruka asked as she looked towards the door way and heard the shower get turned off. "Michi, I love you. So why can't I ever say those words to you?" Haruka asked herself as she stood up from the table and made her way back to bed.
Along the way back to the room, she stopped at the bathroom and listened in on Michiru. She heard the aqua-net crying through the door. This stung Haruka's heart. She had a feeling that the tears where cause of her and she hated herself for causing them. She dragged herself away from the door and walked to the closet and pulled out the other set of sheets so she could change the bed.
After changing the sweaty sheets off the bed, Haruka decided to wait for Michiru to come back to bed but as soon as she got back in the bed, she fell asleep and wasn't able to convince Michiru to come back to bed with her.