Note: This only follows canon up until the end of Season 1 but contains elements from Season 2 and the manga.
Inspired by: Fayolah's story "Home" on Wattpad
This drabble was written as a challenge in under twelve minutes.
Disaster - that's the only word that comes to mind for any of the Scouts to describe their most recent mission. The death toll was exceptionally high, even for their branch of the military, and everything had gone down the shitter and had been a completely epic failure on all accounts. If the Capital wasn't planning on stopping funding before, this might just drive the final nail into the Scouting Legion's coffin.
Pardon the pun.
No one has seen Levi like this before. Cold, shocked… and broken. He doesn't understand what happened. He is unable to comprehend it. It should have been impossible. To him, it still is impossible. To him, it hadn't happened. At least, he isn't willing to believe that it happened.
Why? Why did he have to do it? Why did he have to go out and sacrifice himself? Levi should have broken both of his legs when he had the chance.
But Levi hadn't - and that made all the difference.
Levi soon gets over the denial. To him, the sun is dead. The world is now a cold, empty, barren wasteland with nothing left for him to live for. With nothing left to give him reason to continue on. It's ironic, really. Few years ago, he would have done anything to kill the blonde, especially after what happened to Isabel and Furlan. Now? He feels emptier than he ever felt before, even emptier than back then. The world just hates him, doesn't it? It makes him trust and care for others, only to tear them away. Why does he bother anymore?
His thoughts, although unspoken, speak louder than they ever have.
I love you.
The words spoke too late and never spoke at all. He never got to say what he wanted to say. He never got to say his true thoughts, his true feelings. And he will have to live with that for the rest of his life.
High above, the astronomical sun still dared to shine brightly, and the world continued on.