You
Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran High School Host Club, and I am willing to bet I never will.
I see you smile and it cuts me deeply to know that at any time I pleased you could have been mine, but I had to wait until later.
When you smile I think, "She's happy. Just keep smiling when your happy the true you comes out." Stay happy seeing you makes me happy.
The thought of you being with someone else hurts the thought that whenever he wanted you could be yours. Little does he know that you like him.
Little does he and you know that I and jealous of him because he gets to be with you when I am not. I get to be the best friends that has to watch you two be cute with each other, hold hands, hug, and kiss each other without saying a word. I don't want to be the one that ruins your guys' chance at happiness, I can't be that guy.
You could have been mine, YOU could have been mine but that damned rule! You make me want to break every rule of dating I have ever made. Though I can't do it, I don't break the rules I make for myself, I can't do it.
Why must you torment me like that? Why must you bring me up to drop me down? Why did I have to ask who you likes? Why did you have to tell me who it was? ...Why did you stop caring?
The answers are simple. You don't mean to you brought yourself up with me but realized there was no reason to and climbed down. I'm a good friend I need to know. I keep things when people tell me too. Nothing was going on. Why care for someone if they are just going to push you away like I did?
I hope you two are happy. I hope you have fun. I hope you guys' find love. That's the kind of friend I am, the one that put their own friend's happiness over their own sadness. Yep, that's me the non-self-absorbed me.
I care too much for this to get in the way of the friendship that we have had for years. Take care of her because she's too good to get hurt from a boy like you.
This puts me in an awkward place. Do I say I like you, or do I keep lying to myself and hope it becomes the truth sometime soon? No matter what I choose it makes it hard on either you guys or myself. I know what I am going to choose because I can't put it out there that I like you. Not now since you told you told me who you like and your views of him. I mean what other choice was there really?
It's not like I love you, I mean I care for you a lot but I don't want to marry you. We or at least I never really wanted anything out of it. If anything I was just a boy for you like because you needed to like someone. You have never dated someone, it was about time that you didn't and you picked me.
I care for him more than you will know he's too close to me for you to get hurt by him. I'm sorry but if he does hurt you I WILL hurt him. Trust me he will hurt. I won't want to do it but I won't give it a second thought either.
I am just going to sit back and watch what happens. If you or her has to talk to me about what's going on I will listen like I normally do. I'm going to let you guys be happy, even if I have to be upset the whole time. I know how to mask my feelings well enough it shouldn't be a problem.