it ends there, say your goodbyes

by lowi

Zacharias is ashamed of what he doesn't do. Parvati is scared of what she can't do. But together, they can forget the horrors that surround them in their seventh year. /M&MWP /Freeverse, for mew!

A/N: This is dedicated to Tsui, (mew-tsubaki) as her birthday gift. I hope you'll enjoy this, hon, and that your birthday was wonderful.

Also, thanks to Jess (lunalestrange4) for betareading. Finally, this pairing is a M&MWP, so credit to mew & Mor, for this!

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it ends there, say your goodbyes

there are t w o hearts
that suddenly melt together
into o n e

there are t w o people
that suddenly need each other
to l i v e on

one of them does it for her sister

one of them does it for himself
(and her, but shhh, don't tell)

it's all because there is a war going on
and it's only When they see each other
[[and when she sees her sister but that's a
different story]]
they see the light

"Zach, how do you do it? Why do you mean so much to me?"
breathe, Parvati, breathe

"Parvati, promise mE you'll never go"
wait for it, Zacharias, wait for it

they remember how they met
they'll n e v e r forget that
it's in their eyes when they look
it's on their skin when they touch

it's not as though it's beautiful
nor something disgraceful
it's a fact

it'S engraved in their collective memory
how they sTuMbLeD into an alcove
after a D.A. meeting
in fifth year

(we were quite young
but yet we knew all about the world
all tHat matters
we were right)

it was w a n d e r i n g hands & s h a t t e r e d words & h e a v y breaths & w a r m, s w e a t y touches

and then they walked away
with burning cheeks
and the feeling
that
oh my, (s)he regrets it
why was I so stupid?

except that was a
L
I
E

sO for a while
nothing
and then nothing
nothingnothingnothing

Until NOW

((fortunately))

(because again they need each other
to l i v e on)

and there is so much they want to forget
things that onLy s o f t kisses
and h u r r i e d touches
can erase

for Parvati it's the screams
the torture
the immense pain when someone's twisting on the floor
and she's not moving from her seat

for Zacharias it's his cowardliness
each and every Day
every moment
every minute

(they will totally be the couple of the year
with tHese reasons and misfitting and wrongness
oh yes)

but still
it is a pause from
everything
whenever they
kis(s)
(t)ouch
lo(o)k
s(p)are

their fingers Are entwined
but in reality
it's their heartstrings that
are

entwined
ntwinede
twineden
winedent
inedentw
nedentwi
edentwin
dentwine

and no matter how much they'd
try to WiGgLe out from that

they'd fail

(but that's something they won't admit
not even to themselves
because it could make them feel Vulnerable)

but of course
now too late comes
now they'll nEver have the chance to say it

it's regrets & why, oh why?
it's couldn't we have done something about it all? & oh no
it's zach, you can't leave me & I know, I know, I'll be back
it's but you won't & forgive me
it's I can't, I hate you & please don't, I love you

what did you just say?

"I love you."

and then he turns and walks away
Because he has to and she stands there left alone
and she knows it's evEn more too late now

but she doesn't even dare to tell him
to makE him to go back
return
by sayiNg those simple words

[I love you too]

because maybe she doesn't
(maybe she does)

all she sees is Him walking away
and leaving her
in there with the horrors and the fears and All that that they were supposed
to fight together

(or no, they weren't, they never even sPoke of it)

once they didn't need each other at all
but managed to stumble into understanding that they needed each other
and then they dePended on each other
and they still do
but now theY're

(F)
(O)A
(R)P
(E)A
(V)R
(E)T
(R)