Authors note!
Ok to get the hang of this one, you need to understand the 'you' Kai is talking about is himself, otherwise it can get slightly confusing!
Kai POV
I hate you! You who dwell inside my mind, eating away at my inner soul. When Grandfather hurt me, when he sent me to that awful abbey, you came to comfort me. It was great at first. No one else really mattered because I had you and we'd be together. You would speak to me, support me, care for me. I used to love you…
Then it got deeper, more intense. You became possessive, jealous when I met up with the Bladebreakers. You wouldn't allow me to let anyone in. You said it was to protect me, but now I know how much you lied to me. The protective walls were built. You made me believe that we could survive on our own.
That's when it got out of control. I wanted so much for someone to open up to. I began to realise that sometimes you need somebody to be there for you. I didn't need you anymore. But you wouldn't let go. You would not permit him to break through to me. And you wouldn't let me out.
He tried so hard and inside I was screaming for freedom, all I wanted to do was hold him, yet still you were cruel. So I became cold and uncaring, stoic even to you. That was the worst thing that I could have done. You are a part of me, so in a way I was hating myself. I felt lonelier than ever, a wrecked mind, damaged, hiding behind strong barriers.
Every time I saw him I wanted to yell out how I felt, but my mouth wouldn't form the words I so desperately wanted to release, and so he never knew. After the World Championships I didn't see him again, until now. You seem miles away from me though I only have to walk a few feet. The words I could use are few, but I can't find the right ones. Being on my own, I have worked on weakening my barriers. And now, I'm finally ready to talk.
"Rei…."
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Well, there ya go! Like all of mine, short and sweet! Reviews would be greatly appreciated!