Five months. It has been five long, excruciating months since I have seen Arizona. I'm to the point in my stages of loss where my anger has dulled to a slow throb. I need to clear my brain. Tonight is the night to move on. When I walk into Joe's I immediately spot my target. She's about 5'3", with curly blonde hair…Oh shit…she looks kind of like my Ari. Well not my Ari anymore. Oh what the hell I need to get laid. It's time to grow some balls Torres. As I walk up to her the throb in my chest intensifies, signaling my longing for my ex-lover, but I push through and make it to the bar right next to her.
"Hi, I'm Callie."
The next morning
After the awkward process of getting out of bed without waking the sexy stranger next to me, I was in the shower, washing away the sheen of sweat that my body was covered in. I reeked of sex and I needed a hot shower to relax my mind and rid myself of the guilt I was harboring due to last night's rendezvous. After dressing I walk out of the bathroom and I'm greeted with a pair of striking green eyes. I can't help but notice that they aren't the blue eyes I have become accustomed to be seeing and that fact hurts.
"Hey Cal", she says. "Why don't you hop back in bed and we can go for round…..8….is it?"
"Ummmmm…I'm not sure that's"-before I can gracefully kick her out of my apartment there is a knock at my front door and I groan in frustration. "Wait there. I'll be right back."
As I walk to the door I'm thinking of nothing but ways to rid myself of my mistake from the previous night. It was when I opened the door that I realized it might be a while before I can forget my actions.
"Calliope."
"Arizona."
"Arizona, wha, what are you doing here?"
"I missed you."
"Ummm….you could have called first."
"Well I thought if I would've called you wouldn't have agreed to see me. I needed to see you Callie. I needed to look into those big brown eyes. I should have never left you baby. I know you're angry but I," she choked on her words as tears started to form in her baby blue eyes, "I love you and I can't live without you. I've been living a lie for the past four months, 27 days, and", she glanced at her watch, "6 hours. Please Cal, give me another chance. We are supposed to be together and have three babies and…."
"Hey Callie, do you have an extra toothbrush? It seems I didn't have one in my purse." What's her name finally looked up and I guess she noticed the pissed off look I was giving her because she quickly stated "Oh sorry to interrupt" and then scurried back into my bedroom clad only in a bedsheet.
I'm dreading Arizona's gaze but it is inevitable. When I finally turn around to Arizona the few tears that were flowing out of her eyes are now joined with a multitude of more and although she is making no sound her chest is heaving so much I'm in fear that she might pass out. It seems as if we stand for days. Her looking at my bedroom door and me looking at her. It is Arizona who finally breaks the silence and what she exclaims is the last thing I expected.
"Oh no", she cries while clamping her hand over her mouth and I swear her knees almost buckle underneath her so I reach out to her. She flinches and I drop my arm.
"I'm sorry that you had to see that Arizona but what the hell made you think I hadn't moved on in the past 5 fucking months."
"I have to go."
And there she goes again.